One Step at a Time - June 2012

[Cinders]

One Step at a Time - June 2012

"Good times while drinking...."

I totally understand, Nora.

I can't even begin to tell you about all my "good" times. They were plenty.

I can't even begin to tell you about all my "bad" times. They were plenty. If you want more information, I can supply. Many here can type reams.

Do you want to chase the good times and risk the bad times?

Only you can decide.

Love,
Cindi

[Cinders]

One Step at a Time - June 2012

Oooh. Sorry. That seems rough but it is what it is.

I won't go into my "bad" times but they were really, really bad.

Love,
Cindi

[mama bear]

One Step at a Time - June 2012

Nora....is that how it goes with addiction?????
It is no longer fun, but a deadly need??
I dunno
I can play and be silly, but not very good with deep philosopical stuff
Maybe you are having days that you are doing this cos you think you SHOULD and not cos you WANT too???

[RingingCedars]

One Step at a Time - June 2012

Popping in to say ello. Busy studying again. Although I had a rough time a couple of weeks ago I am back on track with "my" moderation goals once or twice a week with self imposed limit. Haven't drank since last weekend(didn't overindulge) and have not been whiteknuckling it in the least. I've been reading alot and reflecting the last week on various posts on drinking levels and compulsive drinking. Thank you all for sharing. My heart goes out to those especially who felt the need/compulsion to drink from the time they woke til pass out almost each and everyday. Constantly hiding their booze and living in fear of being caught must have been nightmare truly. But for the grace of God....We are all on our personal journeys and I try to respect each and every one of you and hope for the same in return.
There's my little philosophical post. nanner nanner...

[NoraC]

One Step at a Time - June 2012

Thanks friends. I LOVE being able to come here and make a statement like that and know that you all understand and will talk to me about it. :l It helps to be able to talk about it/think about it.

Mama - I think some of it is because i know that I 'should' do it and sometimes I don't 'want' to do it.
And Cindi & Molly - you are both right about chasing the good times. Why would I want to do that?
I think that I have been using alcohol when I'm stressed or depressed, etc. I have gotten better about that. Looking at triggers, etc. But, now I was thinking about sitting and having a cold beer. Glass of wine, etc. I need to remember with me that it leads to shots of tequila. Too many beers. Bottles of wine. I'm not a person that is going to enjoy one glass. So, need to stop painting a pretty picture.

Thanks so much for letting me talk. :l

[NoraC]

One Step at a Time - June 2012

x post RC. So great to see you. And, I LOVE your posts. :h

[RingingCedars]

One Step at a Time - June 2012

NoraC;1342481 wrote: x post RC. So great to see you. And, I LOVE your posts. :hThanks Nora. You are such an encourager and I truly appreciate you. Just trying to speak my truth with love. :l

mollyka;1342484 wrote: Good for you RC - truly -

That means alot to me Molly. Thank you.
mollyka;1342484 wrote: and I agree - we are all on our own journeys - I'm inclined to get a bit evangelical about all this - and that's wrong - cos what I'm pontificating about is only true for me
Just reading here and on other threads about cravings and urges etc. ya know 'stinkin thinkin' - and sometimes I feel very lucky that I don't feel any - today anyway. However - I've said before that holidays would be a 'trigger' for me - I reckon I'd be ok now - but the day I can look at a 'cruise' brochure and not think 'what's the point - I can't drink' - that's the day that I will truly have ... moved on!

We are on our own journeyy's and of course we will come influenced by that perspective. It's been a pleasure watching you grow into this empowered woman in a mere 6 months. One step at a time yah? :l

[RingingCedars]

One Step at a Time - June 2012

Holy hell Molly I cringe everytime I think of how I was when I landed here. But I am pretty sure that had I not gone the al medication route for the time that I did, I would have offed myself due to the emotional pain I was in. However, enough was enough and I had to pull out of it and I have with self determination, slowly getting back to health basics and of course the lovely support and encouragement from many people here! Long live positivity!! muah

[mama bear]

One Step at a Time - June 2012

I love this thread...everyone speaks openly withouot fear of judgement or criticism....
I can't mod.....but if you can...enjoy!!
If i were alone and did not have so many people looking to me...I might consider modding some day...I dunno...I have employees , hubs, kids, etc amd life is just so dang much simpler and nice without AL....
and now that I have said that out loud I am not even sure I would mod if single.
Not really having a choice has made this easier for me....
to each his own happiness, and I am for whatever works for anyone here
(except Nora:h)
peace out
busy as hell at work all of a sudden

[A.J.]

One Step at a Time - June 2012

Hi Lexi, glad you decided to visit us here. Some of us are on your first thread . I think this is my home on MWO. I feel a real connection here. Congrats on day3, remember you thought you couldn't do it but here you are.
Bri hope things are looking brighter today, I'm day 4 too not bad (considering 5 days ago I was a bottle of scotch a day drinker, that boggles my mind) except i'm longing for a really good sleep.
To everyone else hope your day was / is great . Going to keep busy .Tomorrow is my day off so tonight would have been my big night to drink even more. Think I'll get out of the house and drive around the city all night if I have to . BTW I'm the oldest hot sister

[mama bear]

One Step at a Time - June 2012

too funny AJ!

[Sunbeam]

One Step at a Time - June 2012

On the mods topic:
I can mod, did so for three years. Had many AF days, often drank within reasonable limits. But never within the advised one 5 oz. glass per day. In recent months, I was drinking a bottle over the course of the afternoon and evening, a couple times per week. Still functional, but I simply don't want to do that any more. I was drinking less than before I came here, but still too much.

I now have no clear memories of good times while drinking, though I guess it was pleasant when hubby and I shared a bottle of wine with dinner. And I have a few friends with whom I used to enjoy wine, but I've told them about my problem, and now they suggest alternatives to wine for us. I have a friend, for example, I invite over to enjoy watermelon, which my husband doesn't eat. Those old days are gone for good. I'm done, don't want to drink any more. I'm tired of the struggle, and I should not be drinking at all with my health issues.

Today I thought about wine at Christmas dinner. It's not an environment, at my SIL's house, where I can drink too much. But no, it would just get me started again. Been there, done that, time for me to be done. I'm thinking of starting a thread called, "lessons I have learned" but I need to make my list first.

Welcome, Lexi. I'm just a few days ahead of you. It is important to have a home at MWO, this can be yours.

I came home from work with a headache today, I think it's subsiding. I layed down for awhile with a cool washcloth on my forehead. OTC meds for this don't work for me, and they are too hard on my stomach. It is much hotter today than in recent days, and sometimes I have trouble making the adjustment. Tomorrow will still be hot, but I will be fine.

[paula]

One Step at a Time - June 2012

Hi everybody, had a busy day working, treated a few minor injuries and sunburn (or maybe it was rust the volume of rain we had recently) Mama I checked in my Mims book, and your meds should be ok together but they will both make you sleepy, but as your doctor prescribed them maybe thats the reason. Hi Lexi, spoke to you on another thread, you are so welcome here. I feel so at home on this thread, lots of kindness and support and no judging, I do enough of that for myself. I can't drink moderately, lord I have tried and failed so often. Well done AJ. I don't think anybody but another alcoholic/problem drinker can understand what an achievment it is to stay sober for even a few days. Still reading the book Mama, also started reading the Hypnotist, which is good. Reading is something I enjoy, but when I'm drinking it is impossible to read even a few pages.

[mama bear]

One Step at a Time - June 2012

good to know Paula...thanks for remembering me
and yes...it's for sleep issues, but i think I will try my first dose on Friday coz I am off Saturday

[paula]

One Step at a Time - June 2012

Hi Sunbeam, x post, hope you feel better.