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    One Step at a Time - June 2012

    Click! Mornin Kradle, Nora and those to come.
    Glad you're back on the horse...or nag as the case may be. I was reading some in the Newbie Nest last night. You've got excellent support there....just keep riding girl. xo
    Nora, you've identified what you need to do(ie back to some time in your journal and reflecting on those thoughts). This is good...life is very busy for you right now and you're doing a lot of pleasing which ultimately leaves less me time and probably needing a bit of escape. I know I often devolve into old habits when I just want an escape. Get ye to thy journal girl. xo
    Coffee done and must get off my arse. Another rainy indoor day...
    Psalms 119:45


    ?Start by doing what is necessary, then what is possible, and suddenly you are doing the impossible.?

    St. Francis of Assisi



    I'm not perfect, never will be, but better than I was and not as good as I'm going to be.

    :rays:

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      One Step at a Time - June 2012

      I was having stinkin drinkin thoughts today. Nothing serious. But, just the fact that they are there is bugging me. Warning flags are going up.
      One thing I find universally among us that are trying to stay AF is the above.

      It bothers us that we have drinking thoughts, as if that is a failure all on its own.

      It isn't. We will have them. It is okay.

      It is what we do with them that matters.

      Having a good one here. Ready to take on a bit more work today, although I did not mow as requested yesterday. I realized it might not be too smart. Let the body heal a bit longer...

      One step at a time, peeps!!

      Love,
      Cindi
      AF April 9, 2016

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        One Step at a Time - June 2012

        "Morning Steppers !" Time to get up and smell the rose's ........(not 4 roses whiskey thought. Ha!) It's another day of fighting our wanting to take a nip. We can do it.......Hope everyone is well ! Tony
        ?Be who you are and say what you feel because
        those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.?
        Dr. Seuss

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          One Step at a Time - June 2012

          Morning IAD & all.

          IAD - love that comic. :H:H That's the way I felt this morning.

          Cindi - thanks for that. You're right - I can have the thought but I don't have to act on it.

          I hope that everyone is doing well today. I think I'm up to 15 days now. Not really counting, just taking it a step at a time.
          "Only I can change my life. No one can do it for me.".....Carol Burnett
          ..........
          AF - 7-27-15

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            One Step at a Time - June 2012

            Hi Nora!

            Are you still taking Antabuse? My prescription ran out a week ago and my pharmacy ran out too, it's "on order"...will be ready today, thank heavens!!! I had stupid-ass drinking thoughts last night too...after all this time. I was in a bad mood, some people on here were annoying me, and I just felt like saying F*ck IT! I even told my daughter "I'm getting beer tonight"...and she said "NO! MOM! You can't"....so I drove home PISSED OFF (at her and myself), took a shower, got into bed at 7:30 and read a book. Do you know how THANKFUL I am that I didn't drink last night? I feel so much happier today, but if I had drank, I would have a hangover right now, and my anxiety would be through the roof. I guess the point of my long-winded story is that after all this time, I still DO understand the drinking thoughts. Maybe they'll be there forever...but we don't have to act on them. I'm sending you strength....we can BOTH do this! :h
            K9
            :heart:I love my daughter more than alcohol:heart:

            Believe in yourself. You are stronger than you think.

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              One Step at a Time - June 2012

              K9,

              Thank you for sharing. These kinds of struggles that all of us face and face down are so helpful to everyone here.

              It truly is one step at a time.

              :goodjob: on not giving in and one other lesson is that it is okay to be in a bad mood and pissed off, it is just a part of life and that too shall pass.

              Glad you are feeling better. :l

              Cindi
              AF April 9, 2016

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                One Step at a Time - June 2012

                Hi K9. Good job on getting thru last night. :l:l I still have my antabuse but I haven't taken it in a couple of weeks. I have my niece & nephew spending the summer with us - so drinking is not an option. I am still taking Naltrexone daily. My niece is going to visit a friend next week for a few days and my nephew will stay over at my son's place one night. So, I will take an antabuse next week just to be on the safe side. I'm doing pretty well except thinking about a couple of months from now when they're home and I can drink again. That's when I'm going to have to be sure that I'm faithful with my antabuse for sure.
                "Only I can change my life. No one can do it for me.".....Carol Burnett
                ..........
                AF - 7-27-15

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                  One Step at a Time - June 2012

                  Thank you Cindi and Nora for the support!

                  I owe my not drinking to my daughter last night...it's scary how close we really are to the "rabbit hole"...like I had one foot down it and the other on a banana peel....that's HOW close I was. I shudder to think what would have happened if she wasn't home (like she wasn't ALL last week, and won't be ALL next week). I hate to be so dependent on the Antabuse, but obviously I still need it...so I'll use it. It's not cheating, it's simply a tool that I use to stay sober. I'll feel a lot more secure once I get my RX at lunchtime...I'll have to kind of "start over"...2 pills for 3-4 days then 1 pill per day. I can't believe I ran out, it's never happened before! I am thankful I am hangover-free today...and I'm happy again

                  Nora - get that AB down...that way you don't even have to think about it!!! :h
                  :heart:I love my daughter more than alcohol:heart:

                  Believe in yourself. You are stronger than you think.

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                    One Step at a Time - June 2012

                    K9 - that's my hardest time.......when I'm going to be home alone. Luckily, that is VERY rare. A couple times a year. Hubby doesn't drive or work so he is always home. But, when he goes up to visit his Dad, I have problems.
                    Yep - I'll be taking that AB. :thanks:
                    "Only I can change my life. No one can do it for me.".....Carol Burnett
                    ..........
                    AF - 7-27-15

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                      One Step at a Time - June 2012

                      Sure quiet here today. I'm sleepy. How's everybody doing? :wavin::hiya:
                      "Only I can change my life. No one can do it for me.".....Carol Burnett
                      ..........
                      AF - 7-27-15

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                        One Step at a Time - June 2012

                        Where is Mama? Is she out of town on a business trip?
                        :heart:I love my daughter more than alcohol:heart:

                        Believe in yourself. You are stronger than you think.

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                          One Step at a Time - June 2012

                          Yes - she's still on the business trip. I texted her last night & she was doing ok. Sleeping, actually.
                          "Only I can change my life. No one can do it for me.".....Carol Burnett
                          ..........
                          AF - 7-27-15

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                            One Step at a Time - June 2012

                            Hi everybody - afternoon time
                            K9 thanks so much for sharing that. I've reading your posts for a while and you make it look so easy,, and some days i think ' well, this is easy peesy! And then other days (like Saturday ) I think WTF...

                            It's dumb of me to think that everyone here isn't struggling in their own way. Thanks for the reminder!

                            So just got back from the counselor for Matt and there may light at the end of the tunnel. Both my husband and I really liked her. It was a good intake. She seems to have a good handle on these types of children Matt may turn out to be ADHD instead of ODD which makes my initial approach to him all wrong. But I feel like we have a plan in place now. We can move forward with professional help and I am not alone in this nightmare any more and importantly neither is my baby...

                            Thanks for all the support here as usual.
                            Off to vacuum, walk the dog and pick up the kids!

                            Hugs,
                            :l
                            On My Own Way Out Since May 20, 2012
                            *If you think poorly of yourself, you can fail with a clear conscience.
                            https://www.mywayout.org/community/f11/tool-box-27556.html tool box
                            https://www.mywayout.org/community/f19/newbies-nest-30074.html newbie nest

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                              One Step at a Time - June 2012

                              Oh PS
                              When I get the let's have a rum & tonic thoughts I pull up that what I hate about drinking thread.
                              Sometimes I pull it up just for fun
                              On My Own Way Out Since May 20, 2012
                              *If you think poorly of yourself, you can fail with a clear conscience.
                              https://www.mywayout.org/community/f11/tool-box-27556.html tool box
                              https://www.mywayout.org/community/f19/newbies-nest-30074.html newbie nest

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                                One Step at a Time - June 2012

                                Kradle - sounds like really good news about Matt. That will be great if you can get the right kind of help & support.

                                Sort of blahs today. Oh well - this too shall pass.

                                I am seriously thinking about getting that tattoo on my foot. The picture that I posted at the beginning of this thread. I'm even looking into places. Me!!! The person who was never going to get a tattoo. :H
                                "Only I can change my life. No one can do it for me.".....Carol Burnett
                                ..........
                                AF - 7-27-15

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