30 days! It?s hard to believe, I really didn?t know if I could get to this point. For better or worse, I had gotten so far down the drain I really had no choice. I had to stop digging the hole.
Echoing another thread: my AHA moments were about starting to miss important engagements-oh, things like work, doctor appointments, things I had to do with my kids, social engagements-whatever they were, I canceled them because I was just too sick and too tired. I could see me losing everything if I didn?t start to pull myself together, and the number of things I had to participate in was just getting larger. You really can?t shove life aside without paying some very heavy consequences, and mine were approaching fast.
Quitting was complicated by also taking some prescription drugs-benzos-which really made a mess of things. I quit them and AL at the same time! I would NOT recommend this to anyone. I was so sick and panicky-literally could not eat for 3 days, nothing at all-vomiting, pacing, no sleep?.so I finally called a psychiatrist who immediately put me on some short term meds to ease the withdrawal. We are now in the midst of talking therapy, which is wonderful!
So the good things: much more energy, I can run 3.5 miles every day again, I am present with my kids, and am doing all of the things I need to do each day. My anxiety is still there-especially early in the mornings-but it is way less than it used to be. I am taking vitamins, reading more, socializing more?even in 30 days you can feel so much better! Oh, and sleep, which I know is so difficult for so many of us. I can sleep-I do use melatonin and the occasion Ambien, but that?s it. I know this will continue to improve over time.
MWO has been so helpful to me. I have not posted much because I was not sure I could get through this, and I had asked for help so many times I felt I had played my cards. As I continue to rack up the days, I hope to offer whatever support I can!
Am considering AA now. Don?t know about that but it seems like I should play every card I can. I have some cravings but the thought of drinking makes very scared-I know how easy it would be to jump back down the hole.
Thanks to you all! CW
Echoing another thread: my AHA moments were about starting to miss important engagements-oh, things like work, doctor appointments, things I had to do with my kids, social engagements-whatever they were, I canceled them because I was just too sick and too tired. I could see me losing everything if I didn?t start to pull myself together, and the number of things I had to participate in was just getting larger. You really can?t shove life aside without paying some very heavy consequences, and mine were approaching fast.
Quitting was complicated by also taking some prescription drugs-benzos-which really made a mess of things. I quit them and AL at the same time! I would NOT recommend this to anyone. I was so sick and panicky-literally could not eat for 3 days, nothing at all-vomiting, pacing, no sleep?.so I finally called a psychiatrist who immediately put me on some short term meds to ease the withdrawal. We are now in the midst of talking therapy, which is wonderful!
So the good things: much more energy, I can run 3.5 miles every day again, I am present with my kids, and am doing all of the things I need to do each day. My anxiety is still there-especially early in the mornings-but it is way less than it used to be. I am taking vitamins, reading more, socializing more?even in 30 days you can feel so much better! Oh, and sleep, which I know is so difficult for so many of us. I can sleep-I do use melatonin and the occasion Ambien, but that?s it. I know this will continue to improve over time.
MWO has been so helpful to me. I have not posted much because I was not sure I could get through this, and I had asked for help so many times I felt I had played my cards. As I continue to rack up the days, I hope to offer whatever support I can!
Am considering AA now. Don?t know about that but it seems like I should play every card I can. I have some cravings but the thought of drinking makes very scared-I know how easy it would be to jump back down the hole.
Thanks to you all! CW
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