I haven't been posting a lot because of my wrist -- thought it was carpal tunnel but it turned out to be a cyst. The current recommendation is to just lessen using it. If that doesn't help (which it has been, actually) then my next choices are steroid injections or surgery. Needless to say I'm hoping to avoid being cut on. You know the deal - great if it works but potentially the cure is worse than the ill. My doctor is top-notch, so if it gets to that I'll be comfortable with him.
Now, for my $0.02 on being sober. First, if you're struggling, stick it out. I've said that many times before and I still maintain that being sober beats the hell out of the never- ending alcohol roller coaster. I've been reading the recent posts and I can relate in a big way -- the questioning if it's worth it, the feeling that life is a combination of too boring and/or painful without our trusted anesthetic. But, it's an impossible quest - we always want more than just one or two drinks, and that's what we'd have to keep it at in order to stay sane.
The things I keep in my head that are helping me stay sober:
? I always fast forward to my ruined night's sleep and being hungover if I were to drink;
? I know if I had one it would set off cravings that would lead me back to heavier drinking and that I'd be back in the rut;
? Even though I have down times, they pass and I'm happy I didn't cave to drinking;
? I feel healthy now and am grateful to have stopped hurting my body with alcohol;
? I'd rather struggle from time to time with wanting to drink than struggle every day with the hangover, anxiety and depression that goes hand in hand with drinking;
? Obsessive thoughts about drinking are waning and not drinking is feeling more and more like my new normal;
? And, second only to the fast forwarding technique -
? I remind myself that when I think of drinking, my memory of it isn't accurate -- the "euphoric recall" clouds my recollection making me remember the "good" stuff, but not the agony.
I'm not saying anything new here -- just a reminder of what we all already know but need to keep in the forefront of our thinking. Try to find the wonder in the little things in your every day life and be more satisfied with feeling peaceful. Think of boredom as peace.
Sending you all the strength to beat alcohol. :lilheart:
p.s. Wine Wrangler, Allswell, K9, My Life and all my buds, hope you're doing well.:l
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