I came to this point because after about a 2 year stretch of feeling good, my anxiety has come back. A few months ago I was walking down a street in Italy (a place I love) and had a full blown panic attack. Since then I have been feeling very nervous and shaky with no real explanation as to why. I have had to take Xanax much more than I would care to do.
I went to the doctor and he had my heart checked and put me on a monitor, it turns out I have an irregular heartbeat but it is nothing to worry about. My heart is actually very healthy. So he decided to put me back on 10MG of Lexapro. I know people will say this is not supposed to happen and it was probably mental but about 2 hours after I took that pill, I had a euphoric feeling. A "RUSH" where I felt high. I did not feel nervous or scared......I felt high. I never took the pill again and it took about 2 days for me to feel normal again.
I finally came to the realization that I have anxiety and no magic pill will fix everything. I never feel suicidal or as severely crippled as many people but I have a constant nervous, light headed, dizzy, shaky, feeling at times. Its hard to describe but it sucks. It has definitely negatively impacted aspects of my life though. I have missed a family members Christening and that really bothered me. I also realize that alcohol has a huge impact on my feelings. If I feel anxious, sometimes the alcohol will help if I have a beer or two. The thing that really messes me up though is the hangover. The next morning I may feel anxious right away, it also may take a few hours to finally hit me. But the feeling is undeniable. My anxiety is much more intense.
So the easy answer is "Just stop drinking" and that's what I would like to do. The problem is I am a social guy and think I am going to have a hard time not partaking in boozing it up with my friends. I have football season tickets and we tailgate. I am a big soccer fan and we go to bars and watch games. I enjoy going on the boat with the family and we definitely have our drinks. I realize we all love to do things like this, but I am just being realistic. Its going to be very hard to stop with the drinks.
I am hoping some people with a similar situation may have some advice or tips on how to stop the binge drinking that most people I know do. I want to still enjoy the good times with my friends and family but also live a more healthy life with NO anxiety if every possible.
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