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    I don't know how much you remember about me telling you about my brother.
    But he was killed in a terrible car accident on the 13th. He was 30 years old. I wish I had the intervention, I wish I went to his house that day to say hi.

    I am utterly devastated. He was my baby bro.
    Can't say I've been sober since it happened either. But I will be. In his honor I will finally gain permanent sobriety. Something he could never do.
    Day 1 again 11/5/19
    Goal 1: 7 days :heartbeat:
    Goal 2: 14 days :happy2:
    Goal 3: 21 days :happy2:
    11/27/19: messed up but back on track
    12/14/19: bad doozy but back on track

    One day at a time.

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    I am so very sorry. Nursie, I am so very sorry. There was nothing that you could have done. Please remember that. You tried so hard. I know you did. But, you couldn't make him get help. You tried to help him. Oh Nursie......I am praying for you & your family. :h:h
    "Only I can change my life. No one can do it for me.".....Carol Burnett
    ..........
    AF - 7-27-15

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      #3
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      I'm so sorry to hear this Nursie. I remember the situation and you did all you could do. Thinking of you and your family at this difficult time.
      2023 - focus, getting it done, and living the way it should be and being the person I need to be.

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        Oh Nursie I am so, so very sorry :l
        I'm thinking of you and sending you lots of love. :h
        :heart:I love my daughter more than alcohol:heart:

        Believe in yourself. You are stronger than you think.

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          #5
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          So sorry, my sister died recently and I made a committment to her memory to conquor my addiction. With just a couple of slips recently I have managed to start getting myself together. I'm sure you will also manage to do so in your brothers memory.
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            #6
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            I remember Nursie. I'm so very, very sorry for your tremendous pain & loss!..... :l

            It's not your fault like others have said!.... Like Mollers said, we can't make others get clean & sober! They ~ we have to want it more then being high & drunk!....

            Again I'm just so sorry for this horrible tragedy, huge loss in your family! :l

            What wonderful way to honor his life, your life, your son's life by living a permanent AF life!

            You & your family will be in my prayers hun! :l

            Another light shines brightly from above!.....

            Love, :h

            Wildflowers

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              #7
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              So very sorry for your loss.... Be strong....and no you are not alone.

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                I am so very sorry for your loss Nursie. Sending you strength and hugs.

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                  #9
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                  Oh Nursie
                  you have made me cry....I remembre all the pain he and your mom were causing you
                  I love my family more than alcohol.:h
                  Live in the Solution....not the problem

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                    #10
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                    I remember Nursie. I am so so sorry for your loss. I have no words to make it better for you and your family. I remember how much you worried about him, and how you tried to help him. He knew that you wanted him to be well and happy. He knew that, hun.

                    Thinking of you and sending my sympathies your way.

                    Lg


                    "I like people too much or not at all."
                    Sylvia Plath

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                      Thank you everyone. Even though I knew this day would come, it doesn't hurt any less. I'm wearing his shirt like a weirdo because it smells like him. I'm living on pepto bismol because my stomach is destroyed. My heart is crushed. I loved him so much.
                      And my mother hasn't spoken to him for 4 years so she is a mess. I brought her to my house and she got wasted and suicidal so I has to call 911 in front of my kids.
                      Day 1 again 11/5/19
                      Goal 1: 7 days :heartbeat:
                      Goal 2: 14 days :happy2:
                      Goal 3: 21 days :happy2:
                      11/27/19: messed up but back on track
                      12/14/19: bad doozy but back on track

                      One day at a time.

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                        #12
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                        Oh god that's awful, just concentrate on taking care of yourself and your kids. You will get through this it's not easy but you will find strenghth you never knew you had.
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                          Nursie, I'm so sorry you have lost your dear brother. I lost mine just a year ago too. He was a drunk for many many years. Cancer finally got him and it was only the last 4 months of his life that he was just too sick to keep anything on his stomach otherwise he would have been drinking up to the end. He did try very hard but his demons were too strong for him.

                          My dear girl, it will take a long time for your pain to go away, but it will lessen and you will be able to think of him with just the love, and not the pain.

                          Don't put extra pressure on yourself right now and try to stop drinking to "honour" him. He knows that you love him. He would want you to be healthy for yourself and that's what he wants for you.

                          Our hearts go out to you.
                          Ask yourselves, would you rather be a non drinker with an occasional desire to drink or a drinker with a constant desire to stop doing it?
                          (quote from Bean )

                          Goal: Survival

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                            SO SORRY

                            Oh Nursie I am so sorry to hear that. I remember you talking about him. You have so much to deal with now and I am wishing you strength.

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                              #15
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                              awwww nursie....did they at least take your mom to the hospital so you could get a break???
                              be honest with your kids.....they are very strong and resilient creatures
                              love you sweetie
                              I love my family more than alcohol.:h
                              Live in the Solution....not the problem

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