Why do I do this to myself?

[aihflvt]

Today is a beautiful day here in Southern Vermont. It's clear, the air temp is a perfect 75 with low humidity. The following several days are forecast to be cold, damp and rainy. I should be out in a kayak on a river or lake enjoying this glorious day, not sitting in my basement with the shakes and detox funk.

[briseus]

Why do I do this to myself?

I hear you.
But be gentle with yourself when you're so early in your sobriety.
Is it day 1 for you?

Hang in there.

[greeneyes]

Why do I do this to myself?

Do you have it in you to get out there anyway? If you can physically do it, push yourself and get on out there!

Well, if you can safely do it. Flat water might be a good idea.

[MWOLady]

Why do I do this to myself?

There are no shoulds. Who says you should be out there? Do what you are doing. Eat something, go to bed early. Tomorrow is another day and there will be many more opportunities for you to get out and enjoy the lovely world when you feel better.

[paula]

Why do I do this to myself?

If your detoxing the best place is indoors, not out in the sun. Drink water and try to eat something light, look after yourself. You will feel better tomorrow, each day your sober you will feel better.

[Wildflowers]

Why do I do this to myself?

I used to ask myself the same thing millions of times. Why, why, why. Beautiful sunny days wasted. I laid in bed detoxing, sick, full of regrets & remorse.

Then one day I realized & accepted I was an alcoholic & I couldn't drink socially. Of course I've had to repeat over & over..... The only way to get better was to stop drinking. Tried moderating, done harm reduction too. I had to have a plan, do the hard work. First on the agenda, don't take the first drink which will lead me to another, then another......

Rest, be kind to self, drink water like others have said. Get grateful that you have opportunities to enjoy sunny sober days in the future, if that's what you really want.