I am so glad Library Girl started the moderation thread. When I read about people's plans to try moderation in the future it really brings home all the times I've tried it and failed. I am not a heavy drinker compared to most and moderation still eluded me. I will not attempt it again. Jason Vale and this forum have convinced me that alcohol has no value to me whatsoever. It helps that I am an extrovert. It tastes crappy, makes me dizzy and tired, puts on the pounds and gives me a shitty start to the next day. It also allows me to let my guard down when near the lake when children visit the lake house. Bad news.
I am confident that this is my QUIT. If it isn't I might as well give up on ever expanding myself to become the person I was meant to be. If it isn't I will live a much smaller life than I had hoped. If it isn't I won't be the loving mentor to my grandchildren I had planned on being. If it isn't I won't be in a position to advise my heavy drinking 30 year old son when he finally comes to terms with his own alcohol abuse. If it isn't I will end up like my 82 year old alcholic mother suffering terribly in the hospital right now wailing for a beer. So, logically, this IS my Quit or I am doomed.
Day nine is so sublime!
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