Yesterday, I had a mental craving to get alcohol after work since it was Friday night. I ended up getting a little irritated, doing the dishes in a bit of a huff, cooked dinner and left it at that. I have been eating well and exercising since day 3 (I am actually good at diet/exercise when I am not drinking myself to death). I wake up by 5am every morning to exercise. After, I have been taking a protein concentrate from the heath store every morning that has all the amino acids, including l-glut in it, and then 5htp at night.
Tonight, I am again having a small mental battle to have a drink again, wanting to make a trip to the liquor store. If I get through today without, I have no option on Sundays. Sundays are always the day I force myself to stay sober if I don't get alcohol by Saturday. Utah laws are strict and there are no liquor stores are open on Sundays, so no booze available period.
I am not sure why I would want to drink and start this all over again when I just got passed the worst part of withdrawals. I guess its just the thought of it, the boredom, etc. As much as I hate the addiction and its bad effects, I still enjoy it and long for it in many ways too.
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