Today is my 90th day without a drink and I cant believe how different these 90 days have been compared to the AF periods I had a few years ago when I first joined MWO.
Back then I ticked off every single day as an achievement, relieved that I had managed to get through with my sobriety intact. Alcohol was very much at the front of my mind even though I wasnt drinking. During my longest AF spell I managed to achieve 120 days - I say "managed" because if truth be known I missed my 'best friend' and I felt deprived without it, that I was missing out....how could I possibly spend the rest of my life like that?
Now its very different - might sound corny but I really do feel free. I can if I want to but I really dont want to pour that first glass. The moans, groans & stresses of my life are still there and at times its hard dealing with them but it would have been anyway if I'd been drinking - having a drink just made it all so much worse.
I know I keep going on abt Jason Vale's book "Kick the Drink..Easily!" (I think Jason needs to put me on the payroll!!) but that really did it for me. Something clicked when I read it, it turned my whole drinking-thinking around and made me realise I wasnt missing out on anything and there was nothing to give up.
So, for any people reading this who dont want to post but who are struggling to get on the AF path, I would definitely recommend you read this book. It CAN change your life.
Also would like to say a massive thank you to MWO - & to PlantJanet for starting the 30day thread on Need Help ASAP which has been "home" for me during these 90 days. Our journey started pretty much at the same time & its been such a support even if its just a quick checkin each day, catching up with Janet, Sausage, Ishy & anyone else who pops in. Thanks guys.
xxx
Back then I ticked off every single day as an achievement, relieved that I had managed to get through with my sobriety intact. Alcohol was very much at the front of my mind even though I wasnt drinking. During my longest AF spell I managed to achieve 120 days - I say "managed" because if truth be known I missed my 'best friend' and I felt deprived without it, that I was missing out....how could I possibly spend the rest of my life like that?
Now its very different - might sound corny but I really do feel free. I can if I want to but I really dont want to pour that first glass. The moans, groans & stresses of my life are still there and at times its hard dealing with them but it would have been anyway if I'd been drinking - having a drink just made it all so much worse.
I know I keep going on abt Jason Vale's book "Kick the Drink..Easily!" (I think Jason needs to put me on the payroll!!) but that really did it for me. Something clicked when I read it, it turned my whole drinking-thinking around and made me realise I wasnt missing out on anything and there was nothing to give up.
So, for any people reading this who dont want to post but who are struggling to get on the AF path, I would definitely recommend you read this book. It CAN change your life.
Also would like to say a massive thank you to MWO - & to PlantJanet for starting the 30day thread on Need Help ASAP which has been "home" for me during these 90 days. Our journey started pretty much at the same time & its been such a support even if its just a quick checkin each day, catching up with Janet, Sausage, Ishy & anyone else who pops in. Thanks guys.
xxx
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