One Step at a Time - August 2012

[paula]

One Step at a Time - August 2012

Hello everbody. Went to docs this am, going to have some more intense physio ! whatever that is. At the moment doing my own excercise, i.e walking and cycling, and taking pain relief when nescessary. Glad your results were good, Sun. Sounds like you have hay fever Mama, or sinus probs, cold don't usually last so long. Sorry to hear of Cindy's dad, will post on appropriate thread.

[K9Lover]

One Step at a Time - August 2012

You guys are really making me dread the Squish-O-Gram...I turn 40 this year so I suspect it's in my near future. Although how do you squish something that's not there?

Any excitement with your tenants yet today Mama? Those people are all either (loudly) busy making babies or fixin' to have them. LOL

We had a boring training session this morning. We are learning how to arm and disarm the security alarm at City Hall. I for one never plan to be the first or the last to leave the building, so I zoned out. I sat by the Mayor so I pretended to be riveted by the information. LOL

Well I had an exciting night last night! I fell asleep crocheting (I coulda poked an eye out) at 7:45pm. I managed to rouse myself and get into bed to read, where I only lasted until 8:30. I am one serious party animal...this madness must stop. LOL

Ok...I'm off to pretend to work. I'll check in on ya'll later.

Did Techie ever indicate what color he wanted his Moob Holder to be? I'll get started on that soon.

xoxoxo
K9

[mama bear]

One Step at a Time - August 2012

I thought he said zebra print
Boring, rainy day here....I want to go find someplace to take a nap

[NoraC]

One Step at a Time - August 2012

Oh my gosh! This has been the loooonnnnnggggeeessstttttt day. 10 more minutes and I can get out of here. I should stay longer but I'll go insane.

[K9Lover]

One Step at a Time - August 2012

I have 22 minutes and I'm about to climb the walls! Hey, maybe I should try that....actually I'll save that for tomorrow if I wear a dress. That should spice things up a bit. LOL

[Sunbeam]

One Step at a Time - August 2012

Beautiful day: I worked, but I am fortunate that my job requires me to be in multiple locations, so I can experience the beautiful weather on a day like today. I will take a long bike ride with a friend tomorrow, up along the nearest Great Lake.

Hubby made some great mac & cheese today, with the sauce made from butternut squash. I like squash, but I never would have guessed it contained any. It looked beautiful and just tasted like cheese. Here's the link: Macaroni and 4 Cheeses Recipe : Ellie Krieger : Recipes : Food Network

I finished The Art of Racing in the Rain last Night. Great, sweet, touching book. Ya gotta love a dog wannabe race car driver telling a story.

[NoraC]

One Step at a Time - August 2012

Yes - that was a great book. I just loved it.

[mama bear]

One Step at a Time - August 2012

nora..you are being too quiet................................
a bike ride siunds lovely.....
more coffee

[NoraC]

One Step at a Time - August 2012

Hey Mama - not meaning to be quiet. I just can't get on here much at work. Making me crazy. :durn: Really stressful plus it's our year end. I go home & just flop & read or crochet. Hardly have time before I get to bed so I can start it all over again. I'm sure you all understand.

I am still using my calendar & stickers. I have had 2 sad faces this month. The rest is green. The second sad face caused a fight with hubby. You know - the same old lecture, that everytime I drink, I go all the way to the bottom again at square one, I'm killing myself, etc, etc, etc. Anyway, just not worth it. So, he wanted me to start the antabuse and I said no. I am trying to do this on my own this time. I have the antabuse and can get on it if necessary. But, I have been using that to keep me from drinking and then counting the days until I could. I am trying this on my own with all the support of my friends here. I'll get back on the antabuse if I need to.

[K9Lover]

One Step at a Time - August 2012

Hi Nora (and everyone!)

Why don't you want to use the Antabuse? It's merely a tool, not a crutch. I still take mine every single day. I don't have plans to quit... I honestly still don't trust myself...so why test myself or make it harder? I know you want to do this on your own, but there's no reason not to take help when it's available. :h

[NoraC]

One Step at a Time - August 2012

K9 - Excellent points. :l The last few times that I have taken it, I have taken it for a few weeks and then gone off it & counted until I could drink. My brain is so messed up right now. I guess I should go back on it to be safe. I am just tired of this. I really am. :upset:

[K9Lover]

One Step at a Time - August 2012

Believe me Nora, I've done the counting thing a few times too. I'd desperatly GOOGLE how long you have to be off AB before you could drink, I'd count the HOURS since my last pill...like somehow looking it up online would change the way my body was going to react. I was either going to have a reaction or I wasn't, no matter how much Googling I did. That right there is MADNESS. I know you are tired of this, I was too. Is there anything in particular happening in your life that is making you crave the drink? I hope I'm not being too nosy, just trying to use my amateur therapist skills. LOL

[allswell]

One Step at a Time - August 2012

Hey Nora,

I bought some antabuse when I started my quit in January and although I have not taken any yet I still have it on hand as a backup. I'm traveling to Thailand to visit family in two months and will probably get on it before I leave since I know myself and what happens when I travel. Right now I'm going to do whatever it takes, if taking a pill does the job I'm going to take it. I know this whole thing is tiring, we'll get past it.

[NoraC]

One Step at a Time - August 2012

Thanks for the support. :l:l
I don't know exactly why I'm having a hard time right now. Things are really going ok but not really...... Work is so stressful right now.....things are changing.....not sure what is going to happen. I am very, very concerned about my parents up in Oregon. My brother takes great care of them but the bottom line is that they are not doing that great anymore. They are 84 years old and have slowed down so much. My Mom's alzheimers has not progessed a lot but it is still there. I want to move up there but it's hard to give up a job and just leave. I have worked here for 35 years. Where could I find another job. Not many jobs in that area of Oregon. And if I would move, I would be moving away from my son. Then we have my hubby. His pain levels have been really bad lately. He is hard to be around sometimes to be honest. He can bring me down sometimes just by taking one look at him. He just gets so short tempered that it is really hard to be around him. So, then I feel guilty that I'm not more supportive.
So, there it is in a nutshell. Nothing really wrong. Just life. And I do know that alcohol will not help any of that. But, to be quite honest, it takes me away for a couple hours. So, I think I have to focus on finding something else to take me away from it all. That's why I started crocheting.
Ok - pity party is now officially over. :H

[mama bear]

One Step at a Time - August 2012

NORA...TAKE THE DAMN PILL
now.....I am about to lose my house in foreclosure. I have other legal issues that are costing me a fortune. I just spent an hour being cussed at by yet another stellar member of society. My hubs is a grouch cos he can't find a decent job.
My kids are wonderful, ungrateful, spolied brats
BUT I AM NOT DRINKING
it makes it so much worse sweetheart....you know that..............
You know how much I adore you, thus the tough love.......you Cannot control anything else in your life right now EXCEPT the booze
I had to finally give up and accept that God (or someone) has a plan. I have no idea what it is and I don't appreciate his sense of humor very much right now....but it is what it is.
Please take the pill and quit over thinking it. If you had a heart condiion, you would take your meds, right???
I LOVE YOU