I have been a member for several years now but this is my first post. I am a 42 year old mother of 2 small girls and also a professional. I have been drinking everyday for almost 13 years (except when I was pregnant) and have decided that I need to stop. In the past several months, a combination of setbacks in my personal life and an increase in stress at work led me to start drinking all day - alcohol became a crutch. Sometimes I would begin at 5am! I would arrange meetings and my work schedule so that I could nip home for some booze or sometimes even take a flask to work in my car. The poison of my choice is wine. I am ashamed to say my children have observed me drink directly from the bottle on several occasions ? how pathetic is that? I would pass out every evening and not be there for my family - in fact, once my 4 year old thought I was dead. I also had a serious fall when inebriated and had to be rushed to the ER for stitches. These and several other incidents have convinced me that I need to STOP. I want to be there for my family and watch my children grow up. I am amazed that I could hold down a challenging job and have success in my career while nursing my secret bad habit.
There is a lot of alcohol in my life. My husband drinks a few beers every evening but is definitely not dependent on it. When he drinks, I want to drink too. Growing up, my family was very accepting of alcohol. My parents, grandparents etc. would also drink everyday but in moderation. Family parties were awash with heavy alcohol consumption. One of my uncles died of alcoholism.
I have chosen to quit cold turkey without any medications. I have done this before and it worked ? I was sober for a few days or weeks until falling off the wagon. Yesterday was my first day sober after a few months. My withdrawal symptoms were pretty bad but I persevered through it using the urge surfer to resist cravings. In fact, my DT?s were so intense, I could not even type. Fortunately, I am a lot better today. I do not want to see a doctor as I am ashamed and do not want my guilty secret to be known or officially recorded.
Any guidance would be much appreciated. Thanks for all the help on this site.
There is a lot of alcohol in my life. My husband drinks a few beers every evening but is definitely not dependent on it. When he drinks, I want to drink too. Growing up, my family was very accepting of alcohol. My parents, grandparents etc. would also drink everyday but in moderation. Family parties were awash with heavy alcohol consumption. One of my uncles died of alcoholism.
I have chosen to quit cold turkey without any medications. I have done this before and it worked ? I was sober for a few days or weeks until falling off the wagon. Yesterday was my first day sober after a few months. My withdrawal symptoms were pretty bad but I persevered through it using the urge surfer to resist cravings. In fact, my DT?s were so intense, I could not even type. Fortunately, I am a lot better today. I do not want to see a doctor as I am ashamed and do not want my guilty secret to be known or officially recorded.
Any guidance would be much appreciated. Thanks for all the help on this site.
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