hi again...

[caper564]

well here i am again. BUT its not so bad. i fell off the perverbial wagon about 3 months ago. I certainly did not get to the point i have been many times. You know the falling down, saying stupid things, embarassing myself... However i look back and I liked me much better when i was sober for 5 months.

When i was sober i missed drinking, now that i am drinking i miss being sober... LOL... isn't that a nice change?

so here i am again, no shame or embarasssment this time... just back to day 1 and thats ok because at least I am here.

caper

[Wildflowers]

hi again...

:welcome: Back. So glad you didn't fall to hard, or to far & that your not beating your self up! That you realize being sober is a better way to live!

[mama bear]

hi again...

well done Caper. What did you learn this time around??? Anything that may help others??

[paula]

hi again...

Welcome back Casper. Good to be sober, and good to want to be, because if we really want to do something we can achieve it. Do you have a plan ?

[caper564]

hi again...

what did i learn? i learned (again) i CANNOT moderate. but really I learned drinking doesn't solve anything.. it makes anxiety go away but only temporaily. I remember being sober and waking up in the mornings feel great... and i miss that. i remember doing OTHER things.. like walks and cleaning and not always thinking about when my next drink will me...

but mostly i learned that I like feeling FREE.. and drinking is like being wrapped in heavy chains and draging them everywhere. it gets exhausting..