
The reality that I can pick up the bottle any time I want to doesn't weigh on me much anymore. It reminds me of a horrible abusive ex that I am thankful now is out of my life and see it as a blessing I came through the other side alive and strong.
I have no use for AL in my life. I use to think "What's the point in having just one drink? It doesn't do anything, you need more!" Now my thinking is "What's the point having a drink at all since I'd be at square one after it?"
Now to quit the nicotine. Bought a new car so don't smoke while driving anymore (I've never had a really nice car) and down to 4 as day. I asked my doctor about Chantix and her response was no. I was a bit confused and she said "Come ask me after your custody case for your child is resolved. For now, hold off on that hurdle just yet" Thought that was funny. She has a good point though.
Hope things are going well. There's life outside of the prison walls of AL.
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