Hi guys
Thanks for the continued welcome and support! Well, it's 10.45pm and I haven't had a drink tonight. It's been months since I had an AFD (apart froma few days inbetween when I have just had 1 beer or something). I feel good about this, as it's a conscious decision I've made. I'll be able to put a zero in my tracker diary tomorrow!
I'm over half way through the book and will head back to bed shortly and finish it tonight.
I went to the Health Food shop today and got some Mega B supps, and some other stuff to keep me regular (the shop attendant recommended) as the Milk Thistle which I've been taking for the past week or so has been giving me headaches which happens if you have a low fibre diet/sluggish bowls.
I'm in a foul mood tonight with my fiance but it's due to an ongoing issue, and would be angry with him regardless of the AFD... (he still keeps in touch with his ex girlfriend who he seems to place on a pedestal and he'd invited her to our place for dinner tomorrow night... Ughh! She's a trouble maker and I am just really irritated by his actions). It would've been *really* nice to have a glass of wine to help chill out over it... but I've been strong, so am proud of myself for this.
I am going to order the CD's... they sound like a great idea! Years ago, in my early 20's I used to do guided meditations, which made me feel really balanced, so I know this will work well for me in this holistic approach.
I still haven't worked out a 'plan' for myself, and I remember when I went to AA for 6 weeks, how easy t is to become cocky and complacent. I'm really conscious of this. I have no idea whether I'll be able to Mod successfully... I suppose I'll form a plan and give it some time and make a decision whether it's achievable for me, down the track.
I'm undecided about the Topa yet. Over the past 5 years or so, I have mentioned my drinking concerns to my Doctor, who has told me not to worry about it. I talked to her when I started AA 18 months ago, and since I've seen her, she doesn't seem to think there is a real problem for me, and sort of put it down to the fact that I was going through divorce etc... she is a great doc but obviously doesn't have a problem with alcohol herself, so I'm not really sure how to tackle that one. I think I'll just try this without the Doc and see how I go.
I feel a bit flushed in the cheeks, and am not sure if it's from the supps, or my annoyance with my fiance or just that I'd usually be onto about my 4th glass of wine by now.
And I'm already thinking about how I'll tackle tomorrow night as AF - Friday night.
DooDoo
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