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[Struggles 106]

Just looking at the terrific 14 foot ceiling of my balcony and googling HOW to make a noose

[Kradle123]

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Ann:

Where's your Daughter??
I know you just emailed her and felt okay about things. Is she close by?

:soothe:

[RedThread12]

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Hi Ann: I don't know how to make a noose, but you could probably get some tips from Sissy Spacek in "Crimes of the Heart." I promise, it's worth staying around a couple more hours to watch, and especially to watch her dragging the chandelier that fell from the ceiling, when she tried to hang herself there, down the steps, rope still around her neck.

I'm really not making light of your desperation. I've never thought about hanging myself, but I came very close to driving my car off a bridge and over a very deep dam. I. Know. Desperation. Too. My heart goes out to you.

I haven't known you, here on MWO, or anywhere, except now. I'm not so usual, maybe. Ann, I will honor whatever decision you make. I have no idea of your circumstances or what, exactly, is the best thing for you to do. I do know that, in my own experience, each desperate hour actually passed, and still contributes to my utter awe and amazement that THIS IS LIFE!! No one could have prepared me for it, either.

[Raven2012]

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ANB

[NoraC]

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Hey Ann - It's Deb. Can you come over to chat???

[Raven2012]

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Ann,

Sorry for my false start on my previous reply.

First. Stop looking outside.

THen Get back inside.

THen Pick up the phone.

Call your

[*]Best friend
[*]Dad
[*]Mom
[*]Daughter
[*]Me - shoot me an PM and I'll give you my phone
[*]Sister/Brother
[*]Anyone and everyone else that's been supportive of you


Whatever you do -STOP THINKING ABOUT THAT DOGGONE NOOSE outside the window. ITS BAD NEWS AND WILL GET YOU NO WHERE!!!

YOUR FAMILY WILL FEEL VERY VERY SAD AND YOU WON"T BE ABLE TO MAKE IT UP TO THEM.

PLEASE ANN, DON"T DO THIS!!!

I will Shoot you a note if you want to talk.

Raven

[Cinders]

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YOUR FAMILY WILL FEEL VERY VERY SAD AND YOU WON"T BE ABLE TO MAKE IT UP TO THEM.

This is very true. My best friend's son hung himself in her house. She walked in to find him hanging there.

To this day, she is unable to deal with it.

Please do not do something like this to your loved ones.

It is very selfish.

Cindi

[Struggles 106]

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STILL INSIDE

Hi guys

Thanks for the concern. I love all of you. FINALLY got the scoop on the noose thing-not that hard. So I'm playing some music-recording fro late fro my daughter

[Dave_]

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Anne, just stop! This is not the answer, this is not the way to fix anything. Do not do this, the scars you leave behind can never be healed, EVER!

[Kradle123]

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I GOOGLED it too Ann and all Those noses looked teeny tiny. They even had one made out if a shoe lace for heavens sake.

The bigger ones are way to complicated, honey. 13 knots in the middle and 13 is SUCH an unlucky number.

Why don't you curl up here with lots of posts and PM's so you can get some sleep.
Remember you just had a birthday!! You've barely begun moving into the second act.

WIll check in in a bit. The girls have a friend over for sleepover. Holy shit! Three preteens and a tub of ice cream? :nutso: And I'm completely alone too. I don't stand a chance!

I'll check back soon,
:l

[choice]

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Hi Ann,
Now that you got the information you were looking for are you able to just put this off? You did a good job reaching out here.. so maybe just hang out with us here for a while... I once was about to throw myself in front of a train and thankfully called my therapist who told me to not do anything for an hour except try and compose myself and relax then to call him back. You don't need to do anything more and you don't need to figure out anything accept how to calm down. lay down, listen to music. I'm so sorry you feel this bad. It's just awful. Please take care of yourself and love yourself. You are worth it!:h

[Dave_]

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That is an awesome post Choice. Anne, this is the best advice you are ever going to hear. Keep posting, talk to the people here, we have all been desperate at some stage or another. You are not alone.

[red67]

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Ann, I have not been here lately but I have read everyday. I follow your posts and I know its been hard for you. Alcoholism is a total bitch and it may seem impossible to get out of the cycle, but you can do it! Can you do rehab?

Please call a suicide prevention hotline, this is a momentary feeling. We all care and I know your daughter will be devastated if you do this. I was suicidal for many years, my teens to my thirties but I thank God I never did it. I have family and acquaintances who did and it is awful to this day.

PLEASE CALL SOMEONE, EVEN IF ITS THE POLICE. Get some help PLEASE! It can and will get better.

[Cinders]

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Ann,

Are you reading these posts and listening?

It is incredibly important you do not kill yourself.

That is the selfishness that alcoholism creates in us. It is all about you. This is a very selfish disease.

It isn't all about you. Truly.

Please keep posting and let us know you are okay.

Love,
Cindi

[Kradle123]

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Hi Ann: :h

Checking back in. Please listen to Choice. You can always make a decision tomorrow .
For now just be with us. Please don't go. We need you here, Ann.
:groupluv: