I was just thinking about different things that drinkers think and do, sometimes unconsciously, to try and pretend there's no problem, to try and present a persona that will be viewed as normal.
For example-did you ever notice-- (and these are things I have done )
that in conversation you might make a point of saying " I'm in bed by 9 or 9:30" which may be true when sober. Or something like " Bourbon or whiskey or whatever-I don't know the difference. I never drink that stuff." Or make a comment about a known drunk-dialer, like "He called me at midnight and I didn't answer." AS IF you yourself have never called anyone drunk-pfffttt!
Anyway, I hope you get what I'm saying here. Just another aspect of the drinking life that creates behavior designed to deny reality, to yourself and/or others.
Never works though huh? At some point it becomes an exercise in futility. The jig is up.
If you know you're a drunk I would say it's almost certain that people in your life know this as well.
This is not to say that the knowledge/opinions of others will drive sobriety necessarily. Just part of my thinking that is only possible when sober for a while.
I hope everyone had a good weekend. and have a great week.
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