I am on day 3, for the umpteenth time. I am young, but have had this problem for a long time. Alcohol, has been a feature of my life for many years, from the simple drink after work, building up to the point where I would drink before work. I hate every minute of it, yet I feel its call so strongly and give in too often.
I feel I am a warning to others, don't give in, never give in. I have lost a job from my drinking and almost lost the one I love most. I struggle with people and always have. Alcohol for me has always been the way I could break the ice. But it became too much, and I needed it to interact with people in any way at all. I am starting out on the AF journey now, and it is bloody hard, but it is worth it. It is the only thing that will save my marriage, and me as well. But I struggle everyday with the cravings, and the needs. I like to think I am stronger than it, but only time will tell. If I am not, I think I will truly be lost, but if I am, I think there is a bright future ahead for me. I hope I am stronger, but we shall see.
Love and light,
K
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