Okay, I haven't checked in to here a lot lately. I have been doing better. I still haven't done 30 Days AF. But, I am moderating and have cut way back. I haven't gone on a bender for a while now. Some of what Hubby has said to me is sinking in slowly. I was hiding stuff from him again and acting like a teenager about it. He said if , "If you're going to get drunk atleast be honest to me about it. And don't call your folks crying and being crazy.......That's just selfishness on your part honey. They love you but don't want to hear you in that state of mind......"
So, I have my bottle out on the counter and I don't have the urges to down half a bottle whenever I get the chance. I can also go a week with a drop. I don't seem to think about it all day as a my afterwork reward.
Also, I have a new position at my job. I work at one of the dreaded Big Box Stores. I don't work at any of the -Mart's. I like where I work for once. Sure there's an element of drama and an element of stress. It's work after all. I'm learning new stuff though. I'm a specialist now. Not really a "promotion" but a step up enough to earn a small raise which I won't argue. It's cool because I love learning new things and I can see that I "can" move up where I'm at. So, this has also led to me feeling better and less depressed and less time to dwell on family issues....
Although through all these strides towards being healthier, I'm not letting my self get lulled. I am trying to stay aware of what's going on in my head. Yes, my current anti-depressant seems to be working. I am taking it regularly whether I want to or not. I'm eating less Junk food. I still need to work more veggies and fruits in though. I also need to keep checking here regularly for support.
Ooooh the best part, I have lost a few pounds. Not a lot to party about. But, my work pants are getting a bit loser.
Also since I am rambling on and on and on.................
:welcome: To all of you Newbies. Keep on reading and replying and don't give up. I noticed on there were a lot of new members since the last time I visited. That's awesome!:danthin:
Okay, I'm off to read other posts.............
So, I have my bottle out on the counter and I don't have the urges to down half a bottle whenever I get the chance. I can also go a week with a drop. I don't seem to think about it all day as a my afterwork reward.
Also, I have a new position at my job. I work at one of the dreaded Big Box Stores. I don't work at any of the -Mart's. I like where I work for once. Sure there's an element of drama and an element of stress. It's work after all. I'm learning new stuff though. I'm a specialist now. Not really a "promotion" but a step up enough to earn a small raise which I won't argue. It's cool because I love learning new things and I can see that I "can" move up where I'm at. So, this has also led to me feeling better and less depressed and less time to dwell on family issues....
Although through all these strides towards being healthier, I'm not letting my self get lulled. I am trying to stay aware of what's going on in my head. Yes, my current anti-depressant seems to be working. I am taking it regularly whether I want to or not. I'm eating less Junk food. I still need to work more veggies and fruits in though. I also need to keep checking here regularly for support.
Ooooh the best part, I have lost a few pounds. Not a lot to party about. But, my work pants are getting a bit loser.
Also since I am rambling on and on and on.................
:welcome: To all of you Newbies. Keep on reading and replying and don't give up. I noticed on there were a lot of new members since the last time I visited. That's awesome!:danthin:
Okay, I'm off to read other posts.............
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