One Step at a Time - November 2012

[Sunbeam]

One Step at a Time - November 2012

Oh, dearest Paula, I am so sorry you have been struggling. Alcohol really can a trap, waiting to grab us at our most vulnerable moments. We offer our cyberspace hugs, a place to vent, and find forgiveness and understanding. Go back to the toolbox thread under monthly abstinence if you need some new ideas.

[RingingCedars]

One Step at a Time - November 2012

Hey Paula, hope your day isn't too hard on you. Might help, whenever you're ready, if you go back over your postings the last while to remember how you overcame struggles and how good you really felt physically and emotionally with your hard earned success. LG said something to me yesterday that I really like. "Chose your hard." Getting sober, staying sober or in the pit? Rise up doll, I know you wanna.

[RingingCedars]

One Step at a Time - November 2012

Morning to you Sunbeam.

[paula]

One Step at a Time - November 2012

Hi Sun, and RC, thanks for your comments, I will certainly take your advice. I think I became too complacent. My day is half way through now and nothing bad has happened, I had forgotten how awful al binges left me feeling, I don't get hangovers just the guilt and remorse that I feel, only my husband saw me and he never says anything bad to me, but I see the worry and anxiety in his face.

[Juja]

One Step at a Time - November 2012

Dear Paula,
You're never alone here. We all know what you're feeling today, and those feelings will pass. tomorrow is a new day and you will feel like a new person. We know that too. So rest and don't ruminate because it doesn't help

[Sunbeam]

One Step at a Time - November 2012

Paula, that's why I love my recovery list, so I don't let my guard down. It gives me activities I have selected and tailored that replace drinking. I shared what Mario posted on the toolbox thread. PM me if you would like to see my pared down personal version.

My husband also avoided most comment about my drinking. He once said, "That's your problem" and he is correct. More sympathy would be nice at times, but he really doesn't understand why I don't just stop after a glass or two, like he does.

[mama bear]

One Step at a Time - November 2012

Oh Paula....I just saw this and I am so sorry for what you are putting yourself through. You have been hurting and missing your sister, so you drinking does not surprise me.
We are all still here for you sweetie.
I did not drink yesterday, but I came SO close. My Mom is uber critical and almost pushed me over the edge.
Gonna do a little shopping with the boys....
bacinabit...

[paula]

One Step at a Time - November 2012

Thanks Mama, hope your mum is not suffering.

[NoraC]

One Step at a Time - November 2012

Hello everyone.
Scott is finally moving around a little bit more. Still in a lot of pain but I can see an improvement.

Paula - I know what you mean about the look on your husbands face. That is the major thing for me. To have to see his sadness & worry. Please stick close here & let us help you. We understand so much. :l:l

I'm exhausted. Hope that I can get a nap or a good nights sleep tonight. I get up so much to help Scott that I just don't rest. It should be better tonight.

[mama bear]

One Step at a Time - November 2012

graba a nap if you can Nora.
Paula, my mom is not suffering from anything other than being very critical of me. Everyone can see it and it makes my husband furious.....oh well.....families!
I am back from the mall. It was crazy!
I really am glad I did not drink yesterday.......i had my hand on the bottle of wine, but thought forward and put it down. My hubs get the same look on his face......and I might have said something to Mom that I would have regretted later.....maybe......muahahahahahahahaha

[paula]

One Step at a Time - November 2012

I should have read your post properly Mama, I suppose we can learn from our mothers, I try to treat my kids differently from how mine treated me. Pleased you put the wine bottle down, it's just not worth it. My husband has gone out tonight, he is much happier, he deserves to be he is so patient and understanding, but really finds it difficult, he can have a couple of drinks and just stop, thats why it's nice to come on here, because we all understand.

[mama bear]

One Step at a Time - November 2012

my husband is out and can stop as well
are you feeling better??
I am drowsy and may take a quick nap and enjoy my time off

ps...your husband loves you and understands your struggle.....as does mine

[NoraC]

One Step at a Time - November 2012

Got in a little nap. Poor thing is in so much pain. Not much I can do. Just help him & take care of him as much as I can.

I had the weirdest dream. Every time I went to the store and bought alcohol, red writing came up on the register and said alcohol abuse.
Freaky.

[mama bear]

One Step at a Time - November 2012

your mind is telling you something girl
Kisses to Scott and I hope Casey is helping
you will have to give me the details of the surgery.....Bret needs it

[paula]

One Step at a Time - November 2012

Good morning everyone, feel a little more human today, I always have weird drinking dreams Nora, true your mind is telling you something. Just seen that Larry Hagman has died, been watching him on Dallas recently, I believe he had a liver transplant some time ago.