Army Thread Sunday 2nd December

[satz123]

Army Thread Sunday 2nd December

mollyka;1420535 wrote: I've had more of those than you could ever imagine Arsey. Mind you - unlike what Benjy says about them 'knowing' - I seemed to sail through so many of those incidents that I thought myself invincible. To this day Joe will say that up to the end, a lot of the time he only knew I'd had a drink because he could smell it on my breath - I was the 'master' at hiding and covering up. It took my two younger kids, and my daughter in particular to 'out' me. It is extraordinarily painful and embarrassing, but deffo. put me on the road that I've eventually found.

That's it Mollers - my kids weren't here - and I knew I could hoodwink Mr S - I know him so well............... I was never acting drunk - it was just a fluke that day he saw the level of the bottle and decided to keep track & then found all the empties. MORTO is not the word for it !!!!!
And then annoyqnce 'cos it's ok for him to down 10 pints - as long as it's in the pub and with people.
But I got over that particular excuse

[satz123]

Army Thread Sunday 2nd December

Zenstyle;1420537 wrote: Hidey Hi! A quick fly-by! Yoo Hoo Mollers! xxx

I have peeps here so just sneaking in to say I'm above the ground!

Luvs yous and will be back after the damn eggs benedict.....

Hey when yer get back Zenners - I want your crust-free quiche recipe ??

[satz123]

Army Thread Sunday 2nd December

Shallow / childish alert

I WANT HIGH BLACK PATENT BOOTS !!!! :stomper: - none in town yesterday.
Don't want to go to shops today - but want them NOW !!!!

[satz123]

Army Thread Sunday 2nd December

mollyka;1420541 wrote: Yo Zenners!!

That really really used to get my back up! My BIL and SIL are both raving alkies imo. However, he just goes to the pub 7 days a week and has god knows how many pints - she drinks at home. Joe considers her the mad loony alkie and he's just a 'pub drinker'
I also remember the first time Joe 'clocked' the empty bottle syndrome - back before I hid anything, he just put an empty bottle out of the cupboard and onto the floor in the kitchen --- greeted me when I came in - that's when I started 'secret' drinking upstairs --- my drinking escalated at an awful rate at that stage. Think I had to make every 'trip' upstairs worthwhile - so would have prolly 2-3 quick ones each time whereas before I'da had one out of the cupboard - yuck

That fucking double standard really annoys me - but I suppose in a 'round about way it saved me

[satz123]

Army Thread Sunday 2nd December

mollyka;1420544 wrote: Thanks Reccie --- yep, they'll have to sort it out alright, and as I said earlier, I need to stop thinking it's 'all about me' --- feeling sorry for myself etc.
I do miss the little guy tho - haven't seen him for nearly 2 weeks, I think I may have to distance myself emotionally from him tho cos this could be dangerous territory for me in the future. Feel more vulnerable now than I've felt for a very long time ---- and that ain't good

Ah Molls didn't realise that :l In that case it IS about you - you miss him!!! That's to be expected.
Can you not go down anymore ? Why aren't they coming to see yer - that's not fair !!:h

[satz123]

Army Thread Sunday 2nd December

mollyka;1420547 wrote: How do you feel about 'sober' living now? You seem to have taken to it like a duck to water?? Are you nervous bout the holliers still - or what's your plan?

Mollers I LOVE it ! Truly !
I haven't had any issues at all - except the Wedding & the Holls. And then I was lucky - I just slid back into sober living since. And I KNOW I'm lucky on that score.
Apprehesive about 3 weeks in Oz - not sure what is best plan !

[satz123]

Army Thread Sunday 2nd December

To show how things have changed 'round here. Mr S gone to races. He has often said to me drive down to meet me and we 'll go for food after races. I would never go 'cos I wanted to have my wine at home and couldn't drive.
Today off he goes & I'll be meeting him and HE is leaving his car so he can drink. It's AMAZING and I'M LOVING IT !!!

My SIL's will be all there and questions as usual - but I will cope with that !
No doubt the tongues will wag soon - re. " do you think she has a problem " ????

No love - YOU have :H:H

[JackieClaire]

Army Thread Sunday 2nd December

Sorry dipping in and out here.
The thing that really got to me was the disappointment in Mr JC and the kid's eyes when I fell off the wagon. No judgement from any of them just sheer disappointment.

Oh gawd. I'm in need of a hug now.

[satz123]

Army Thread Sunday 2nd December

God I'm a lazy cow............ haven't done a tap ....... was off for shower hours ago ........ still here in squalor.
Love the chats .
I think I'd better go now ............ before the neighbours complain :H

Later gaters
Love & kisses
smelly.com ( aka Benji)

[JackieClaire]

Army Thread Sunday 2nd December

mollyka;1420563 wrote: :l:l:l You KNOW I have an endless supply of hugs for you JackieClaire :-) You've been my rock more times than I can count!
Funny, when Joe used to go off on one when I relapsed and humping and puffing and thumping around the place - it just made me so angry I wanted to drink more.
The day last October when he told me he had cried himself to sleep on several occasions ---- my heart broke - literally, I can feel myself welling up here achully, my big tough hard-man Irishman --- and I brought him to his knees ---- THAT was unforgiveable

Right back atcha Molls. :l

Yep Mr JC has wept more than I'll ever know. I often wonder if I could have been so forgiving.

[satz123]

Army Thread Sunday 2nd December

JackieClaire;1420559 wrote: Sorry dipping in and out here.
The thing that really got to me was the disappointment in Mr JC and the kid's eyes when I fell off the wagon. No judgement from any of them just sheer disappointment.

Oh gawd. I'm in need of a hug now.

:l:l:l:l:l

[satz123]

Army Thread Sunday 2nd December

JackieClaire;1420565 wrote: Right back atcha Molls. :l

Yep Mr JC has wept more than I'll ever know. I often wonder if I could have been so forgiving.

Will yous two stop now - I'm bawling here !!

[satz123]

Army Thread Sunday 2nd December

Tell me to shut the feck up - but from reading both your posts in a way it brought you together more - like any illness - ??? I envy that really .
I think Mr S would crack up if I was to be in any way vulnerable - he is used to me being strong & healthy. I am never sick.
That worries me sometimes - if I ever got ill.?
Saw it with his twin & his wife - he couldn't cope with her being sick & needing help to cope with cancer.

[JackieClaire]

Army Thread Sunday 2nd December

Ask away hun.

We're closer than ever, the early days of my sobriety were a bit tough on him. He must have had that awful sick 'will she, won't she be rat arsed' feeling for at least the the first few months. We tick along nicely these days.

[Mick]

Army Thread Sunday 2nd December

Hi Molls....on shagginphone n its crap. . .you ok....pm if u want:l