Army Thread, Tuesday the 18th and it's almost frikken Chrimbo again!!!!

[Zenstyle]

Army Thread, Tuesday the 18th and it's almost frikken Chrimbo again!!!!

JackieClaire;1429024 wrote: I know you're scared Zennifer,hun.:l Just trying to pass on some of my scant wisdom.

I drank to escape...............gawd how many people say that. I drank so much that I became physically dependent. Not a pretty sight gagging a vodka down first thing in the morning just to be 'normal'.

So there I was a wreck. A nicely married woman who no-one would ever have dreamed that she'd have to be de-toxed 11/12 times and apart from the last time didn't keep her quit going.

I'll never forget asking the kids what was the best thing about me being sober and it was that I'd stopped crying and started laughing more. Oh and I'd stopped being sick in the morning.

Gawd you'd think I'd been at the gin I'm getting maudlin, although I'm happy in my sobriety those thoughts are not far from my mind.

:upset: :l:l:l :upset:

[sunshinedaisies]

Army Thread, Tuesday the 18th and it's almost frikken Chrimbo again!!!!

Hey Zen - you know my number if you need to call and chat if you are scared.......

hugs, sun XXX

[anon]

Army Thread, Tuesday the 18th and it's almost frikken Chrimbo again!!!!

sunshinedaisies;1429027 wrote: Hey Zen - you know my number if you need to call and chat if you are scared.......

hugs, sun XXX

How good is MWO??

[Zenstyle]

Army Thread, Tuesday the 18th and it's almost frikken Chrimbo again!!!!

This one has you name all over it!

[RunningCourage]

Army Thread, Tuesday the 18th and it's almost frikken Chrimbo again!!!!

Zenstyle;1429030 wrote: This one has you name all over it!

achully, it seems to have a CAT all over its nose...

JOKE - it's bonnie and looks to be fit only for JC

[Zenstyle]

Army Thread, Tuesday the 18th and it's almost frikken Chrimbo again!!!!

sunshinedaisies;1429027 wrote: Hey Zen - you know my number if you need to call and chat if you are scared.......

hugs, sun XXX

Thank you Jean. I do, indeed, have your number. xxx

I got a case of the nerves earlier. I'm going to be just fine. I need to put the Big Girl Pants on! :l

[JackieClaire]

Army Thread, Tuesday the 18th and it's almost frikken Chrimbo again!!!!

RunningCourage;1429020 wrote: I got a wee query. I rarely got the shakes... and when I say shakes, I mean like my alkie colleague at work who physically shakes everyday - his handwriting shows it well (I've seen this in other alkies before). Sure, my handwriting wasn't sturdy sometimes - was aware of that - but never the shakes where my hands physically shook so as others could see. Or have I just forgotten?

Interesting that you call him your alkie colleague. Has he admitted it to every one at work.

My left hand had a life of it's own. The panic attacks weren't panic attacks but withdrawals.

Oh and apparently yer tongue quivers.

Mind you the son and heir's hands have always had a slight shake since he was about 10. It's called something like essential tremor.

[JackieClaire]

Army Thread, Tuesday the 18th and it's almost frikken Chrimbo again!!!!

sunshinedaisies;1429027 wrote: Hey Zen - you know my number if you need to call and chat if you are scared.......

hugs, sun XXX

*******waves madly at Sunny*******

Aren't you just lovely.:l

[Zenstyle]

Army Thread, Tuesday the 18th and it's almost frikken Chrimbo again!!!!

OK... I am toodling off now. Love you guys. xxx

[JackieClaire]

Army Thread, Tuesday the 18th and it's almost frikken Chrimbo again!!!!

RunningCourage;1429031 wrote: achully, it seems to have a CAT all over its nose...

JOKE - it's bonnie and looks to be fit only for JC

We had a dog called Bonnie.

There is a big fat cat on it's nez.

Tis gorgeous though.:h

[RunningCourage]

Army Thread, Tuesday the 18th and it's almost frikken Chrimbo again!!!!

JackieClaire;1429033 wrote: Interesting that you call him your alkie colleague. Has he admitted it to every one at work.

My left hand had a life of it's own. The panic attacks weren't panic attacks but withdrawals.

Oh and apparently yer tongue quivers.

Mind you the son and heir's hands have always had a slight shake since he was about 10. It's called something like essential tremor.

No, he's not admitted anything - like he'd never say "I'm an alkie" But he admits himself he drinks, and he knows he's a 'big drinker'... but peeps support his drinking by never saying it's a problem to him.

So there's a lot of people he works with - both at our work, and in his other freelance work - who respect him (some perhaps fear him, he plays on being the "wired geezer with a darker east-end of glasgow history... sex drugs and rock n roll ... an the rest)... and they'll say things like "Oh he only works best when he's a had a few beers" or, "Aye, he can handle his drink" and "He's hardcore, impenetrable" ... everything is said in admiration.

It supports what he does. No idea what his partner says to him. And his daily 5pm pints are never - to his face at least - mentioned as anything wrong. Ostensibly because by themselves they are not.

It is privately acknowledged at work that he does have a problem between a few members of staff, but not openly. But that's to do with diplomacy. He does reek of the stuff some mornings though. And he looks a good 15yrs older than he should.

[anon]

Army Thread, Tuesday the 18th and it's almost frikken Chrimbo again!!!!

RunningCourage;1429038 wrote: No, he's not admitted anything - like he'd never say "I'm an alkie" But he admits himself he drinks, and he knows he's a 'big drinker'... but peeps support his drinking by never saying it's a problem to him.

So there's a lot of people he works with - both at our work, and in his other freelance work - who respect him (some perhaps fear him, he plays on being the "wired geezer with a darker east-end of glasgow history... sex drugs and rock n roll ... an the rest)... and they'll say things like "Oh he only works best when he's a had a few beers" or, "Aye, he can handle his drink" and "He's hardcore, impenetrable" ... everything is said in admiration.

It supports what he does. No idea what his partner says to him. And his daily 5pm pints are never - to his face at least - mentioned as anything wrong. Ostensibly because by themselves they are not.

It is privately acknowledged at work that he does have a problem between a few members of staff, but not openly. But that's to do with diplomacy. He does reek of the stuff some mornings though. And he looks a good 15yrs older than he should.

How sad.

[JackieClaire]

Army Thread, Tuesday the 18th and it's almost frikken Chrimbo again!!!!

I should apologise, Runners. I'm being a bit pernickety.

Sounds rather sad, to me.

[RunningCourage]

Army Thread, Tuesday the 18th and it's almost frikken Chrimbo again!!!!

JackieClaire;1429042 wrote: I should apologise, Runners. I'm being a bit pernickety.

Sounds rather sad, to me.

Don't apologise Jacs, you got a lot more wisdom stuffed into your batbelt than I do.

Do you mean by me calling him an 'alkie colleague' as opposed to a colleague at work who's an alkie? That's not being pernickety if it was. I have - still do - wonder what I'd be like when I'm in my mid 40's (his age) if i continued the drinking habit I had and am battling to conquer. There is something powerful about being with those that support your own bad habits - he did this for me (among anyone else who cared for a drink or 6)... so perhaps subconsciously he was a bit of an "alkie colleague" ... (AKA a drinking buddie)

If i misinterpreted - just ignore!

[JackieClaire]

Army Thread, Tuesday the 18th and it's almost frikken Chrimbo again!!!!

RunningCourage;1429046 wrote: Don't apologise Jacs, you got a lot more wisdom stuffed into your batbelt than I do.

Do you mean by me calling him an 'alkie colleague' as opposed to a colleague at work who's an alkie? That's not being pernickety if it was. I have - still do - wonder what I'd be like when I'm in my mid 40's (his age) if i continued the drinking habit I had and am battling to conquer. There is something powerful about being with those that support your own bad habits - he did this for me (among anyone else who cared for a drink or 6)... so perhaps subconsciously he was a bit of an "alkie colleague" ... (AKA a drinking buddie)

If i misinterpreted - just ignore!

Oooh I like the sound of the bat belt.

It was just used to have a friend that would call someone a 'real alkie'. I always wondered how she knew. She'd never sussed me out.

I think we do subconsciously seek out people who drink more or with similar drinking patterns to our own, so we can justify our own drinking. I'm talking before I actually got physically addicted here.

Now I'm not sure what I mean