Army Thread Thursday 27/12/2012

[JackieClaire]

Army Thread Thursday 27/12/2012

Well if it's not day one again, what would you call it Mick.

There was an almighty barney round here just after I'd celebrated a 1000 days. I could have had that years ago if I hadn't bothered to count my slips.

We celebrate 30 days,90, a 100 in a row. Where do we start. When we decide to give up drinking ,when we drink less than a bottle, when we've hidden it so well people don't realise we're drinking.

[anon]

Army Thread Thursday 27/12/2012

JackieClaire;1433181 wrote: Well if it's not day one again, what would you call it Mick.

There was an almighty barney round here just after I'd celebrated a 1000 days. I could have had that years ago if I hadn't bothered to count my slips.

We celebrate 30 days,90, a 100 in a row. Where do we start. When we decide to give up drinking ,when we drink less than a bottle, when we've hidden it so well people don't realise we're drinking.

Oh Er Mrs:goodjob:
So right I only got that after a long while AF and never remembered the start date.
Cannot remember when I kicked the fags. But like booze it would only take the one for me to be back on that rollercoaster

[mama bear]

Army Thread Thursday 27/12/2012

I'll take my six months and start over....
day 1..... 12/16/12!!
no worries for me

[RunningCourage]

Army Thread Thursday 27/12/2012

mama!.... somebody's running towards you............................................

and they wanna give you a hug it seems............................................. ...











:l BAM! :l...












Only me :hallo:

[Alcoholic]

Army Thread Thursday 27/12/2012

mollyka;1433213 wrote: In the heel of the hunt Mama, you are sober today, and I'm sober today - that's all we can do - the rest is really accountability to the site, and for ME, that's very important. So you and I are doing what we can do - today:l
And as a serial relapser in the past. I do sympathise with you and the pressures that are around us at Christmas, it's bloody hard! So onwards and upwards our girl - yeah??:l

well said! :thanks:

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

Army Thread Thursday 27/12/2012

Evening folks, apologies, pretty full on day of AL yet again. I shouldnt be posting but please forgive. I just need to share a little of my day if I may be so bold, please.
On my long piss heads journey today I met whom I would consider a lovely guy, one of my old cronies. Sad to see a shadow of a person speaking to me, shaking my hand and putting his arm around me, an old drinking pals shoulder. I know by a brief look that he is on his on his way, the drink has his soul & now his body. Callous as it sounds I expect the man has weeks lefts, 40 yrs of AL daily finally calls its own home.....
He also told of another drinking pal of mine who 3 weeks ago went for a bio-op, they found 4 different areas of cancerous growth.
In addition told of a 30 yr old 1st cousin of mine who has been diagnosed with liver cancer, inoperable. Guess what, another heavy dinker.

[Alcoholic]

Army Thread Thursday 27/12/2012

KTAB, oh no.... sorry to hear that....

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

Army Thread Thursday 27/12/2012

Thank you for your kind words.

[Recluse]

Army Thread Thursday 27/12/2012

I'm ever so sorry to hear that ktabs. You could probably have done without hearing that news at this time of year. It seems that even when we know the stuff is killing us, some of us are unable to stop drinking. I hope you and I and others here who are struggling can learn from your day today and remind ourselves of the dangers of heavy drinking and somehow eventually find the determination and willpower to save ourselves.

[RingingCedars]

Army Thread Thursday 27/12/2012

Hippyman;1433252 wrote: I am so sorry to hear this. It doesn't have to happen to you. You can be healthy and whole again. I know you can!

Ditto what he said KT. Come on back, find your joy again hun. :l

[startingover]

Army Thread Thursday 27/12/2012

Tabbers I am so sorry to hear all that. Please use this awful news to help yourself out of the mire :l
Bad news often has 2 reactions, either destructive or constructive. Take the constructive path my friend

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

Army Thread Thursday 27/12/2012

Thank you folks for your comments, indeed food for thought. But despite it all AL still has such a grip, the alternatives seems as unthinkable as it remains ellusive. Jesus what a mess.

[RingingCedars]

Army Thread Thursday 27/12/2012

For you KT.
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[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

Army Thread Thursday 27/12/2012

Thank you RC. Truth spoken, only one person can change our fate. So many times I have been here, full oh so full of self pity, regrets, even sorrow for life passed yet despite it all, it continues. If I were present here as a third party I would recommend a good kick in the undercarriage.
Reality for me personally is it makes little difference beyond a few days, at best a few weeks, nay on occasion even months on end. But still it lurks like a dark shadow, the answer to our celebrations, our deepest pain, our daily survival. Such is life for some.

[RingingCedars]

Army Thread Thursday 27/12/2012

KTAB;1433299 wrote: Thank you RC. Truth spoken, only one person can change our fate. So many times I have been here, full oh so full of self pity, regrets, even sorrow for life passed yet despite it all, it continues. If I were present here as a third party I would recommend a good kick in the undercarriage.
Reality for me personally is it makes little difference beyond a few days, at best a few weeks, nay on occasion even months on end. But still it lurks like a dark shadow, the answer to our celebrations, our deepest pain, our daily survival. Such is life for some.

You're not the type to respond to kicks in the undercarriage KT, imo at least. We are all different. Life with it's trials and tribs is a roller coaster for most these days. Add alcohol and the ride becomes much more precarious. Why not re-start with harm reduction and take less rides?