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[Kradle123]

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RunningCourage;1434959 wrote: Hi Tipps... What you describe is similar to what I'm experiencing a bit just now. I too hope it's not who I am beneath the booze, but if it is I'm sure it's a me that is damn well easier to sort than if I was drunk or depressed or just persistently chugging round a hamster wheel of drink and hangovers.

Personally, i believe I'm not the negative person that sometimes takes over my thought patterns. However I do think that i've repressed a lot of stuff through AL and perhaps don't know how to deal with all my feelings or interactions with some people or situations. My hope is that if i can carry on with being AF that in due course these things will be dealt with, ironed out, worked through and eventually, gradually the me I think I should be (the content me that is comfortable being me) will emerge... It's just one moment at a time, with half an eye on the long term.

Awhile ago I started a thread called something like does AL create character or reveal it ? People had a variety of views which leaned towards AL buried a lot within us but it also made us act in otherwise uncharacteristic ways.

I am extremely bitchy these days, pressured and I pretty much know it's because i Self medicated (like Ann spoke of) all that anger I had against you know who pretty much all the way around....trite but true.

I hope that the further I get from AL the less angry I will get. It is very hard and little stuff sends me thru the roof. Just have to be hyper aware...:l

Hugs and heart to everyone tonight! :h

[shelbysmiles]

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Tipp, the first few days are pretty smooth for me as well. I do have several road blocks scheduled in Jan but I will deal with them when they get here. I can't let the anxiety take over.

I found during my hundreds of quits that I have such a short fuse. I've never stayed sober long enough to see if it works itself out. My patience wears pretty thin and I've always turned to a nice glass of wine. Which turns into a bottle and a half so I can go completely numb. But, I've been noticing lately that its not numbing so much anymore. My behavior has been more manic like. Then the hangover, severe anxiety, depression, same thing over and over. I just don't want to live this way anymore. So ready for a change!

[Alcoholic]

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I know I have a temper, and I tended to drink when I was angry. That's why I'm working on my anger as well through spirituality. I think spirituality will help my anger and anxiety.

My anger sometimes was worsened by drinking. On the other hand , My typically sweet husband when drunk, gets overly sweet and loving... Not in a sexual way but w all these very sweet words about everlasting love, the corniest stuff that he'd be horrified to hear himself say when sober....

[criss]

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I want in !!!!!!!!!!!!!scared !:new:

[OnceAgain]

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Thanks, Molly and Fly Away for your words and advice. The analogy that Fly gave is so good and I am so thankful to everyone here for posting their thougts and feelings so that I do not feel so alone. My hope is that some day I can be the one inspiring someone else and helping them to succeed in beating this thing. For now though I am pretty much all about me and making sure that I get on the right track. Posting and reading really help me to focus. I made it through another night with no AL. Had huge cravings yesterday afternoon when I was alone - ate sugar (which I never do) instead of drinking. Not good but better than caving in. It is freezing here and I am trying to muster up the will to take the dog for a walk which always makes me feel better. I will also do my yoga routine today which helps to settle my mood and mind. Tonight will be hard for many of us for sure due to the holiday and all the partying that goes along with it. I plan on staying in and watching movies with my man and cooking a really nice dinner. I got some sparkling cider and some NA wine to help me make it through. That way I won't be tempted to drink but can still toast in the new year. Happy New Year to all! We can do this! Here's to an AL free 2013!

[Tipplerette]

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New Years Eve is notorious for the pressure one feels to drink. I am not tempted lately but who knows about tonight. If I feel weak, I'll just come here since I am at the lake house and we have the computers set up.

I think after I've been sober for 30 days, I'll get a better handle on who this person is I've been so afraid to deal with for ten years. I know my true self slipped into the bottle when my daughter was 14 and was raging at me, running away, skipping school and threatening violence. It's safe to come out now; daughter is now grown up and no one is going to hurt me.

Not drinking is relatively easy when all my ducks are in a row (which they are now). It's when there's tension I need strength.

[prose]

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Welcome Criss!

[prose]

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Well I screwed up last night, thought I could moderate but guess what? Arghhhhh why do I do this to myself? My first two thoughts as I woke up were "you are such a loser " and "who the hell have you become?"
Last one is a good question, don't know who I am anymore .
How's that for a downer good morning?

[patrice]

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Hiya all!!

It's already 2013 where I am.. I've started the year sober..yay
Positive thoughts to you all

Patrice

[Nelz]

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12 hours away.........first solid AF "year" in years.......feels good.

Got my seltzer water in hand and ready to bring in the New Year like people in my age bracket do..........snuggled in nice and tight, and sawing ZZZZzzzzzzzzzzz's :H

[Mom21961]

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Count me in! After many years of heavy daily drinking, I had a couple of weeks AF last month due to this program. It was going great until that voice in my head that said 'That was pretty easy! I think I can moderate!'. NOT. For me anyway, it's a box a day, every day, or nothing, so this commitment is one I want to make. I'm back on day one today, but the supplements are helping, and I pray I won't ever listen to that voice again. Looking forward to a sober 2013

[Wagoneer]

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GettingHealthyInATL;1433536 wrote: its time to get serious about living.

THIS.

And count me in. :h

[Struggles 106]

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COUNTING DOWN

Hey Criss welcome to a new sober year!

Prose-Please don't beat yourself up. Keep trying!

We are almost in the new year (except for those ALREADY in the new year) as we take on this challenge.
Tomorrow is not really my day one but I am focusing on it as the marker for the first eer sober calendar year. It is going to come down to using all the tools available to get this done.
For me it's stopping the thoughts before they can become action. I know I can do this!
And I know a lot of you will to. We will be laughing our butts off next Christmas.

Just because I don't want to drink now doesn't mean that devil is off my shoulder. He is there idly waiting for a weak moment to start his spiel. I am determined to not listen and get up and do something else. It is impossible to predict what will occur and when-you just have to be prepared.

[prose]

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Thanks Ann,
I will keep trying!!!
I will do it!!
I have invited a new friend that I invited over for NYE, I am heading out to the store for food and I have already figured out how to say I won't drink as she is bringing wine.
I found grapefruit flavored Perrier which I
will stock up on!
I love the idea of laughing next Christmas
I will check in when I get back

[Red Riding Hood]

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Ann Carolina;1435358 wrote:
For me it's stopping the thoughts before they can become action.

Yes, this is all for me too. Thoughts from nowhere have been my downfall every time because the cravings are never physical, it just starts with a thought that worms its way into my brain and grows and grows and eventually takes over. Why do I let that happen? Well anyway, no more

I'm safely tucked in for NY eve tonight anyway, (metaphorically at least, it's still only 6.30pm in the UK :H) and looking forward to starting 2013 with a clear head and a clean sheet - one day at a time.

Wishing everyone a safe and sober NY eve - see you all on the other side!