2013-LET'S DO THIS!

[nurdl]

2013-LET'S DO THIS!

Paulywogg, getting healthy is the most important thing we can do for ourselves. Other people just do not understand how hard this really is. I have to remind mine how well I'm doing.
~n

[Mootsbill]

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I'm lucky that my husband is very supportive he knows drinking is not great for me, but he does drink every evening, and loves socialising, I don't mind because has no problem with it, but I do find it would be nice for us to have more things in common now I don't drink!. I've always been into my fitness but then partied hard but now it seems that I do the fitness and he drinks lol! I would love him to suggest the cinema or theatre but he likes the pub!

[NoraC]

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Kradle thanks for putting it that way to Tipps. I just didn't know what to say. I so hope that she stays here.

I made the mistake of saying something to my hubby yesterday and I'm still hurting over it. I told him that I didn't know if I could be AF for all of 2013. He totally blew up. Yelling that he didn't want to talk/hear anymore about my poisoning/killing myself. I wasn't even wanting to drink. I just was feeling overwhelmed. Thinking about the big picture instead of just taking t a day at a time. It's my fault because he's just tired of my stopping and then starting up again. I'm sick of being like this. I've hardly even talked to him today and I don't think he's even noticed. Oh well....

[Struggles 106]

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HEY NORA

Sorry to hear about the hurtful exchange you had with your husband. People sometimes just don't get it! And those closest to us sometimes don't.

Hang in there! You can do it! I know a whole year is too much to think about; I'm just getting through one day at a time.

You said " I'm sick of being like this." Well...I know what you mean, but you are BEING
really great! You are trying, and that is huge!

I hope everyone is having a great weekend. I really appreciate this place, and the accountability is priceless.

[Kradle123]

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NoraC;1438769 wrote: Kradle thanks for putting it that way to Tipps. I just didn't know what to say. I so hope that she stays here.

I made the mistake of saying something to my hubby yesterday and I'm still hurting over it. I told him that I didn't know if I could be AF for all of 2013. He totally blew up. Yelling that he didn't want to talk/hear anymore about my poisoning/killing myself. I wasn't even wanting to drink. I just was feeling overwhelmed. Thinking about the big picture instead of just taking t a day at a time. It's my fault because he's just tired of my stopping and then starting up again. I'm sick of being like this. I've hardly even talked to him today and I don't think he's even noticed. Oh well....

Hi Nora:

I think you and I are in similar husband boats...his great come back in the beginnig of my journey in 2008 when I told him about this place and the program and moderation and such was, "YOu'll never make a social drinker out of an alcoholic.'

Well you can imagine how supportived I felt, thank you very much... And so I carried on drinking for another Oh...4 years?

Now I rarely mention the journey to him and I totally agree: It is so sad becasue you want your closest ally to be your closest ally so to speak. But the reality is he was the one who took the brunt of the drinking. His compassion quota is just about filled. He is also the child of an alcholic so he got it at both ends.

Still, I so wish it were diferent. But then I wish so many things were different.

:l

PSL I got a PM from Tipp. She's ambilvilant, struggling but resolute in not going back to drinking. I guess it's just space she needs now.

:h

[OnceAgain]

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This place is great. The accountability is starting to really make a difference for me. Even after I fail I still find the support I need which now makes me want to succeed more than ever. I am finishing up my re-start and I am feeling good and calm at the end of my day one. This morning I was at the store and was standing in front of the wine section just staring. I came so close to buying a bottle. Thankfully I did not do it. I am sure if I had it would be gone by now and I would be in bed. Instead I cooked a fab dinner for my family and my son and I are making whoopie pies. Had a great cross country ski with my hubby and am a "good" tired. So much better than feeling numb and out of it! Have a good nite everyone!:l

[patrice]

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Hi girls,

I blew it yesterday and had a bottle of red wine.. wasn't a craving.. not sure what it was??
But I'm not going to let that derail me and I'm AF again today. I did 4 days without wine and was feeling good. Instead of being angry at myself I've told myself, it happened so just move on. I'm learning I think... usually I would have said Fuck it, I'll drink today as well (Sunday)...

I can only think of one day at a time Nora.. hope you are feeling a bit better
Tipps = I wonder if you do really have a problem with Al?? I remember a while back you posting about how you and hubby had stopped making your own wine and that you weren;t really drinking because you were ' forgetting' to pick up a bottle at the store... Forgetting!! Personally I would never forget to buy wine.. milk and bread yes but wine never...

Have a great day/night all

take care
Patrice

[NoraC]

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Once - that is great! It is so much better to enjoy our lives instead of wasting them. Enjoy your time with your son.

[OnceAgain]

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Thanks, Nora! Sorry about the reaction of your husband. Mine is similar since I have started and stopped so many times - he is mostly worried but he digs me about it occasionally. I tend not to really say antyhing about it when I stop but he always notices it. He really does not mention it much anymore but since I drank the last few days today when we were skiing he mentioned it. I just said that I will keep trying. He said nothing.... oh well - I am in this for me anyway and for the most part he is supportive. Have a good night.

[NoraC]

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Kradle - you are right. He is just tired of it. I want to be able to talk to him about it but he's tired of me drinking. So - there you go.
Really glad you heard from Tipp though. I hope that she comes back.

Patrice - you are so right. It is a day at a time. I need to just stick with now.

Thanks! You all made me feel better.

[Kradle123]

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Awesome Job Once! I have so been in the wine section at the store staring andnow they have spirits which I switched to about 2 years ago. I pretend to be looking for a particular wine or such but really I'm thinking about all of you and the stories and the futire I knwo is waiting for me if I cave.....Most of the tine I walk away. Fell once this Holiday season.

Sad but Glad to see others with me in the husband boat :sigh:

:l

[nurdl]

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What a start to the new year, huh? I find that when ever I "plan" to begin a diet/exercise program I gain weight and feel like a blob. I think that was part of my fear about claiming up front an entire year AF. I felt the tendrils of failure creeping in. Weird because I can claim each day as AF, but that long range concept freaked me out. It seems as though there's quite a bit of stressing out right now but we shouldn't. We can do this together.
We may not get the support we need at home but we can find it here. I think we have to listen to ourselves. My therapist isn't keen on MWO but I know it helps me and makes me accountable. My therapist wants me to go to AA, and I have met some wonderful women there, but I am not doing the steps etc. It doesn't speak to me. Yoga does and it's the best therapy I've had. Ever.
Tipp your husband will have to get over himself and get used to the new you. You'll feel better, brighter, happier as time goes on. You know what the right thing is for you.
I think MWO is an amazing place. When one of us is down, a whole team of peeps step up to help out. When we have questions we ask each other. Tipp, I hope you're lurking and reading about how much we care about you. Do come back. You're such a pleasure to know.
Now I'm rambling so I'm off to bed. Love you peeps. I have four months today and I'm going to give myself a cheer girl! :yougo:
~n

[patrice]

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Hey Nurdl !!!!

Well Done on 4 months... you must be so proud!!!!
I bet you feel great, physically and mentally.

Take care
Patrice

[NoraC]

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Nurdl - 4 months!!!!! Way to go!!!!! You are wonderful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:yay: :yay: :happy::happy: You keep driving that car.

[NoraC]

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Nurdl - regarding your therapist.....I think that their standard answer is to go to AA. I know that is what my therapist has suggested. I did try it and went to several meetings. I found a women's meeting that I liked and went there quite a few times. I might go again, I just am not an ougoing person and it is uncomfortable for me. But, I'm not ruling it out.
Now, both my therapist and my psychiatrist approve of MWO and are happy that I'm getting the support here. But, I think they both would like me to also attend AA.