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If there are any flight cancellations I cannot be responsible for my behavior.

AND I am a bit angry since I asked for Monday off to take a breath but NOOOO-the 2 guys in my group are already off! Because they have sat on their asses all f***ing week.

GRRRR

Oh well I will be OK-just so tired

[Frequent Traveler]

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Let it out AC.... We are here with you.

FT

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OMG I hate travel! I traveled EVERY week for five years so I had enough!

When I got to Charlotte tonight there was a question about the flight going to Raleigh. I was livid. My boss said CAN YOU RENT A CAR? Oh SURE-after starting out at 6 am in San Francisco? Drive 3 hours home? HELL NO

But the flight finally made it. I am being choldish and vowing that I WILL NOT work on my expense report, or site report on MY time.

The very good news-day 11 of this new sober year! My health plan was sidetracked by this trip. BUT I read a great book the last few days-Drop Dead Health by A J Jacobs. I highly recommend it. I am buying a juicer tomorrow.

THank you all for listening. SOBER!! DETERMINED!! YAY!!

AND I am getting my big calendar tomorrow! And stickers!

[Frequent Traveler]

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Good Morning,
The Coffee ahh love that first taste in the morning, had severe temptations last night for both vices but somehow was able to reach inside and not do it.
My son is back with his mom for a while but that's part of the plan, it's just always rough when he's away. The good thing is he's not that far away it's just the thought of him not being here overnight, it's all good.
Must say that waking up clear headed and feeling good is all worth it and I will keep pressing on.
Hope everyone has a fantastic day as I sure plan on having one.
FT

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SATURDAY THOUGHTS

Here we are at day 12! Good for us!

Looking back at my journal I see that I had a bit of a slip on 12/20 SO I am now at 23 days completely alcohol free and intend to stay that way.

Did you ever notice that when you are sober all the time there is less defensiveness? Seems that I am less "touchy" about defending myself since I have a clear conscience, and I know that I have not done something stupid.

I also can reason out whether I have a reason to be annoyed, whether I am being irrational or not. It's much easier to be reasonable without a knee-jerk reaction to every bit of criticism or negatie comment.

I've also decided to hae a sleep study. I am sick of taking sleep meds and being tired all the time. This year is going to be better in a lot of ways.

Heads up NELZ- 1/19 is 30 days for me-just sayin'

[NoraC]

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Hi Ann - so glad that you finally made it home. What a nightmare trip. Aaarrrrgggghhhh

I had a sleep study last summer. I have sleep apnea. I got a cpap machine and things are so much better. I had been waking up so much. When they did the study on me, I woke up every 2 minutes. I never went into a deep sleep. No wonder that I always felt exhausted and that my brain was in a fog. When I talked to the Doctor, I told him that I had been trying to do everything I should.....exercise, eat right, etc. He said that wouldn't help until I got the apnea taken care of.

I agree that when you're AF, it's easier to know if you're being touchy. I was tired of pretending that I remembered a conversation from the night before.

Glad that you're getting your calendar & stickers. I love putting my stickers on every day.

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HEY NORA

I have a feeling that I have slepp apnea too. I know I snore a lot and loud, which is also on an indicator.
I am a little bit mad at myself for charging my room in Philly on my own card rather than my corporate AmEx. Now I might not be able to expense it-$240-

Several people have told me lately that they had a sleep study and the CPAP made a BIG difference. I guess I'll start with my GP on this.
Tomorrow is 1/13/13 and I am starting some new healthy habits. 70 degrees and sunny here-no reason not to exercise. GOD I hate being fat!

My new neighbor is very weird, and I'm not sure what he is about. He has a big American flag on the garage wall along wioth an AR-15. He has large mannequins of some sort standing in there (life-size) with what looks like KKK shit on, and one is the grim reaper. I cannot wait to move.

[NoraC]

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Gee whiz - your neighbor sounds crazy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Definitely get checked out for apnea. I did my test at home. They gave me something that I wore one night that recorded the results. I was so glad that I didn't have to go in and do it somewhere. I was worried that I wouldn't be able to fall asleep.

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HEY NORA

I was thinking about that-the sleep test. I cannot go to sleep easily at all so I dread the thought of thrashing around in that situation.

And the neighbor-yes he is weird. Last Sunday he was banging around blaring loud music down in the garage. Now I can see when I pull in my garage that there is a rack on the wall with long scarf looking things hanging on them. The next time I hae the chance I am going to be nosy Nellie and try to see what they are. He has NRA stuff on his car.
I just want to loe out in the country and have peace and quiet and not have to deal with noise and nuts. Unless they're a different kind of nut, like aging hippie pacifists like me LOL

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Ann Carolina;1442909 wrote:
I just want to loe out in the country and have peace and quiet and not have to deal with noise and nuts. Unless they're a different kind of nut, like aging hippie pacifists like me LOL

You just described me......aging, hippie pacifist :H:H:H:H:H

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HEY NORA

THen we are kindred spirits! HAHA

THere are 3 of the mannequin things in this guy's garage. The two that are not the grip reaper have some sort of robes on them with big crosses on the chest. The faces are all very scary garish looking things, with wigs it appears.

Frankly I don't want to live next to a guy with this weapon hanging on his garage wall. I think people like that are far more inclined to so stupid stuff with a gun. AND he is not friendly. Which is OK- I'm sure we hae nothing to say to each other.
When you are compelled to advertise your weirdness like that I think it's a problem

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Starting Tomorrow

I got a cleanse/detox thing that I am starting tomorrow. I am determined to not only be sober but to get healthy. I cannot carry around so much weight anymore.

I have only been this fat after pregnancy. Just sheer laziness and I am done with it.
SO as I said before 1/13/13 seems to be a good date to get on with it.

The detox thing was $200 and lasts 2 weeks. I think it will be a good jump-start to all this, along with exercise.

Walking clears my head, and in the morning I am taking a long walk to process some of my resent resentments. I am lucky to have the job I have and I need tog et some perspective tomorrow.

I hope everyone is having a good weekend.

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CRAZY NEIGHBOR UPDATE

As I mentioned my neighbor has a weapon haning on his garage wall. I now see today that the three "mannequins" standing there are 1) the grim reaper, 2) tall with a pink wig, a white robe with a big black cross on the chest, holding a fake baby and 3) not as tall with the same robe and some kind of wig holding a bloody foot that looks like it was ripped of a leg at the ankle.

I am definitely moving

[NoraC]

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That is really, really weird. He just has these standing around in the garage? I mean, I'm sure I have stuff that people would think is weird. But seriously!!!

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HEY NORA

Yes! THey are just standing there! He put quite a bit of effort inot this macabre tableau.

NOONE could call this remotely normal