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    2013-LET'S DO THIS!

    HEY NORA

    Yes! THey are just standing there! He put quite a bit of effort inot this macabre tableau.

    NOONE could call this remotely normal

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      2013-LET'S DO THIS!

      THat's what is so strange......that he put so much effort into this.
      "Only I can change my life. No one can do it for me.".....Carol Burnett
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      AF - 7-27-15

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        2013-LET'S DO THIS!

        Can you get a pic? I am such a nosy Parker!
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          2013-LET'S DO THIS!

          LOL - I want to see too!!! :H:H:H
          "Only I can change my life. No one can do it for me.".....Carol Burnett
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          AF - 7-27-15

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            2013-LET'S DO THIS!

            PICTURE

            I'll try but I am a little afraid of the guy. He is def wierd. I mean WHO does that?

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              2013-LET'S DO THIS!

              Ann--- I would definitely move!!! Oh my! Freaky!
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                2013-LET'S DO THIS!

                And although I'd like to see a pic too but I don't think it's safe to do so, he may have cameras around taking pictures of anyone taking pictures of his treasures.....
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                A wise man knows how little he knows."

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                  2013-LET'S DO THIS!

                  Ally is right! I didn't think of that. No pictures - just stay away from him.
                  "Only I can change my life. No one can do it for me.".....Carol Burnett
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                  AF - 7-27-15

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                    2013-LET'S DO THIS!

                    So far I am loving 2013, 14 days and going strong both AF & NF.

                    FT
                    AF with a few speed bumps during 2014 & 2015 but will succeed.
                    As of 4/12/2014 I have not smoked at all and feel great.

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                      2013-LET'S DO THIS!

                      Great job FT!!! I'm 14 days too.
                      "Only I can change my life. No one can do it for me.".....Carol Burnett
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                      AF - 7-27-15

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                        2013-LET'S DO THIS!

                        What a team NoraC, we rock.

                        FT
                        AF with a few speed bumps during 2014 & 2015 but will succeed.
                        As of 4/12/2014 I have not smoked at all and feel great.

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                          2013-LET'S DO THIS!

                          Hi Ann, Ally & Nora:

                          To be honest I was kind of joking . I completely agree that whatever this guy is about he should pretty much be avoided...think of it maybe as the haunted house in the neighborhood!



                          Unfortunately This week has been nearly unbearable for me and I come here everyday, reading, trying to post, trying to get out of my own head but i am not that successful. I know that my situation is not as despairing as some but it is despairing to me because it simply fills me with hopelessness and shame and confusion.

                          I've been discovering all week the true depths of how this woman who ran this "iiT factor " music studio here had manipulated and emotionally twisted my son. How she encouraged him to regard me as a hideous stupid bitch who knew nothing. How she encouraged him to change his FB password and conceal it from me. How I would come to her with Matt's defiant and difficult behavior asking her to guide him and nurture his talent and while reassuring me with one hand, was stabbing me in the back with the other. How when I started to catch on and try to turn the tide she slowly started turning on my kids, my beautiful girls, praising them to my face and then treating them like shit in private. How all of this happened over the course of almost a fricken year; This insidious stealth that I missed.

                          And I missed most of it because I was trying to quite drinking...I was taking Topa and feeling in a fog most of the time, agitated and preoccupied. I remember in July missingvalmostvan entire week because I thought it was a day behind the actual day it was...

                          Reading my sons FB page now is sickening- the way he talks about me. Sexual stuff, cigarettes, a little about marijuana: not much which is bizarre considering he got suspended form school for having a bud in his backpack...which turned out to be a piece of oregano for Gods sake. I still pulled him out of school.

                          We are now looked together in the daily grind of home schooling. This in and of itself is a pressure cooker. Luckily my husbands job is allowing him to be home a lot over the next few months so I will have help. Otherwise I don't know...my depression is deepening.

                          I simply can not pull myself out of this spiral of self loathing, anger. I don't understand why this woman did this to us. I loved her program. I supported it whole heatedly. I even paid tuition early so the kids could move into a brand new studio. I even brought her new students!

                          And as I look back on My life this pattern emerges. Selecting relationships which eventually end in pain for me, pain for them and now, jeez Louise, pain for my children.

                          My friend said the other day that my failures are born from my compassion. I can see that to an extent. But they're are also a product of my stupidity, my drinking, my not drinking...

                          The pressure has been building all week. And as I look at all my stickers lumped together on the calander, weeks months with some slips here and there I am feeling very distant from any of that progress. Very hopeless because it has lead me HERE...to this incredible place of grief for me with all my past fuck ups in my face and my gorgeous children in there singing and carrying on as though all is well.

                          So I had two rum and tonics last night...faily large ones and I ate potato chips which I rarely do and watched Duck Soup with the kids....and I Just wanted to be numb for a few hours even though I new the cost. I knew that those hours wouldn't kill me but they would retard my progress, stop me from practicing the healthy handling of those often awful pockets of life

                          Is this a pity party? Maybe
                          But it just feels more like a pressure cooker- like heavy stones appearing on my chest.

                          I'm taking my Bi Polar meds and I'm religiously taking supps and my L Glut....
                          I know I don't want to go back to counseling. I want to just stay at MWO and keep reading, posting and watching Star Trek. I think I might have to go to Trekkie Support Group pretty soon...

                          Anyway, I wanted to keep posted on this 2013 thread. Stay focused. stay accountable which is the only way to stay honest with myself.
                          Sorry to sound dramatic here. I just don't feel well. I want to go to sleep now and so I think I will.

                          Thanks for listening. :l:h

                          PS: Congrats FT on 14 Days. Thats a fortnight in Old English.
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                            2013-LET'S DO THIS!

                            Kradle - I am so very sorry. I wish that I had words to help you. You have a heavy load right now. I hate that the woman betrayed you like that. That is horrible for you & for your children. How old is Matt? Teenage years are hard enough and it is much harder for you because of his issues. I do think that he needs to be told that his postings are not appropriate and that you will not let him use the computer unless he cleans it up. That is not ok.
                            Good job on you for continuing to take your meds. Yes, you feel distant from your progress right now. But, your progress is still there. Just hang on. We are here for you. Keep talking.....let us know how you are & what is going on. Maybe we can't make it all better but we can be here to support you. Give you a sounding board......a shoulder to cry on.
                            Take care......:h
                            "Only I can change my life. No one can do it for me.".....Carol Burnett
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                            AF - 7-27-15

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                              2013-LET'S DO THIS!

                              Thank you so much Nora. You have been a big inspiration to me. I am in the middle of your journey right now, reading. Got past the Rat :egad: that certainly was a suprise ending.

                              Your journey is really encouraging to me especially reading about Casey. It is so ferociously hard with our kids isn't it?

                              Matt's computer is GONE. has been for some time. I am working on deleting that face booK account- have unfriended a lot of people....

                              He only is on there now for his classes and some Netflix but he is in the office off the kitchen so he is constantly monitored.

                              Don't want to drink tonight which is nice. I'll put another sticker up there. Try not to think about last night:upset:

                              Thanks again for checking in. Means a lot. Am going back to reading your journey now. :h
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                                2013-LET'S DO THIS!

                                It is so hard with our kids. I honestly couldn't see the light at the end of the tunnel when we were going thru everything. I blamed myself for everything. Still do if I'm honest.
                                So glad that you got another sticker today.
                                "Only I can change my life. No one can do it for me.".....Carol Burnett
                                ..........
                                AF - 7-27-15

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