Army Thread Shunday 30th December

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mollyka;1434587 wrote: I've got 2 Joe's:H Sometimes the 18 yr old one is as wise as the 60 yr old one:H Joking aside - he's a huge asset - he won't take credit - but I'm well aware how important he is in all this - mind you he's a different man to the one I married - he was a tough bugger back then - really hard childhood and had NO idea bout relationships - anyway that's the past:l Well Arsey - we'll be seeing a bit of you so :-)

Far from amazing hon. Just what I was taught - I really hope Zen is getting the same sort of hot-housing!
Just a question - tell me to mind my own business if you like. What's the story with over the counter meds and getting addicted. Like I 'get' what they say bout the codeine ones, tho they never made a blind bit of difference to me - and anything else? I just don't understand what affect they would have - I s'pose it's like when I went into rehab there was a bloke there for gambling and I couldn't understand why he was there at the beginning - by the end I really did. As I say - I just don't understand the attraction - I would fully understand valium etc.

Take 40 a day and you will see the "benefit :upset::upset::upset:
It harps back to my heroin days Im afraid.
It gives me a feeling of calm wellbeing, motivation, peace if you like. Well it does until it doesnt anymore or you realise that you will probably die trying to take enough to obtain the feelings that one is chasing

[mario]

Army Thread Shunday 30th December

Where is the Sunday shout outs, the last one of the year ??

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mollyka;1434591 wrote: Oh ok - I just never took enuff How are you doing now - are you winning or is it a big battle?

I wanna do that!!! Need to be able to say 1 Year And....... wow - did I ever think I'd see the day!!!

Im winning, but its a big battle
Cant not win this time. I am 50 this year, I dont want to be dependent on something so destructive at my half century

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

Army Thread Shunday 30th December

Cant post on that thread yet I'm afraid, but I will.
Thank you for the deep honest soul searching posts here this morning.

[mario]

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Not not not means that arthritis is not the reason I am going to lanzarote, I would go to a sunny climate at the drop of a hat, Johnny logan sure whats another year,I shall drop in to celebrate your one year milestone mollymoo, its such a great achievement and your such a great lady.


Starts sorry your going through the mill again,stay close to here and it will help you in your journey.x

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KTAB;1434593 wrote: Cant post on that thread yet I'm afraid, but I will.
Thank you for the deep honest soul searching posts here this morning.

Tabbers you are not alone in your struggle you know.
Never :l

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mario;1434594 wrote: Not not not means that arthritis is not the reason I am going to lanzarote, I would go to a sunny climate at the drop of a hat, Johnny logan sure whats another year,I shall drop in to celebrate your one year milestone mollymoo, its such a great achievement and your such a great lady.


Starts sorry your going through the mill again,stay close to here and it will help you in your journey.x

I know it will, I think I lost sight of my own recovery and maybe became complacent.
I do feel stronger mentally now. Physically still a bit dodgy

[mario]

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And that goes for you to Ktab, no matter where we are on this journey,We can and should post here,imo.as at the end of the day that's why we are all really here for,addiction.Cause we certainly wouldn't have met up on facebook, just saying.

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mario;1434597 wrote: And that goes for you to Ktab, no matter where we are on this journey,We can and should post here,imo.as at the end of the day that's why we are all really here for,addiction.Cause we certainly wouldn't have met up on facebook, just saying.

Here here Mario

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mollyka;1434600 wrote: Well -

Absolutely agree 100% - I know when I was binging-sober, binging-sober - I used to read this thread completely differently depending on my situation. When I was sober - I saw it for what it is - a bit of a laugh - but then if anyone was struggling the joking just stopped - and the real job kicked in. But when I was drinking - I often read it as a place where EVERYBODY was long-term sober, laughing and joking and seemed like a foreign language sometimes. Bit like looking in someones front window and see them as 'happy families' without knowing what actually goes on behind closed doors --- does any of that make sense

Totally makes sense to me.
I often feel that way about FB, everyone having a great time except me. And I was even beginning to blame my sobriety on it. Yes very warped thinking.
Around Christmas when everyone is doing family stuff and having fun I get so low, I dont even know why, it just hurts so much.

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Appreciate all your comments. If I am being honest I am beginning to realise where and why I am constantly failing, I just am not prepared to put in the hard work for any protracted period of time. Its easier to say I will stop tomorrow and as we all know sometimes tomorrow never comes. Quite why I decide to pick up a glass after weeks or months AF when everything in my life improves, not least my health, physically, mentally and spiritually but yet back to the abyss I choose to go. Complacency? no, more like laziness on my part. I have no choice over my addiction but I do have the choice not to pick up that first drink, every precious day that I have left. This sucks as does my self pity and whinging.

[Guitarista]

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Hiya Troopers,

Ahoy there Starters! Just saying ello. And i'm always around if that's any good to you at anytime. :h

Have a great sunday everyone.

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Guitarista;1434605 wrote: Hiya Troopers,

Ahoy there Starters! Just saying ello. And i'm always around if that's any good to you at anytime. :h

Have a great sunday everyone.

You are always good for me Greggers :l I shall take you up on that!

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KTAB;1434603 wrote: Appreciate all your comments. If I am being honest I am beginning to realise where and why I am constantly failing, I just am not prepared to put in the hard work for any protracted period of time. Its easier to say I will stop tomorrow and as we all know sometimes tomorrow never comes. Quite why I decide to pick up a glass after weeks or months AF when everything in my life improves, not least my health, physically, mentally and spiritually but yet back to the abyss I choose to go. Complacency? no, more like laziness on my part. I have no choice over my addiction but I do have the choice not to pick up that first drink, every precious day that I have left. This sucks as does my self pity and whinging.

Now that insight might be the start of summat Tabbers ?

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I think you've hit the nail on the head KT. That resonates with me, and i reckon many others.

G bloke.