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[struggles]

I went to the store today to buy a six pack of beer only to see several firefighters come in and grab beer and go next door to the liquor store....I watched the story unfold on tv.....only a few miles down the road from me....in fact...I saw the flames and I knew one of the men who died. Some of you will know what I am talking about and most of you will be at a loss, but, when it all came down to it, I looked those men in the eyes, I saw what and how they chose to deal with this and I put my beer back and I came home and cried and have been since. For them, for me, for the men that lost their lives, for the beautiful wife who so eloquently spoke for her husband...what a strong woman. I want to be strong like her. I live in Webster, NY.. I put the beer back...and sit here and cry and type to you all and don't expect you to get it , but it helps that I get it out. The look on those firemen's faces killed me, I just could not do it, I just could not drink it, I just feel so sad for those families.....but for them, that is what helps.....I cannot fathom what they are going through..they had just come from one funeral the other is tomorrow. I a so glad i found you guys. My heart breaks for them.

[FlyAway]

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I know what you are talking about and I am so sorry for their loss and yours.

[sunshinedaisies]

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Struggles - I don't know what you are talking about. I will Google it. I am so sorry for whatever it was....... if it hurt you, it hurt me. I am SO sorry - please hang in there - love and hugs to you my friend :l:l:h:h

love, sun XXX

[Kradle123]

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Struggles. :l

Watching people with huge looses deal with is incredible powerful. You really honored them and yourself by feeling that experience instead of shutting it out or numbing it.

Very proud of you and so sorry for all the pain. :h

:soothe:

[struggles]

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My heart breaks for these people. Thank you SO MUCH. I AM so grateful I put the beer back. The look on their faces.....I wish I could share it. So today, is my day one or two again and those looks and the loss the suffered....and the homes the burned....I need to suck it up butter cup..no excuse....time to make a change,,, my tears are still flowing. l(

[FlyAway]

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Feel those emotions Struggles. We are so used to numbing ourselves when faced with conflict or sadness. The only way to get past the pain is to go through it. You need to learn how to deal with strife sober. One day at a time.

[struggles]

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Fly Away..I saw them, the eyes, the sadness, closeness. I just wanted to hug them, but then again, they don't have the "gift" that I do. I put it back...that's what I keep saying in my head...I am in my pjs, tomorrow should be a slammer but it will be done sober and I am now listening to Gaga to get my groove on...lol. how I am hanging on, I have no idea, but I am doing it. God bless those men.

[Kradle123]

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Kradle123;1435027 wrote: Struggles. :l

Watching people with huge looses deal with is incredible powerful. You really honored them and yourself by feeling that experience instead of shutting it out or numbing it.

Very proud of you and so sorry for all the pain.

:soothe:

Sorry! I don't know how that brain fart smile got there!!!

I thought I was sending the good job guy...well, better late than... :goodjob:

Must have had a brain fart! :H

....still very proud of you. :l

[Slaythefear]

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Powerful post, struggles. We have all had or have our own suffering which gives us the capacity for compassion. Life is full of struggles and some of them are so very hard to get through. Thanks for sharing.

Love,

Slay

[paulywogg]

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struggles,you hang tough girl