I'm going to make another thread called "mind field". Where you can share your daily trigers and how you survive(d) the battles!
I'm hoping that this can bring another positive and even fun way of living and sharing the experiance as its kind of like a game
Here's my warrior profile please share yours as well!
28 F
held captive: for 14 years, poisoned for 8-10. 2X40oz a night.
Hardest part so far: getting motivated to handle the things I've been niglecting due to drinking ( like cleaning up my apt)and the dissapointment I feel in my lack of productivity. Also as the cloud lifts...realizing all the the realities I've been drowning out.
What is keeping me going: the anger over how much time I've wasted and not even realized while on auto pilot in a drunken fog, embarassment I feel for myself as I remember all the stupid things I've done without even realizing it, the reminder that AL is a POISON and that
I'm not missing out on anything, the excitment of all the possibilities and oppertunities to reach my true potencial.
My weapons: exersise( swimming), sauna's, epson salt baths, 4l water a day, munching on fruits and veggies and greek yogourt, vitamin c D E manesium, low carb, low cafeine, posting here, positive and creative visualization, daydreaming or better days and great things to come.
Weakness: men and relationships ( abandonment), social and generalized anxiety, low self esteme (a perfectionistic mentality that leads to unwarrented depression) childhood events.
My plan of attack: put on my battle armour and wait patiently at the gate to take out my triggers one by one. Like a NINJA! That sneaky bottle hijacking my life? is about to be ambushed.
My Fear: they say that people detoxing can stink terribly and uncontrolably for weeks. If its true ill just have add that to my list of reasons to take out the AL industry!!!
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