ARMY THREAD 23/01/2013

[JackieClaire]

ARMY THREAD 23/01/2013

Gerroff. I was first to offer myself as sacrifice.
You can have the wrapper.

[sweetpea29]

ARMY THREAD 23/01/2013

RunningCourage;1449182 wrote: DO NOT GIVE IT TO JC!!!!!

Ummm....eh.... me... you can give it to....ehm.... me?

Pretty please?

Pretty PRETTY please?!

My precious galaxy chocolate... precious.... *reaches out long skinny mucky arm*

Yiz are too late:eeew:

[Quest for the key]

ARMY THREAD 23/01/2013

Cinders;1449174 wrote: Limers and Questy,

I so understand the cravings and the insane thinking.

I have always been very jealous of those who just wake up one day and that is it. I don't know if that will ever be me.

However, right now I am determined. I am not allowing myself to think that taking a drink is an option. It isn't, at least not for me. So, that is off the plate. But, that doesn't make it feel better when I start to want to drink.

I remember in A Piece of Cake, Cupcake Brown was completely amazed when her AA sponsor told her, "Just because you want it doesn't mean you have to do it." That concept had never occurred to Cupcake before.

I keep remembering that line.

Kuya also reminded me that alcohol truly is poison. Period. For me, not only is alcohol poison, but at this point for me it is deadly poison. I have to keep reminding myself of that, too.

Cindi

Condo that is truly quite profound !!!

I'm trying to apply the want/have principle to these chocolate fingers on me lap !!!

I can't control al. I certainly can't mod - and when I drink I drink A LOT !! Last night was a bottle of wine and half a bottle of vodka. On an empty stomach !!! My poor liver must look like a shrivelled up prune !!

And thinking about it - the battle starts in my head - the voices, negotiating with meself - reasoning and debating. For a relatively intelligent woman I do some pretty stupid shit !!!

[RunningCourage]

ARMY THREAD 23/01/2013

JackieClaire;1449186 wrote: Gerroff. I was first to offer myself as sacrifice.
You can have the wrapper.

can you leave some smudgy bits on the wapper pwease?

*poor arsey shrivels into a hovel, shivering and shocked that he has been denied a morsel of sustenance*

[JackieClaire]

ARMY THREAD 23/01/2013

Aww Questy hun, sounds like you're necking it down like medicine.

[JackieClaire]

ARMY THREAD 23/01/2013

RunningCourage;1449191 wrote: can you leave some smudgy bits on the wapper pwease?

*poor arsey shrivels into a hovel, shivering and shocked that he has been denied a morsel of sustenance*

******sigh***** OK then.

I've actually got a packet of Dairy Milk Chocos. Nom nom nom.

[RunningCourage]

ARMY THREAD 23/01/2013

Quest for the key;1449188 wrote: Condo that is truly quite profound !!!

I'm trying to apply the want/have principle to these chocolate fingers on me lap !!!

I can't control al. I certainly can't mod - and when I drink I drink A LOT !! Last night was a bottle of wine and half a bottle of vodka. On an empty stomach !!! My poor liver must look like a shrivelled up prune !!

And thinking about it - the battle starts in my head - the voices, negotiating with meself - reasoning and debating. For a relatively intelligent woman I do some pretty stupid shit !!!

I was thinking about this again today Questy - about not being able to control.

I was thinking that whenever I see a bottle of wine, like in friggintesco's say, or pints upon the bar top, then I don't think about how nice one drink would be, I think how nice it would be to get drunk.

That's the difference. No matter how wine, say, is marketed - a fine glass of rioja with dinner, or how they design the label to attract the buyer - what I associate whenever I see a bottle is the feeling I get having drunk at least the entire bottle.

I do not associate drinking with a drink. I associate it with getting drunk. Even "opening nights" or a single after-work drink, is not A DRINK, but an aperitif to drinking more later on.

[RunningCourage]

ARMY THREAD 23/01/2013

JackieClaire;1449193 wrote: ******sigh***** OK then.

I've actually got a packet of Dairy Milk Chocos. Nom nom nom.

You're just feeding my guilty pleasures and desires now. Wicked wiman :H :h

[anon]

ARMY THREAD 23/01/2013

Just had a mars bar!

[anon]

ARMY THREAD 23/01/2013

RunningCourage;1449194 wrote: I was thinking about this again today Questy - about not being able to control.

I was thinking that whenever I see a bottle of wine, like in friggintesco's say, or pints upon the bar top, then I don't think about how nice one drink would be, I think how nice it would be to get drunk.

That's the difference. No matter how wine, say, is marketed - a fine glass of rioja with dinner, or how they design the label to attract the buyer - what I associate whenever I see a bottle is the feeling I get having drunk at least the entire bottle.

I do not associate drinking with a drink. I associate it with getting drunk. Even "opening nights" or a single after-work drink, is not A DRINK, but an aperitif to drinking more later on.

Exactly

[JackieClaire]

ARMY THREAD 23/01/2013

I do not associate drinking with a drink. I associate it with getting drunk. Even "opening nights" or a single after-work drink, is not A DRINK, but an aperitif to drinking more later on.

.

Do you know I've been racking my brain to think of a time when I've had just one drink and I cannot think of any. Even in my abortive attempts at moderation it was always 2............then hours and days of agony 'til the next time I was 'allowed' to drink.

[Quest for the key]

ARMY THREAD 23/01/2013

JackieClaire;1449192 wrote: Aww Questy hun, sounds like you're necking it down like medicine.

I do :upset:

And RC - you're right - I don't even like the taste of al - I hate wine - it's like vinegar - it's the feeling of being drunk I'm seeking

And I feckin hate hangovers !!! In fact I can't call them hangovers cos half the time I'm still drunk !

Yet here I am all cosy warm with me family watching a movie and chatting with you guys and I'm happy, content, warm, and grateful I'm sober !!

Weird

Anyway, the fingers have been scoffed - I wonder if weve any ice cream ? :H

[Cinders]

ARMY THREAD 23/01/2013

I "graduated" from red wine to vodka because the vodka gave me the hit much faster.

[Cinders]

ARMY THREAD 23/01/2013

and...

I have been eating my way through this entire day. Grrr.

But, I am sober. :-)

[Quest for the key]

ARMY THREAD 23/01/2013

Cinders;1449233 wrote: I "graduated" from red wine to vodka because the vodka gave me the hit much faster.

I introduced vodka to save on calories - never understood you don't drink it like wine though :new: