i am doing great for me lately, I still drink, a little, probably more than i should (about 4-5 uk units a night + a couple of binges in a week) which for me is a massive improvement. I don't smoke pot anymore, giving up has improved my life about a hundred times over, I am so proud to not smoke that stuff anymore, it's made me happier and a thousand times more productive.
I'm in the middle of uni applications for art at 4 uk universities, I'm hoping somebody will take me. I am till with my partner, will be 7 years in april, we have set a date for our wedding in 2015 and I am looking forward to it very much. He has also cut down drastically on pot, and has his drinking under greater control than even mine, I am proud of him. I write more, I am taking my grade 6 bass exam this year and have made massive strides in my artwork, been featured in a few cool places and received my first commisions.
My family life remains hard, and I still hate my day job, but if i get a uni place I will finally move away from both in September. I have great treatment for my eczma, and can see an end to the trouble its given me, it brings me hope and I am glad of that.
Today I am 20 years old, I am still fighting my addiction but more succesfully than ever before. I miss it here sometimes, but have cut off all contact with people other than my family (who i still speak to out of ecessity, more than choice) and my fiance for personal reasons, I don't feel the need for contact with others anymore. I do not feel lonely, I like to be alone. But I felt it right to update those who may still care about me, and who i do stillc are about. This may be because I had a few tonight, but hey, its one battle. I'm winning the war.
With much love to all
Inchy
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