Army Thread 28th January 2013

[Zenstyle]

Army Thread 28th January 2013

Hiya Army brats!!!

Sorry for disappearing yesterday... I got unexpected visitors... had to entertain the buggers and didn't make it back to the p.c. before youz were off to yer beddy byes. Can you believe I haven't even unpacked? I have a day of unpacking, laundry and cleaning ahead of me... welcome friggin home!!!

I'd been planning on posting a few times while I was in "the joint" but we had our privileges taken away due to some unsavoury goings-on with a few of the inmates.... sorry... CLIENTS! ) While I was there, a girl and a guy had sex in the bathroom three times, another girl gave a guy a, err, bl*w job (same bathroom!), one guy smuggled roxys in and a couple of people relapsed on them, one of them snuck out of the residence to buy Red Bulls (energy drinks were banned) which resulted in the techs doing room checks 4-5 times a night while we were sleeping (aaargh!), another snuck out of AA meetings to go shopping for Red Bulls, and three of them did Whippets last Thursday night (huffing the nitrous oxide from Redi Whip cans) as a goodbye party to one girl that was leaving last Friday. Oh, here's a good one... a female client got mad at another client and pissed in her shampoo and body wash (that was quite a trick I reckon... the She Wee sprang to mind!). She also cleaned the bog with her toothbrush. Then she got pissed off at someone else, kicked a wall and broke her toe. FUN FUN FUN I tell ya!!! :H :new:

The sad thing is that the guy and girl that had sex in the bathroom hooked up when they both got out, went on a run with heroin, culminating in the guy overdosing and dying last Friday night. The girl OD'd also and is in hospital. :upset: The guy had done 70 days in the rehab... I guess his obsession was just that strong... (

I learned a lot of things while I was in there. I had now idea how rife drugs are these days... it's horrible what goes on. A lot of the girls sold themselves to get money for drugs, in fact one of the guys did the same thing, and they all robbed their friends and families blind. Just about every one of the addicts lived on the streets at some point. In the way of alkies there was only myself, two guys and my room mate... the rest were addicts. And the going age was 18-22 (hard drugs bring you down in a couple of years, unlike alcohol where you can go on for decades before you reach a crisis point (I'm a good example of that).

So I got a bit more than I bargained for. I'm glad I went, but I'm also glad to be home. If I had it to do over I would have gone to an "adult" rehab. I was clueless... didn't even realize I should have gone to detox first... lol

I'm starting IOP (intensive outpatient) this Wednesday... I'll go 3 times a week for 8 weeks. I'll probably have one session a week with a therapist at the same facility. And afterwards I go into After Care. (Looks like I'll have to change my ticket to Scotland yet once more to accommodate the 8 week IOP...)

The rehab programme was AA based (which I didn't expect) and we had to go to a meeting every night. They suggest you do 90 meetings in 90 days when you get out but I can't manage that, it's too much for moi... so I'll aim for 1-2 a week.

And that is pretty much where I'm at! I have the house to myself today and I'm glad to finally have some peace and quiet!

Okies... orf for a lewk at the boards via the coffee pot. I have become a caffeine fiend. And I started smoking again... rats! EVERYONE smoked... the therapists, clients, techs... everyone. I made it to Day 4 before I picked up a ciggy and bought a pack by the end of the first week. Anyway... I'll tackle a quit again in due course... buggerit!

Oh and we had to do pee tests! Twice a week. Talk about humiliation!!! I'll have to do them at IOP too... ugh...

[anon]

Army Thread 28th January 2013

Wow Zen that sounds real heavy duty.

How do you feel now?

[Zenstyle]

Army Thread 28th January 2013

Hiya Whizzy! :l:l:l

How do I feel? Well... I'm still "decompressing". Half of my head is still in the rehab... lol! I'm a bit shell shocked as I didn't expect to have so many young addicts to contend with and it was very sad hearing their stories, and I am gutted that the guy passed away... I really thought he had "got it"... he was like the rehab poster child while he was there.

I feel lucky because the majority of the clients have nothing to go home to... they've burned all their bridges, most of them. About 90% of them will go to half way houses and a lot of them have no support as they've alienated their families and friends.

I guess the biggest feeling I have is just sheer shock at the shit that goes on... I just had no idea. It seems to suck, being a young adult in this world...

[anon]

Army Thread 28th January 2013

Zenstyle;1452161 wrote: Hiya Whizzy! :l:l:l

How do I feel? Well... I'm still "decompressing". Half of my head is still in the rehab... lol! I'm a bit shell shocked as I didn't expect to have so many young addicts to contend with and it was very sad hearing their stories, and I am gutted that the guy passed away... I really thought he had "got it"... he was like the rehab poster child while he was there.

I feel lucky because the majority of the clients have nothing to go home to... they've burned all their bridges, most of them. About 90% of them will go to half way houses and a lot of them have no support as they've alienated their families and friends.

I guess the biggest feeling I have is just sheer shock at the shit that goes on... I just had no idea. It seems to suck, being a young adult in this world...

Maybe your"maturity" will have come in useful. Just be kind to yourself now and put Zen 1st:l

[littlepinkcat]

Army Thread 28th January 2013

Howdy guys, zenners i know its hard but try to focus on what the rehab done 4 u and how it helped u and where u go from here, many of my mates from when i lived in the theraputic community house for personality disorders r still really ill and not coping with their mental health it seems harsh but eventually i had to let them go as friendsn and focus on being well and surround myself with people who were well.


Ive came off my medication for a bit as the doctor wants to see if i can stabalise without it, well its been dead mad just wanted to cry all the time and eat and dead horny, lol, he said its all normal as my tablets supress sexual and food appatite and ive just wanted to cry all the time and ive had one major hallucination and a few mild ones, again he says its normal and he wants to see if my chemicals balance out on their own and if they dont then he knows that i have a permenant chemical unbalance, u see my tablest work for me really well but u cant get pregnant on them and u shouldnt be on them 4 life , so hes seeing if my body rebalamces, ive started on some hormone wellbeing tablets caus ehe reckons if he can balance my hormones and stress levels naturally through herbs, natural stuff, it should stop the stress and emotional upset and if the stress is down then the psychosis should stop, we will see, lol. i want me tablets back, lol, but he says stick with it as if i can do it naturally its better 4 me he says

[Zenstyle]

Army Thread 28th January 2013

Hiya Pinky! :l:l:l

You and Whizzy are entirely right... I need to take the good parts of rehab and concentrate on building upon that. I did learn a lot and I think the IOP is going to be really useful. It's more of a self improvement programme and it deals with all sorts of things in addition to addiction... Empowerment, grief & loss, mood disorders, spirituality, self-esteem, self-discovery, relationships etc. It sounds like just the ticket!

Sounds like your medication is tough to come off. I think the holistic approach is a great idea. Hopefully it will all settle down soon... xx

[littlepinkcat]

Army Thread 28th January 2013

aye it should settle down with a bit luck

[Zenstyle]

Army Thread 28th January 2013

littlepinkcat;1452181 wrote: aye it should settle down with a bit luck

What herbs and supplements do they have you on?

[tiptronic_ct]

Army Thread 28th January 2013

Good to have you back, Zennie :l:l:l

:hallo: Army. The whole bloody Cape Peninsula seems to be on fire. The sky is orange and the sun just a reddish disc in the sky. The one freeway out of CT has been closed completely, there is an uncontrolled fire heading for a slum and one of the mountains fairly close to us has been engulfed by flames. The fire we had in the reserve last night was tiny by comparison. More firefighters are being brought in from other areas. If only this fucking wind would stop blowing.

Backinabit - need to drop the youngest cub someplace.

[Anjicia]

Army Thread 28th January 2013

Hi and welcome back Zennie:l. That place sounded a bit mad to say the least but as the others said take what you learned. It sounded kind of depressing too but you're home and you did the 28 days. The follow up treatment sounds really good. I hope your imbalence settles down also Pinky i suffer wit depression and get good and bad days but nothing too servere. Stormy here with heavy wind and rain.

[Zenstyle]

Army Thread 28th January 2013

Jingos Tipps... be safe. :l:l:l

I Googled and saw photos of your town and the mountain on fire. I hope they get it under control...

[Zenstyle]

Army Thread 28th January 2013

Hiya Foxy! You snuck in there while I was texting! ) :l

Yeah... the IOP programme sounds great. I'm just going over the syllabus and it has a load more stuff that I didn't see... it looks well worthwhile.

How are things with yourself?

[RunningCourage]

Army Thread 28th January 2013

Zen! Good to hear from you at long last... Your time in rehab sounds, well, bloody intensive... So mind mrsa's wurds - put Zen first.

Um... can we have a mess-up of a party in the Barrack's mess hall for Zen's return. I dunno, like a food fight or summit?

How's the cats by the way?

Just back in from posh skool... wanting warmth and peace and get a thumping beats from upstairs as flatmate (dear love him) playing muzak. Grrr.

Looking forward to hearing more from ya Zen :l

[Zenstyle]

Army Thread 28th January 2013

Hiya Arsey!!!

A food fight sounds like a stellar plan... haven't had one of those in a while!

The cats are doing fine, tanks for arskin! Hamish's gingivitis seems to be held at bay with the holistic meds... I'll need to take him in for a once over from the vet to be on the safe side. (Thank fook I didn't pull his teeth like they said...)

Text your flat mate with a music request... Seeing as he's playing it loud enough for all and sundry to hear, might as well listen to summat good...

I had the pleasure of checking my bank account for the first time in over a month. Ummmmm...... EEEEEEK!!!!!! I need a fag... STAT!!!

[satz123]

Army Thread 28th January 2013

WELCOME BACK ZENNEROONEY :linkele:
YOU WERE MISSED BIG-TIME !!!!