I watched a programme last week on people who have lost partners (mainly in their early 30's). It was quite sad and covered a range from acident/terminal illness/suicide etc. One of the things that struck me was all these nice happy memories these people had of their partners.
It got me thinking - me & BF will have been together 7 years this Autumn & for the most part of that I have drunk - ok sometimes.....other times appaling. I have very few nice memories should anything awful (god forbid) happen to BF - hardly any social outings as he would watch how much I drank lest I should not embarrass myself in public - much easier to stay in & therfore be able to guzzle an "extra" glass of 4 when he was in the toilet or upstairs. Chritmases had started to pass in an alcoholic blur - sometimes ruining other peoples in the process.
Spoilt birthdays as I necked too much before we left the house & was well gone by the time we got to the restaurant. Lavish meals I promised to cook & then fell asleep before being able to do so.....poor BF has had to improvise from the fridge on many Saturday evenings I had promised him nice nosh.
I suppose my point is.....and I'm not being morbid thinking he will pop off.......is that I am proposing to devote my spare time I now feel I have to doing more with BF, my friends & family. I have the best part of 6 years to catch up on & I WANT to have nice memories to keep.
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It got me thinking - me & BF will have been together 7 years this Autumn & for the most part of that I have drunk - ok sometimes.....other times appaling. I have very few nice memories should anything awful (god forbid) happen to BF - hardly any social outings as he would watch how much I drank lest I should not embarrass myself in public - much easier to stay in & therfore be able to guzzle an "extra" glass of 4 when he was in the toilet or upstairs. Chritmases had started to pass in an alcoholic blur - sometimes ruining other peoples in the process.
Spoilt birthdays as I necked too much before we left the house & was well gone by the time we got to the restaurant. Lavish meals I promised to cook & then fell asleep before being able to do so.....poor BF has had to improvise from the fridge on many Saturday evenings I had promised him nice nosh.
I suppose my point is.....and I'm not being morbid thinking he will pop off.......is that I am proposing to devote my spare time I now feel I have to doing more with BF, my friends & family. I have the best part of 6 years to catch up on & I WANT to have nice memories to keep.
xx
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