February Undies and Friends
Sorry will give a bit more insight to the last month.
I LOVE my job. It doesn't feel so much like work, more like a bit of fun. I don't like the 50 hours a week I'm gone. Then coming home and taking Leon in my arms for the remainder of the day. My shifts also can range from a 6:30am start shift or a 12:30am finish when I start at 4pm. Too much at times, but I'm hanging in there.
Leon is crawling around, but really he is ready to take off running. He is pulling himself up and pushing himself on his walker. He's a bundle of giggles and joy.
Part of the reason I have not had time to log in is because Hubs back is quite bad and I am having to be full time maid, cook, mom, and job holder, as well as be mental support for hubs negative attitude due to his lack of capability to do everyday things because of his back.
I have not had any AL even though I haven't checked in. I have been doing a lot reflecting though. My boss has just quit drinking. She was on the downward spiral and she wanted life changes. I see more and more people who don't drink, for a variety of reasons. Most of hubs friends don't drink, or will have one on the special occasion drink. My best friend here, and her husband are both in AA and don't drink.
The other night I was skyping with my parents and they started to pick at each other. My dad has had some health scares lately, but will only mildly address them. My mom deals with the emotional baggage of his health scares and his refusal to take care of himself and overwork himself. Anyways, they had quite a few drinks and then were trying to talk about "their issues" (all 34 years of them.) I ended up doing the marriage counselor role and encouraged them to work things out the next day when they were sober and level headed. When we hung up I realized that alcohol has been involved in many of the issues between my parents in the last few decades. I wondered what kind of relationship they would have if alcohol didn't play a part in the poor communication, the ugly fights that happen over time, and the funny (not so much) name calling and rude comments during family time after a few to many. It reaffirmed for me that I don't want to have those types of issues in my marriage, and that since I've quit drinking I have a much better relationship with my husband. I also find in my reflection that AL in some ways will always seem romantic, familiar, and inviting, but the reality is none of those things once I've had it. Even now, I find I am still changing my attitude about drinking. Changing years of thinking and doing to become more positive. Not just with drinking, but with eating, with thinking about the future, just more positive in general. I appreciate all of you being here, and being part of my journey. Part of my life saver. Lots of love to you all. Hug your loved ones tight, and your pets, chase cats and howl at the moon.
Haps, good on yea with the yoga.
Gster :h
Sorry will give a bit more insight to the last month.
I LOVE my job. It doesn't feel so much like work, more like a bit of fun. I don't like the 50 hours a week I'm gone. Then coming home and taking Leon in my arms for the remainder of the day. My shifts also can range from a 6:30am start shift or a 12:30am finish when I start at 4pm. Too much at times, but I'm hanging in there.
Leon is crawling around, but really he is ready to take off running. He is pulling himself up and pushing himself on his walker. He's a bundle of giggles and joy.
Part of the reason I have not had time to log in is because Hubs back is quite bad and I am having to be full time maid, cook, mom, and job holder, as well as be mental support for hubs negative attitude due to his lack of capability to do everyday things because of his back.
I have not had any AL even though I haven't checked in. I have been doing a lot reflecting though. My boss has just quit drinking. She was on the downward spiral and she wanted life changes. I see more and more people who don't drink, for a variety of reasons. Most of hubs friends don't drink, or will have one on the special occasion drink. My best friend here, and her husband are both in AA and don't drink.
The other night I was skyping with my parents and they started to pick at each other. My dad has had some health scares lately, but will only mildly address them. My mom deals with the emotional baggage of his health scares and his refusal to take care of himself and overwork himself. Anyways, they had quite a few drinks and then were trying to talk about "their issues" (all 34 years of them.) I ended up doing the marriage counselor role and encouraged them to work things out the next day when they were sober and level headed. When we hung up I realized that alcohol has been involved in many of the issues between my parents in the last few decades. I wondered what kind of relationship they would have if alcohol didn't play a part in the poor communication, the ugly fights that happen over time, and the funny (not so much) name calling and rude comments during family time after a few to many. It reaffirmed for me that I don't want to have those types of issues in my marriage, and that since I've quit drinking I have a much better relationship with my husband. I also find in my reflection that AL in some ways will always seem romantic, familiar, and inviting, but the reality is none of those things once I've had it. Even now, I find I am still changing my attitude about drinking. Changing years of thinking and doing to become more positive. Not just with drinking, but with eating, with thinking about the future, just more positive in general. I appreciate all of you being here, and being part of my journey. Part of my life saver. Lots of love to you all. Hug your loved ones tight, and your pets, chase cats and howl at the moon.
Haps, good on yea with the yoga.
Gster :h
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