Army Thread 11th February

[JackieClaire]

Army Thread 11th February

Geez Zennifer, you pop up at the most unlikely time.
Yep over analysing or over thinking has done my head in a few times. My luvverly counsellor Tim used to pull me up on it all the time. I could over think a trip into town to the point I'd end up under the duvet for two days.

Just go with the flow................oommmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm (that was supposed to be a meditating sound)

[Zenstyle]

Army Thread 11th February

Jacks... hang tight... and tell Mr JC good luck and all will be well. I have a mate who had it done and he's now golfing like nobody's business. xxx

[Zenstyle]

Army Thread 11th February

JackieClaire;1460733 wrote: Geez Zennifer, you pop up at the most unlikely time.

Yeah... I do, don't I? I have a knack! lol

[JackieClaire]

Army Thread 11th February

Ooh I get to go and get told how to look after a post-op hip replacement person. Should I mention he's 6'4" and 17stone and I just about come up to his knees.

[Zenstyle]

Army Thread 11th February

mollyka;1460734 wrote: Ah sweetheart - stop being daft, and stop trying to be brave. It is what it is, and it's fucking scary - your life has been turned on it's head really. the giving up the grog is only the tip of the iceberg - and mebbe you're a little like Arsey in that you both think TOO much - try and go with the flow, don't predict how you're gonna feel before something happens, don't worry about things you can't change - you sound overwhelmed - and I remember feeling like that too. I bawled my eyes out to Joe the Wed before I came home from Aiseiri - it was just all too much - but just that day - the next day I felt better cos I HAD 'put it out there' with him and explained how I felt - it's essential that you just pour it out to someone - and where better than here???
Get a bit of sleep - you'll feel better for that alone --- and don't forget - we do love you and care for you --- that's important - really:l

You have me in tears now.... really. Thank you Mary. I love you hon. I read your PM and I'll get back on it... although there's maybe no need now. I've just decided to let it all go and chill...

[Zenstyle]

Army Thread 11th February

JackieClaire;1460740 wrote: Ooh I get to go and get told how to look after a post-op hip replacement person. Should I mention he's 6'4" and 17stone and I just about come up to his knees.

Make sure they have him on good meds! He'll be fine staying in bed then.... :H

[JackieClaire]

Army Thread 11th February

Zenstyle;1460747 wrote: Make sure they have him on good meds! He'll be fine staying in bed then.... :H

He's not allowed to stay in bed, cos of blood clots or sumfing. He has to walk a lot.

Now I've got visions of me shouting 'WALKIES' and getting this result.

[Zenstyle]

Army Thread 11th February

RunningCourage;1460729 wrote: Breath! Abso-fecking-lootely. And it's hard learning to live in ones own skin. I'm still learning. Indeed I'm a total fecking newbie to it :H

Lovely to see you Zennifer. :hallo:

I'm on the bus behind again! I don't remember the thread moving this feckin fast. I swear I'm a sloooowwwwwwww sober person!

Arsey... you nailed it. I'm new to it too. And... although it's overwhelming, it is also exciting. A new lease on life really. But I need to just breathe...............

It's only taken me my whole life to get here...

[Zenstyle]

Army Thread 11th February

JackieClaire;1460748 wrote: He's not allowed to stay in bed, cos of blood clots or sumfing. He has to walk a lot.

Now I've got visions of me shouting 'WALKIES' and getting this result.

:H:H:H

OMG.... I have visions and all...

Shall I start calling him and telling him it's time for his exercise? It will improve his hand to phone co-ordination (as he throws it across the room...)

[sweetpea29]

Army Thread 11th February

Zenstyle;1460726 wrote: .....Good morning...

I don't know what's WRONG with me. I don't feel good doing THIS... I don't feel good doing THAT... Quite frankly I'm behaving like a spoilt brat.

Fucking harrumph.

I think I've over-analysed myself and everything. Yep, its a new experience... I've never put myself in this position where I'm *out there* with all my secrets for the world to see... and I have a lot of new people in my life that are holding me accountable... and I honestly feel like shutting the phone off and telling everyone to feck off and leave me alone... but I won't. Because this is growth and I will deal with it.

So, anyway, I'm going to throttle back and take it as it needs to be done... one feckin step at a time... and stop thinking so much.

Sorry about the ridiculousness... time to learn to live in my own skin. I've gotten overwhelmed and, really, there is no need. I DO control my life and I need to maybe make less changes and not so many all at once.

OK... normal transmission resumed. Sorry to have been an idiot. If I wasn't going back to bed I'd tell yiz a joke! Really. Feckin nonsense the lot of it. One has to have time to BREATHE in between the self-improvement assault!

Hiya Zen

Know im new here and all that but im glad to see ya back. Im another trying to learn how to happy livin in me own skin

[sweetpea29]

Army Thread 11th February

Molls- how'd you get on with the doc?

[Zenstyle]

Army Thread 11th February

sweetpea29;1460752 wrote: Hiya Zen

Know im new here and all that but im glad to see ya back. Im another trying to learn how to happy livin in me own skin

I've decided that it's an adventure! Seriously, I was all freaked out and that is pretty daft, given that I am getting what I wanted and worked towards. LMAO! So... I'll be happy to learn with you... me and a couple of other inmates from the pen... cos the rest have frikken relapsed already. Mind boggling!

[Zenstyle]

Army Thread 11th February

Zenstyle;1460755 wrote: I've decided that it's an adventure! Seriously, I was all freaked out and that is pretty daft, given that I am getting what I wanted and worked towards. LMAO! So... I'll be happy to learn with you... me and a couple of other inmates from the pen... cos the rest have frikken relapsed already. Mind boggling!

I've kept in touch with most of the people I went to rehab with and already we're down to a few. One overdosed and died, one overdosed and is back in rehab, and the ones that have fallen off the face of the earth are probably in a bad way. We have... to count... myself, my first room mate, my second room mate, the stand up comedian that I throb greatly and a young 'un... the rest are unaccounted for. Not a great rate of return by anybody's standards...

[Zenstyle]

Army Thread 11th February

OK... the Pope is obviously knackered and so am I. It's all over the telly here. I hope he goes on a good holiday and gets waited on hand and foot...

Me out! I can just about make it back to bed before the rest of the house gets up!

[sweetpea29]

Army Thread 11th February

Zenstyle;1460755 wrote: I've decided that it's an adventure! Seriously, I was all freaked out and that is pretty daft, given that I am getting what I wanted and worked towards. LMAO! So... I'll be happy to learn with you... me and a couple of other inmates from the pen... cos the rest have frikken relapsed already. Mind boggling!

No, i can understand the being freaked out. Dunno bout you but i need to learn a totally new way of thinking about myself. Why i feel need to please others above meself, why im never as good as others, why i have to punish meself by pouring poison down me throat, why cant i just be content with who, what and where i am? Blah, blah.........

Glad to have a fellow learner, this will be fun