The Kradle Will Not Fall...

[BHOG]

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I can feel her pain with the neck, those types of injuries are hard to suffer through.
And the one that was throwing up at school, did you get a rescue squad over there?
I can fly in on my helicopter, if the rain lets up enough to get off the ground!

[Kradle123]

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BHOG;1486596 wrote: ?The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, the education, the money, than circumstances, than failure, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill. It will make or break a company... a church... a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past... we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% of how I react to it. And so it is with you... we are in charge of our Attitudes.?-Charles Swindoll

Sorry, Mr. B. I hijacked your encouraging words. Wanted to keep them close.

Everyone still sleeping ....long night...yawn!

[BHOG]

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Kradle-
How are your youngsters today?
And don't apologize! I am pleased you find my words useful.

[Kradle123]

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Everybody still home today but at least we're pretty settled down...Madison's a bit more mobile and Sedona isn't throwing up so yahoo! They are all complaining about my nursing care now so they must be on the mend! :H

[mama bear]

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hope your babies get well soon Kradle

[K9Lover]

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Well if they are picking on you then they are fine! LOL

I hope everyone is in tip-top shape real soon :h

[Kradle123]

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Hi everyone:

Thanks for the well wishes. Mama, so nice to see you. Always meant to ask you what your Cleopatra party was like? You Loook Mahvalous!!

Well, the kids are better. Sedona is still upstairs bundled...poor baby. Hard day. Hard days. I think I should be lighter but I really am not. My energy is lagging. Geez I sound fricken Old talking about my health! But the difference unfortunately is my indifference. I know I have low pressure and arythmia; no surprise there. Hubs wants me to see a Dr. I don't want to. Why don't I want to?
Maybe I'm depressed. I should go see Dr. G. I would see him. I have so many questions, mostly about why the woman I am now sober with have disappeared, evaporated from my life. And I don't think it was simply the old "Alcohol was all we had in common'. That is nonsense.

L-5 was dear friend for so long. We were like an old married couple. Maybe that isn't that healthy when you are married. Especially when you are married to someone...you're not that compatible with...

Kristin..Geez. We had the same family compositions. Our twins are best friends with her twins....It's just...unimaginable. This loss. Strange thing is I believe were I still drinking we would have still drifted away... Her to the Jehovas and L-5 to...well I guess just inevitable

I fucking hate that we are all on the same basic journey but taking the perverbial plane, train and automobile seperately...maybe we will all meet up down the road at some out of the way scenic turnout.... I hope so.

Still, the good news is I have MWO and though I told them both about this magic portal...no one seemed interested. L choose AA and Kristin choose the cult...:durn:uch::eeks::no:

I am mad, sad, hurt and incedulous...Thank Heavens for these smileys...

[BHOG]

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Kradle, there is a place I go to in the summer, it is called (for real) Julie Andrews Meadow. HIgh mountian meadow, and someone has planted thousands of tulips in the meadow. Other have build rock benches. It is quiet and peaceful, you can sit , or walk, and think, or talk.
If you can picture that in your mind, go there, breathe deep, and let peace come to you.

[Kradle123]

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Hi Bhog, just saw your post I've been so buried here.

Well, I poked a hole in my April Abstinence month last night. :yuk: nothing huge but still....

Again, events just got way overwhelming and I'm sorry to say that menopause is coming on Full throttle so I am all over the emtional map.

Mr. kradle and I fighting a lot and I know it's mainly coming from my end. I'm not withstanding the daily stresses well and I lash out at him...that's not a good plan I know. The girls performed last night and it just sucked- not their performance but everything that lead up to it. Madison was just a ....well, she was a complete pint sized bitch is what she was. Wouldn't do ANYTHING I was telling her to do, fighting with Sedona over stupid stipuff like her shoes or her hair tie. At one point she refused to perform, wouldn't get out of the car, I'm trying to get poor Sedona into the school where the Showcase thingy was so she could change. I've come early to get them all ready so I'm by myself- hubs at home getting Matt together and showering, blah blah.

Then comes this phone call that hubs is on his way to get Madison because she has called him and asked him to come get her!!!!! She's locked herself in the car with my phone while I am dealing with Sedona and called him!!!:shocked: And he comes to get her!! What the hell is that? I am talking to him saying, "why would you come all the way down here to get her, not showered or anything...when you were coming down anyway in about an hour?? What on panet earth are you thinking and why are you letting a bratty 11 year old manipulate you like a marionette ??

So now HE is refusing to come to the show and screaming at me that he's tired of all ths crap and he wants the kids pulled from every class and no more performing and blah blah blah..... and I am just wandering through the dressing rooms with a huge smile on my face saying, yes Dear and no Dear and Sedona wants you to see her, Dear and I finally got Madison calmed down so she has agreed to perform, Dear....

I should have won a fucking academy award....:upset:

Well, he came finally and sat through the whole thing like a big fat sour puss and I'm just floating around like Mary Frickin Poppins complimenting everyone and taking pictures ...it was almost an out of body experience.

Then we get home and I am just furious at Madion and at Mr. Kradle but I do not want to continue this crappy evening so...well, you all know the rest....

I thought about logging; I did I did I did. But I didn't know what to say, I didn't know how to articulate any of what I was feeling/thinking and I think I really needed a live person last night.
But as we all know, my live operators are no longer standing by and I am quite alone now on this stage of the journey. I probably should have just sat my butt down and chanted but it is so freakin hard to calm myself down, to even myself out when all is swirling around and the people in my immediate orbit are simply being fuel for my f%#%uped inner fire.

So today is another, Ms Scarlett and I'm just going to stay close to home and hearth.. I will definitely be adding another sticker to my calendar. I am determined to make the rest of the month lousy with stickers...as my mom used to say.

Hugs and heart to everyone. Am envisioning your Special Mountain Top and meadow Mr. B... I feel better all ready,

:l:h

[Kradle123]

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Doing much better tonight. nary a thought about AL and have my sticker already posted. The girls and we had our come to Jesus meeting this afternoon so we will see.

My next hurdle is the dreaded Science project!! In bed with the twins Watching Despicable Me...the ultimate Light Bulb moment.

:bedtime:

[BHOG]

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Kradle-
I know when Mrs. B hit menopause, it was a major effect; sometimes like a switch would throw with no explanation.
She did discuss this with a doctor, and found some meds that helped her. She did not have to stay on them long term.
This might be an alternative for you; I would think that coupling menopause with stopping AL could be a pretty major mental shock.
Just a thought.
Science project..brings back a fond memory. My son and I build a hovercraft one year.

[Tipplerette]

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With all that crap happening, you came through, yet again without drinking. I think your starting this thread was great for your accountability. When I come on here this place is so messed up with impersonations, trolling, in-fighting, fake posts, etc. I am not giving up on it though. Your thread and a few others still are addressing the real issues and still fighting the good fight.

Take care, keep posting.

xox

[Kradle123]

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Hi Tipp, thanks for checking in. It is getting a little strange here but the outside world throws us some curves too!! :H

I wanted to point out that when I said I poked a hole in my abstenance month, I did drink on Saturday... I am determined to stay honest here in my journey because let's face it...what's the point if I don't??? Tough as it is.

But if someone can read it and find some help or comfort there than my journey is doubly worth it.

I see more and more I need better coping skills with the overwhelming details which can trip me up....

Feel good this morning. Off to School and Doggy runs...

Peaceful & Productive AF day everyone.

:l

[K9Lover]

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Hi Kradle!!

Big :l to you! I'm proud of you for picking yourself right up and starting over. Now let's fill up the rest of the month with stickers ok?

I thought Dispicable Me was one of the funniest movies ever....LOL.

The other day I was feeling a bit down and so me and my daughter watched A Bugs Life and we both felt better!

Hang in there my friend!

K9

[Kradle123]

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well, still here. Still wondering why though it's still rather tough not to drink. Lots of stresses I knwo but others here are going through far worse and they seem (at least to me) to be holding up rather well.

Uggg...piggy tail before basket ball....

:l