The Kradle Will Not Fall...

[pixie]

The Kradle Will Not Fall...

Kradle, I just wanted to drop in and say hi. I can relate to the feeling of not being good at relationships, it's a lonely feeling when everyone around you seems to be so much better at making friends. I think that can be a false perception when you're feeling down; many relationships are superficial but when you're looking in from the outside you can't see that. Things will change if you give it time and open yourself to opportunities. I know that can be hard when depressed, and it becomes a vicious circle of feeling down, retreating and isolating. Be patient, but also talk to someone if the depression is not lifting, or gets worse.

Also remember you always have everyone here at MWO for company. Take care.

[Unwasted]

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Kradle, I read addiction books nonstop. I always have one on my Kindle. For some reason, I have to have constant reminders of just how bad alcohol truly is. I'm rereading Carolyn Knapp's Drinking: A Love Story, which is fantastic. She's a great writer, so you get the double treat of reading about someone's journey in overcoming addiction, which just happens to also be eloquently written.

xx,
UN :lilheart:

[K9Lover]

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Hi Kradle :l

Sorry you're feeling down...I've had the crappiest summer too. I guess I am still "blue" too...my family really tried to get me going this weekend, they invited me to a picnic on Saturday (I declined) and then to go to lunch after Church on Sunday (I declined, and didn't even go to church). I didn't realize I was so down at the time. I know it's easy for other people to say "Just snap out of it"....uh yeah, if it were only that easy. Anyway I just want you to know that you're not alone, and I really do understand. That book "Unwasted" is a good one...you'll like it.
Hang in there my friend! :h
K9

[Kradle123]

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Hi K9. I just saw your positive been avoiding my own thread somewhat as I am falling as of late...and just because I'm not at old levels and craziness doesn't mean I should be falling....thank you for sharing your social struggle. I'm so there myself. I went to the most wonderful wedding yesterday and the girls sang and te wether was spectacular and I met some lovely fun people and I watched to 2 people get completely trashed and new I NEVER wanted to be in that 'same' place ever again....

But I couldn't embrace the day: felt so sad and separate ...the girls had a blast and I was happy that they got to see real love and respect and romance all coming together for these 2 people. Very nice example for them.

Tonight, Madison is ?ber pissed at me. Screaming at the top of her lungs that she hates me!!
I shouldn't have told her she couldn't eat ice cream and toast before dinner ...I swear that was the trigger...:upset:

Love to you K9. Suggle with your puppies - the suggle bugs...I'd snuggle with Madison but she'd bite my head off!

[JackDanielsGirl]

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Oh Kradle,
I understand to some degree. Are you taking any Antidepression meds? they do help. Teenagers and kids in general are so mean sometimes and do not understand how their words hurt. Having one of my own (15, son) is hard enough. I have found that when he gets in trouble he always reverts to comments about my drinking. I think until we are sober for a long time they will always throw that up in our face. Not to long ago when he got caught stealing script pain meds from his grandfather he told me that I did not love him, due to my drinking, because if I did love him I would not do it.

People do not understand our disease, yes I believe it is a disease. Can we control it? yes with the proper help like this website, counsel, and close friends that have and are in the same situation.

Try to find something YOU find joy in doing that does not involve AL. Good friends, a movie, TV show, gardening, taking a walk, or just making a list of things we are blessed with.

You are such an inspiration to many of us here. Well wishes and strength m friend.
JDG

[K9Lover]

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Oh Kradle...teens are hard, even in the BEST of circumstances. Mine has more ups and downs than a rollercoaster and I'm never sure where I stand with her. Sometimes we're joking around and other times she closes the door and says "I want to be alone!"...oy!.. the hormones...I keep telling myself it WILL get easier...then again, I still feel that way myself sometimes, so who knows. Just hang in there and do the best you can!

It's nice to see you being so positive about the wedding. My daughter is right, I am SUPER bitter I guess...I'd be sitting there mumbling "They'll be divorced in 5 years"...I really need to work on that...I don't want my daughter to think that romance/marriage/love is a lost cause! :H

I hope you're doing better today dear friend. :h

[Kradle123]

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[QUOTE=K9Lover;1552051I'd be sitting there mumbling They'll be divorced in 5 years:H
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That had me rolling, K9 ! :H

I might have thought that as well but something about those 2 people.... Really not something you come across everyday.

With all the loneliness I am now living with, oddly enough instead of their nuptials making me jealous , it made me profoundly happy that that sort of connection can still exist...I think having the twins there, so enthralled and happy for her and her new husband..I mean that genuine joy you can find in a child's face... I believe that alone made all the difference for me...:l

I'll post a picture when I get on the desktop.

Doing better today. Last night was hard hard hard....

Wanted to write in my journal here that I had given up. I wasn't going to do this anymore.
Saw my ex best friend last night and her kids at the schools open house and it just tipped me over some invisible edge...

I can't give it anymore air time or I'll find myself as upset as I was last night so suffice I am going to stay put here, read and post and make chocolate chip cookies for when everyone gets home from their first day of school... god I feel like Stepford Wife....:wow:

[Tipplerette]

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Just dropping in to say hello and hope your September rolls out to be 100% better than the sum of all the summer months combined, Kradle. You will make more friends. A few of us share the same challenge and it is awful when we need to discuss something and realize we have no one to call. :-(

Hang in there ... you are in the midst of raising very active, involved kids and it's a wonder you find time to post here let alone do everything else you need to do. Friends will come... especially with your personality.

xoxo

[Kradle123]

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Well...I am sorry to report my people that the kradle did indeed fall last night...very hard too...no weirdness or crazy stuff, just caved to the WTF moment I was trying to avoid these last few days...Seeing the girls with their old friends, hugging and dancing around...so happy to be together...it was just to much...I sought oblivion...I got just sick sick sick instead.

One thing was different though..I told my husband what was happening and he was very supportive. I was actually taken aback by that. I thought he'd be all over me like a cheap suit but he was very...nice...didn't say too much but as I was reading here today, I found a post which speculated our husbands silences regarding our journey , not as disinterest but a respect for our privacy....that certainly put a spin on this for me. A welcome spin.

So I juiced, slept,. Juiced, worked and then bought an A&W burger...but no AL....Just right back at it. Come hell or high water, I'm not leaving this without a fight...I've been robbed enough....

Tipp, I've been meaning to call you ..I hate this time difference. So complicated for my discombobulated brain. :l

Thanks for your kind, loving words. And you're right, I am going to start to work on what I am now calling REPLACEMENT THERAPY....new people, new goals, new interests and new memories...
Love you all, :l:h

[NoraC]

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I love you Kradle!!! :h:h

[Tipplerette]

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Ain't she the best ?? Love her lots too xox... Kradle you should be a published writer and with our struggles and the way you are able to articulate them you could really make a difference ... REALLY make a difference. Think about it.

[K9Lover]

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Big Hugs to you Kradle! :l :h :l :h :l

[Kradle123]

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I'm thinking of going over to Kristin's this week....

Sedona & Madison talk about their old Friends the twins and how Gabby tells Sedona that now Kristin tells her she doesn't like them anymore...this is so cruel...the sober Kristen can not be this awful crazy religious zelot...I refuse to believe it...she was my best friend...so loving and generous...why can't let go of this?? I don't have a clue what I would say. Maybe ask her why our sobers selves aren't supporting our sober selves but ripping them and our kids apart...

WHAT THE %^*#{]%^****+# IS GOING ON :

[NoraC]

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Oh Kradle - that is just so wrong....so very wrong. I am sorry that it is your daughters being hurt. Plus YOU!!! It's just such a betrayal.
Big hugs friend......big hugs.....:l:l:l

[K9Lover]

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I'm wondering what's "really" going on with her new found religion. A true Christian or God-Fearing person would be a bit more kind, don't you think? Maybe she's not as religious as she'd like you to believe, and her actions are a defense mechanism. I don't know...I just think it's sad. People should be nicer to each other, no matter what they do or don't believe.

Just my 3 cents for the day. LOL