The Kradle Will Not Fall...

[Queenbug]

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:h been reading your thread kradle...thinking of you x

[Kradle123]

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Super tough to post tonight...Mathieu leaves tomorrow for Arivaca for ten months. He has no idea....

Been packing him from their list...marking his socks...washing his new towels so they are soft...got him new boots...
Feel hypnotized by the weight of it all. My guy...my son...my baby in the corn...

Had one drink tonight. But Really, I Dont want to drink. Don't want to miss his last night.
I don't know what I'd do without all of you...without MWO. :l I simply can't express my deep gratitude :l

Taking aspirin...watching Netflix ...hugging Mathieu when he lets me...last load of laundry in the washer.
I want him to have the therapeutic pillow. Those horses have to play hell on the neck.

Love you all. Will be back when I can.
:h

[NoraC]

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I love you friend. :l What time do they leave tomorrow. You have my number. If you need to talk, I'm here for you. :l

[Queenbug]

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Thinking of you kradle...:h x

[FlyAway]

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Kradle my heart aches for you today. Such a tough thing to do, but it was done out of love. :l

[Kradle123]

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Well, Daddy and Mathieu have left for the ferry...and then the airport. Am regrouping this morning so I can tell the girls what's really going on.

Thank you Queenie, Glass, Glass, Nora.
Just going to stay quiet today.

Lots and lots of work ahead for the next ten months.
Am going to make them AF.
:h

[sunshinedaisies]

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Kradle - my heart goes out to you, and I am pretty sure I know how awful you are feeling - but you know in your heart that it is right for Matt and the rest of your family. Sending you lots of strength and loving healing prayers ..... thinking of you SO much today. Love you and hang in there - how did the girls take it?

Hugs, Sun XXX

[Kradle123]

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Hi Sun... :l

You might want to pop over the #%}#%+*% thread to see how telling the Girls went...
:upset: holy mother of god...
I need to not think about it right now...
I think I'm coming down with something .

Am staying close to MWO today- yes definately getting sick....

[NoraC]

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Kradle - I am so sorry. I just did not even imagine that part of it. Stay close.....we are here for you. :l:h:l

[Lizann]

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Kradle, so sorry you were blindsided by the girls reaction. They'll calm down,it was a shock for them. You did good not to lie to them. You're doing this and you're handling it like the strong mommy that you are, keep us close ok.

[mama bear]

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Kradle...I am here
if you need my number, let me know. I have been so self absorbed by father in law, but I have not forgotten about you.
You are doing a very brave and loving thing.

[Kradle123]

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Thank you Liz, Thanks Mama...yes, that was pretty awful yesterday- no denying that...:egad:

The good news is that Richard (hubs) called and told me that all things considered, Mathieu did pretty well. He didn't become violent or try to run- 2 possibilities I was completely dreading. Instead, he cried a lot and spoke our betraying him but after some time Mathieu seemed to have a faint glimmer that he had possibly brought this on himself.....so a gleam of hope there.
Hubs was very impressed with Arivaca...Everyone was completely prepared for Mathieu- they even had 2 of the more seasoned young men come and talk with Matt and take him under their wings... By the end, Matt was asking questions, seeming to absorb the reality of this situation...

In truth, what happened yesterday was not the scenario I had looping through My head for the last 2 weeks...it was pretty much the opposite: it was the girls who became completely unglued and ran away from me...not Matt...how's that for a true WTF moment. :shocked:

I started to drink last night after the pressure was just rocking my world but you know I looked at it ...went back on MWO and re-read all your words of support and care ...PM's and Threads....and then just tossed it down the drain....THAT is NOT how I want to honor Mathieu...his struggle into young manhood...I simply refuse to spend the next ten months not fighting my hardest to create the best possible family we can have over here and drinking will not help that goal one wit. He will be working VERY hard these next months...we will be missing his birthday, his Christmas, new years...the girls birthday, mine and his Dads...and those sacrifices, those memories we can't have this year need to be worth it. They need not to be in vain...that would be the real insanity if I let that happen.

So sleeves up....shovels ready (because horses poop ALOT...) and let's get this show on the road.
:l
Love you all. :h

[paulywogg]

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Hugs to you kradle,stay strong were here for you

[FlyAway]

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Kradle123;1586826 wrote: Thank you Liz, Thanks Mama...yes, that was pretty awful yesterday- no denying that...:egad:

The good news is that Richard (hubs) called and told me that all things considered, Mathieu did pretty well. He didn't become violent or try to run- 2 possibilities I was completely dreading. Instead, he cried a lot and spoke our betraying him but after some time Mathieu seemed to have a faint glimmer that he had possibly brought this on himself.....so a gleam of hope there.
Hubs was very impressed with Arivaca...Everyone was completely prepared for Mathieu- they even had 2 of the more seasoned young men come and talk with Matt and take him under their wings... By the end, Matt was asking questions, seeming to absorb the reality of this situation...

In truth, what happened yesterday was not the scenario I had looping through My head for the last 2 weeks...it was pretty much the opposite: it was the girls who became completely unglued and ran away from me...not Matt...how's that for a true WTF moment. :shocked:

I started to drink last night after the pressure was just rocking my world but you know I looked at it ...went back on MWO and re-read all your words of support and care ...PM's and Threads....and then just tossed it down the drain....THAT is NOT how I want to honor Mathieu...his struggle into young manhood...I simply refuse to spend the next ten months not fighting my hardest to create the best possible family we can have over here and drinking will not help that goal one wit. He will be working VERY hard these next months...we will be missing his birthday, his Christmas, new years...the girls birthday, mine and his Dads...and those sacrifices, those memories we can't have this year need to be worth it. They need not to be in vain...that would be the real insanity if I let that happen.

So sleeves up....shovels ready (because horses poop ALOT...) and let's get this show on the road.
:l
Love you all. :h

This really sounds hopeful Kradle. :l

[sunshinedaisies]

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Kradle123;1586826 wrote:

I started to drink last night after the pressure was just rocking my world but you know I looked at it ...went back on MWO and re-read all your words of support and care ...PM's and Threads....and then just tossed it down the drain....THAT is NOT how I want to honor Mathieu...

Kradle - your post gave me goosebumps !!! WONDERFUL !! I am glad that things were not as bad as you had thought - yes, I too wondered if he might run - but I suppose they are used to all the sceariois - they sound really good.

I am hoping that the twins will eventually understand - they are very young really to know what is going on - but hopefully they will take note of this and watch themselves! The whole thing is just a shock for them - they need to try and underdstand it.

Much love and many hugs to you my friend,

love, Sun XXXXX