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[K9Lover]

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Hi Inchy!

I'm glad you got some sleep...I bet that helps a lot! I am also glad you had a serious talk with your fiance. So it sounds like you have a plan for Friday. Guess what...I'll be here checkin' on you! :l
Good luck, I know you can do this!

K9

[mama bear]

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I will too Inchy!!
The support of my family has been invaluable. This is too hard to do alone. I really needed someone to be accountable to. The thought of "being in trouble" kept me sober many a night at the beginning.......

[free at last]

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Inchy,
I remember your posts from two years ago when you accomplished 45 consecutive AF days. You were an inspiration to this middle-aged wino, as the most I have ever put together is 25 days.

I am, again, trying to get a lot of consecutive AF days together with the goal of the entire month of April AF. You are determined and strong -- stay close and focused.

[InChains]

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Thinking before drinking

It's strange when you're drinking, that things get out of focus. you're looking at things through the bottom of a bottle, it's the same, but somehow blurred around the edges, distant. I have, for a long time, looked at things this way because I simply couldn't imagine anything else, and I still can't - because trying to imagine a life sober is like trying to see the world in a completely new way, without knowing the difference between the possible and the now. I have every reason to quit, a life that I have dreamed of that I have simply chosen to drop out of, sink into old habits instead of letting the life I want be my reward I've let it become a reason to drink. Why? Perhaps insecurity, anxiety, fear, perhaps the infinite possibilities had to be narrowed somehow, because I simply cannot imagine that there is so much life? Maybe it is easier for it to narrow and be nothing than to move on, breathe and simply see the world.

Now I feel I'm waking up, that things that are hard are so much more worth it, that that first breath of fresh air is always so much sweeter. I am tired of this way of life, of being beaten down for nearly 7 years and of looking at the world, and never ever getting to see it through my own eyes and understand with my own mind because I have never let myself be free. Friday is going to be the start of me changing my life for the better, and you better believe I am going to fight for that this time round.

-Inchy

[free at last]

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you go, girl!

[K9Lover]

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Great post Inchy!

How are you doing today?

[mama bear]

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Awesome post Inchy!!
TOMORROW IS FRIDAY.....YAY!!!!!

[BHOG]

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Inchy-
You CAN do THIS!
work your plan, make it yours!

[Doggygirl]

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Hey Inchy. I'm not sure of our time difference and I'm too lazy to look right now. () Just wanted to say I hope you are hanging in there and sticking to your plan about this being Day 1. I know it's hard. It is even harder to live a life where AL is in control year after year.

:l

DG

[BHOG]

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Hang in there, Inchy. come talk with us, whatever it takes...we are all pulling for you.
A day at a time, Inchy, that is all.

[InChains]

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hey, first af day tomorrow due to fiance bring ill, really nervous now, looking for prime al location? I live across the road from a store selling booze until midnight, temptation? oh god yes. want to make it work? more than anything right now.

[BHOG]

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Inchy-
Ok, you really have temptation staring at you. But I think you can beat it down. Just think about how much better you are going to feel for yourself, staying AL free 1 hour at a time, for 24 hours.
It is worth it, my friend, oh so worth it.

[Blossoms]

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InChains;1484338 wrote: hey, first af day tomorrow due to fiance bring ill, really nervous now, looking for prime al location? I live across the road from a store selling booze until midnight, temptation? oh god yes. want to make it work? more than anything right now.

Ah.... Yep I have snores selling alcohol really close too

My wine shop is across from the Baskin and Robbins.... So I got myself a great icecream sundae......after tasting all the new ice creams:H

They sell alcohol in the convenience stores here too (and some vending machines too)..... So I keep on having to avert my eyes.... And instead buy the delicious juice, chocolate or ice cream

I think I'm going to put on weight in the short term.... But instead of feeling like I am missing out I'm going to indulge, just in something else rather than alcohol.

[Blossoms]

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Get the sparkling water, sparkling apple cider, non-alcoholic beer etc.... The chocolate, the icecream ... ANY treats you want.... get a great DVD - put on your PJs and a face mask or similar..... AND SHUT THE CURTAINS so you can't see the liquor shop.

[Wagoneer]

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Hey Inchy - it's Friday here (I think it has been Friday a few hours for you!) Just checking in and wanted to let you know that we are thinking about you! Hope you are well.