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[InChains]

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Day 2

a stressful start, pc error just robbed me of Black Sabbath tickets, will be trying again tomorrow, mad metallers must see Sabbath xD Had about 6 hours sleep, probably be less tomorrow when I have to work. Insomnias the real killer. Otherwise feeling better, little stressed/anxious, the usual weird hangover feeling I get when I don't drink haha.

Thanks for all the support, will probably drink saturday, unles this is going really well and then I'll even give up the social wine drinking, who knows.

[BHOG]

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:goodjob::wave::b&d::wow3:roud:

I think that about says it all, except

CONGRATULATIONS

[K9Lover]

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Way to go Inchy! I know I felt "hungover" for a couple of weeks even when I hadn't had anything to drink. That will pass...just give it time. I hope you get some sleep, and I also hope you get your Black Sabbath tickets!!

[InChains]

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back to reality and apparently day 2 forgot that it was supposed to be about celebrating. strongly considering going over the road to buy drink, don't even know why, just feels like I would like to do that, now. I hate this. Achievments are nothing, I feel like yelling at everybody who's liked my work n not bought it to just f*ck off! I don't want people I don't want fakes I am sick and tired and I don't want to be like that.

[InChains]

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anybody, help?

[K9Lover]

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What will drink do for you? You may feel buzzed for a while but when you wake up everything will be the same...only worse. Can you do something else right now to take your mind off of it? Go for a walk, do some situps, watch a movie, read a book?? Anything?

[InChains]

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I don't want a buzz, I just want this feeling to end. my whole brain is just raging at me.

[Glass Half Empty]

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Inchy I can't suggest anything that will make the feelings go away but I just wanted you to know you're not going through this alone.

If you can just ride this through you know you'll eventually get out the other side so can you just try and ride it out as best you can? Punch pillows, do whatever you can to get the rage out, draw or write those bad feelings onto paper and screw it up and throw it around the room. Anything except trying to drown them with drink, because they'll still be there tomorrow otherwise.

Hang in there :l :h :l

[K9Lover]

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Can you do some exercise, or call your fiance and tell him how you feel?

[InChains]

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hey, talked to my fiance, now just trying to relax myself, not feeling great, trying my best, thanks fo support everyone

[BHOG]

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Inchy-
Posts on the other threads indicate you have made 3 days.
WAY TO GO!
You are doing well!
Stay Strong!

[K9Lover]

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Hi Inchy! How are you doing today?

[InChains]

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so day 3, still sober, been having myself a wee think. I am drinking tomorrow - I'm not sure that I want to, having to think about why I'm not following through the desire to keep this going. I don't know if I'm drinking for me, for my partner, or because maybe I'm just too afraid to say 'this has been hard for me, I can't just have the odd drink'. I don't want to disappoint people, I don't want to have a bad night, I guess so many changes, working, sleeping, eating without having had a drink - maybe I just want something constant. Alot of cravings going on, guess they don't help haha.

Anyway, I'm here tonight, gone tomorrow, back sunday.

-inchy

[K9Lover]

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Those feelings are completely normal Inchy. I know my mind flip flopped all over the place at the beginning. You have to decide what you want to do...I know it's not easy. Don't drink or not drink for anyone but yourself.

[Doggygirl]

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K9Lover;1491293 wrote: Those feelings are completely normal Inchy. I know my mind flip flopped all over the place at the beginning. You have to decide what you want to do...I know it's not easy. Don't drink or not drink for anyone but yourself.
(emphasis mine) DITTO!!

InChains;1491270 wrote: so day 3, still sober, been having myself a wee think. I am drinking tomorrow - I'm not sure that I want to, having to think about why I'm not following through the desire to keep this going. I don't know if I'm drinking for me, for my partner, or because maybe I'm just too afraid to say 'this has been hard for me, I can't just have the odd drink'. I don't want to disappoint people, I don't want to have a bad night, I guess so many changes, working, sleeping, eating without having had a drink - maybe I just want something constant. Alot of cravings going on, guess they don't help haha.

Anyway, I'm here tonight, gone tomorrow, back sunday.

-inchy

Hi Inchy. First off - HUGE CONGRATS on 3 DAY SOBER!!! :yougo::yougo: That is SO hard in the beginning and I'm just really happy for you. I bolded the stuff I did in your post wanting to point out that those things REMAIN hard as long as we keep quitting for a bit, and then drinking again. At least for me, each time I stopped - even for a couple of days - was REALLY HARD and then I would drink again, and then have to go through that hard part over and over. I look back and see how I just prolonged my own agony that way. Even though it's hard to hang in there with AF days right now, that is the only way to get to the EASY part which DOES COME. A time when you won't even think about alcohol any more. BELIEVE that it will happen for you too if you persevere!!

:l

DG