The house that G built.

[Persephone1]

The house that G built.

Hi Family,

So sorry I've been absent for a bit. A lot goin' on in this noggin' of mine and I've thunk myself into a hole I think. Time to pop it out and in here to see you all...

Siren you sound freakin' fab darling! Congrats on the 30+ days! I am sorry (sorta) to hear about the split from you hub, but I gotta tell ya, after hearing about the struggles you've had, perhaps it's for the best. Even (esp.) if its not forever. Distance can provide tons of clarity, so I hope you can focus on you for a change. You deserve it. You sound happy, and energetic. Alive and well. Yay! :wd: PS, I love your idea of a house boat ~ how cool would that be?

Hey G! Missed you me friend. You sound wonderful too. The house is looking great. Garden and hot tub coming along nicely. How are the gigs goin? Feeling better from yer flu? Oh, btw, no celebs this trip, sadly. I am considering moving back to Palm Springs. Honestly, its the only place in CA I would consider living. Very little traffic and affordable ~ my two biggest complaints about living anywhere else in the state. I figure, if I can handle long, cold winters then I can handle a few months of wicked heat ~ right? Hope you're good in your corner of the world

Nursie I see you are racking up the days as well. Awesome job you! :kudos: This site is such an inspiring place. So wonderful to be a part of so many journeys toward health and new lives and to nudge peeps who are struggling. Really powerful site.

Its good to be back, I've got to stop brooding. Will check in laters. Happy Tuesday. Xxooox, P.

[Guitarista]

The house that G built.

Persephone1;1511589 wrote: Hi Family,

So sorry I've been absent for a bit. A lot goin' on in this noggin' of mine and I've thunk myself into a hole I think. Time to pop it out and in here to see you all...

Siren you sound freakin' fab darling! Congrats on the 30+ days! I am sorry (sorta) to hear about the split from you hub, but I gotta tell ya, after hearing about the struggles you've had, perhaps it's for the best. Even (esp.) if its not forever. Distance can provide tons of clarity, so I hope you can focus on you for a change. You deserve it. You sound happy, and energetic. Alive and well. Yay! :wd: PS, I love your idea of a house boat ~ how cool would that be?

Hey G! Missed you me friend. You sound wonderful too. The house is looking great. Garden and hot tub coming along nicely. How are the gigs goin? Feeling better from yer flu? Oh, btw, no celebs this trip, sadly. I am considering moving back to Palm Springs. Honestly, its the only place in CA I would consider living. Very little traffic and affordable ~ my two biggest complaints about living anywhere else in the state. I figure, if I can handle long, cold winters then I can handle a few months of wicked heat ~ right? Hope you're good in your corner of the world

Nursie I see you are racking up the days as well. Awesome job you! :kudos: This site is such an inspiring place. So wonderful to be a part of so many journeys toward health and new lives and to nudge peeps who are struggling. Really powerful site.

Its good to be back, I've got to stop brooding. Will check in laters. Happy Tuesday. Xxooox, P.

Hey Persephone!

Welcome back to life out of your noggin, so to speak! Palm springs eh? There are a few celebrities there aren't there? There will be if you move in. Folks will be whispering.....'hey Ralph, there's that bird who completely turned her life around against all odds. What a star eh?'..... 'You betcha Vera, what a gal!' etc...

Hope to see you around here more often.

A maaagnificent day had here. A run and a swim, and a relaxing bask in the gentle autumn sun on a beach almost all to myself. Nice. Gave myself a bit of a talking to, and me, myself and I look like we're on the same page at last.

Take care y'all.

[Siren136]

The house that G built.

Hi Persephone! I've missed your positive presence around these parts. What's all the brooding about? You OK? So glad you had such a nice holiday with your daughter. It sounded like it couldn't have been better (apart from no celebs).

I'm finding it very hard to focus on me. I just don't know how to do it. I'm so used to living by THE RULES my husband imposed that I'm not sure what I want or like anymore. I might be starting to figure it out. The hot tub was a BIG rebellion - something I have wanted for years and was chastised for.

I love how you and G and others can come on this site and pour out your souls so eloquently and share what you are going through. It doesn't come easy for me - I tend to keep things light and funny when deep down I'm drowning. When I do try to put something out there it sounds whiny and ridiculous and 99% of the time I delete it prior to posting.

G-man - where do you live - paradise? Your day sounds wonderful! I can't wait to visit OZ. I'm going to take your advice and spend as much time as they'll let me off work. I'm really looking forward to my upcoming holidays to get some pure relaxation in. I'll think about you when I'm running on the boardwalk in a couple of weeks.

[Guitarista]

The house that G built.

Siren136;1511685 wrote:

I'm finding it very hard to focus on me. I just don't know how to do it. I'm so used to living by THE RULES my husband imposed that I'm not sure what I want or like anymore. I might be starting to figure it out. The hot tub was a BIG rebellion - something I have wanted for years and was chastised for.

I love how you and G and others can come on this site and pour out your souls so eloquently and share what you are going through. It doesn't come easy for me - I tend to keep things light and funny when deep down I'm drowning. When I do try to put something out there it sounds whiny and ridiculous and 99% of the time I delete it prior to posting.

Hiya Siren,

I hope you are not stressing too much. Great work on the hot tub I say. I don't quite get why someone would chastise another for investing in something that would contribute to your wellbeing. Don't worry about sounding whiny etc....have a whinge and get some things off your chest if you want to. This is an anonymous forum don't forget, or as much as we wish it to be, and many people here post about things they wouldn't speak about with 'real life' friends/family.

Take your time. You don't have to be perfect. Go for what you love.

[Juja]

The house that G built.

Siren136;1511685 wrote: Hi Persephone! I've missed your positive presence around these parts. What's all the brooding about? You OK? So glad you had such a nice holiday with your daughter. It sounded like it couldn't have been better (apart from no celebs).

I'm finding it very hard to focus on me. I just don't know how to do it. I'm so used to living by THE RULES my husband imposed that I'm not sure what I want or like anymore. I might be starting to figure it out. The hot tub was a BIG rebellion - something I have wanted for years and was chastised for.

I love how you and G and others can come on this site and pour out your souls so eloquently and share what you are going through. It doesn't come easy for me - I tend to keep things light and funny when deep down I'm drowning. When I do try to put something out there it sounds whiny and ridiculous and 99% of the time I delete it prior to posting.
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Dearest Siren,

Re the first paragraph: I understand completely. My desire is to be able to stand up for myself in a clear, calm, but firm manner, and go do what I want. I usually go into a passive-aggressive mode instead, walk away, and do what I want without any discussion. Not healthy.

Re second paragraph: Please don't ever feel like you're whining. I love what you write. You can pm me anytime, and talk away. I don't pass judgment.:l

Hi, G, and all who post here!

[Siren136]

The house that G built.

Guitarista;1511704 wrote: Hiya Siren,

I hope you are not stressing too much. Great work on the hot tub I say. I don't quite get why someone would chastise another for investing in something that would contribute to your wellbeing. Don't worry about sounding whiny etc....have a whinge and get some things off your chest if you want to. This is an anonymous forum don't forget, or as much as we wish it to be, and many people here post about things they wouldn't speak about with 'real life' friends/family.

Take your time. You don't have to be perfect. Go for what you love.
I think I prefer really connecting with just a few people rather than staying anonymous overall. And regarding being perfect - that's who I am in my family - the perfect one, the one who has it together and no one has to worry about. I don't know how to not be that though I have support if I ask for it. But I don't know how to do that other than completely break down (which isn't in my nature). So I'm really feeling lost right now. I'm sure I'll be OK, but just struggling at the moment. Staying sober is my focus and the other stuff will follow (I hope).

Juja;1511741 wrote: Dearest Siren,

Re the first paragraph: I understand completely. My desire is to be able to stand up for myself in a clear, calm, but firm manner, and go do what I want. I usually go into a passive-aggressive mode instead, walk away, and do what I want without any discussion. Not healthy.

Re second paragraph: Please don't ever feel like you're whining. I love what you write. You can pm me anytime, and talk away. I don't pass judgment.:l

Hi, G, and all who post here!

Thanks, Juja. I do feel your support and very much appreciate it. I promise to pm you if I need to.

[Siren136]

The house that G built.

I may have a wee bit of trouble with the cynicism.

[Nursie]

The house that G built.

100 freaking days!

[Guitarista]

The house that G built.

Siren136;1511788 wrote: I think I prefer really connecting with just a few people rather than staying anonymous overall. And regarding being perfect - that's who I am in my family - the perfect one, the one who has it together and no one has to worry about. I don't know how to not be that though I have support if I ask for it. But I don't know how to do that other than completely break down (which isn't in my nature). So I'm really feeling lost right now. I'm sure I'll be OK, but just struggling at the moment. Staying sober is my focus and the other stuff will follow (I hope).

My humble impression from afar is that you are doing just great.

Nursie;1511945 wrote: 100 freaking days!

Yo Nursie!!

You are living the dream. Giving your son the childhood you never had, AND taking back your own precious life.

Bravo mate! :h

Hi Juja!

All good here. Day 17. Bring it on umpire!

L8tr, Yo!

[Guitarista]

The house that G built.

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The Sauna so far. Just temporary till I build a bigger one.

[Guitarista]

The house that G built.



The sauna. A temporary one for now, but it holds 4.

[Siren136]

The house that G built.

Guitarista;1511991 wrote: My humble impression from afar is that you are doing just great.

I'll be fine. I just has a sad.

Edit: The sauna looks incredible!

[K9Lover]

The house that G built.

I can't "see" the sauna, but I will take your word for it! Thanks G - I guess I can move in now :h

Nursie - 100 DAYS???!!!! Holy moly woman, you are incredible!!! I was at Olive Garden on Sunday and they didn't even offer me wine, I guess the daggers I shot out of my eyes prevented that. LOL

Anyone seen BHOG? I have some new tassles for him to try on!

[Siren136]

The house that G built.

K9Lover;1512266 wrote: I can't "see" the sauna, but I will take your word for it! Thanks G - I guess I can move in now :h

Nursie - 100 DAYS???!!!! Holy moly woman, you are incredible!!! I was at Olive Garden on Sunday and they didn't even offer me wine, I guess the daggers I shot out of my eyes prevented that. LOL

Anyone seen BHOG? I have some new tassles for him to try on!

You can't see it? It's really nice- right on the water.

[Gee1969]

The house that G built.

Hey everyone I'm a MWO virgin from liverpool England xxx