The house that G built.

[Byrdlady]

The house that G built.

You know, you tackle this situation just like you tackled the one with AL. You made it thru one step at a time and one day at a time. It's easy to look way down the road and imagine all the 'what if's'....but if you just try and focus on today, tomorrow is usually better. I bet you in a year when we are finishing up G-man's house here, we'll look back and think what many good things happened to you since last year. It just works out that way. Wishing you strength and peace tonight....B

[NoSugar]

The house that G built.

Thank you, Siren, for replying.

I'm sorry you are facing such tough challenges that you have to handle on your own. I hope the support you have here helps give you at least some of the strength you need.

[K9Lover]

The house that G built.

Sending you :l:l:l Siren!

I know you're in a difficult place right now, but please remember that we do care about you. If there's anything we can do to help you, please let us know! :h

[Siren136]

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Byrdlady;1515507 wrote: You know, you tackle this situation just like you tackled the one with AL. You made it thru one step at a time and one day at a time. It's easy to look way down the road and imagine all the 'what if's'....but if you just try and focus on today, tomorrow is usually better. I bet you in a year when we are finishing up G-man's house here, we'll look back and think what many good things happened to you since last year. It just works out that way. Wishing you strength and peace tonight....B
That is such great advice, Byrdie - thanks. You're right of course. I might need to check into my room early and hide for a while.

K9Lover;1515519 wrote: Sending you :l:l:l Siren!

I know you're in a difficult place right now, but please remember that we do care about you. If there's anything we can do to help you, please let us know! :h

Thanks niner! I do know that.

[Persephone1]

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Siren136;1515384 wrote: I'm a bit lost at the moment. I've been reaching out and been rejected at every turn. I'm not sure what I'm going to do now. I just wish I could disappear and cease to exist.
Siren, you are breakin' my heart here…who is rejecting you? I'll be happy to have 'lil chat with them :bat:

I am SO sorry you are struggling with the shifts in your personal life. Perhaps you can use this time to redefine things? It is really awesome that you are doing this sober ~ won't be regretted, I promise!

Its funny, when I look at pictures of myself throughout my life, it always occurs to me how many lifetimes within our lifetimes we have. I was a totally different being when I was 18, 28, even 38...There is no contract that we must stick to a particular 'role' (remember my bonfire idea?). Life processes are cyclical (birth, life, & death so to speak) and we have the option to constantly transform with it, if we want to. Not to say it is easy!

If you want to stop being the one who holds the world on your shoulders & let others carry you for a while, you can do that. The people who truly love you will support you NO MATTER WHAT Siren. Have you read or watched Eat, Pray, Love? My last relationship took a loooong time to end. That movie really helped me process that whole ordeal.

I hope you will keep reaching out and letting us love you thru this transition. You are very dear & cared for, you know that right? Please try to be gentle with yourself. I will PM my phone number just in case you ever need to connect ~ stat! :soothe:

Guitarista;1515442 wrote: Temptations and things you should know about? Umm, well ok, I need to find a woman, that'd be one thing.

Can you say what it is?

Ha! I thought being a musician you'd have chicks flinging' themselves at ya! Tho they're not always the relationship type…Have u ever been married? Any kids?
I am sure you'll u will meet your 'lifer' all in due time. How long have you been single?

The job is a contract (6mos to 2 years) working for a company who has a part recall and I would be helping resolve part replacements, customer service, etc..Most of my experience has been in residential property management, but I can do any type of administrative work and accounting. I am looking forward to just using my brain again and being around people more. BUT I have to have a weekday off for my therapies, fortunately its only 30 hrs a week. I hope it works out.

RE: my health crap, I will be finding a new doc tomorrow: fingers crossed!

Cinders;1515443 wrote: Having a rough couple of days here. I have no idea why. Doesn't matter, Antabuse makes it impossible to cave, but in a way that is difficult, too.

Hope you feel better soon, Persephone. Good luck on the job interview!!

Care to share whats goin' on? We are good listeners and really do care about your struggles. Antabuse is a gift and when the storm passes I know you'll be glad you stayed the course. Feel free to share and let us help carry the load friend. Thanks for the well wishes on the health front & interview.

Hello Sweetpea, Niner & rest of the fam~ hope all is swell with yous. :hallo:

XOXOX, P.

[Persephone1]

The house that G built.

Hi Lovelies, I really wasn't trying to be secretive, just a lot to ponder and put into words.

I'm going to share what I wrote to Siren in the House of G, as it really relates to what I want to 'discuss' with you all...

Persephone1;1515582 wrote:
I am SO sorry you are struggling with the shifts in your personal life. Perhaps you can use this time to redefine things? It is really awesome that you are doing this sober ~ won't be regretted, I promise!

Its funny, when I look at pictures of myself throughout my life, it always occurs to me how many lifetimes within our lifetimes we have. I was a totally different being when I was 18, 28, even 38...There is no contract that we must stick to a particular 'role' (remember my bonfire idea?). Life processes are cyclical (birth, life, & death so to speak) and we have the option to constantly transform with it, if we want to. Not to say it is easy!

If you want to stop being the one who holds the world on your shoulders & let others carry you for a while, you can do that. The people who truly love you will support you NO MATTER WHAT Siren. Have you read or watched Eat, Pray, Love? My last relationship took a loooong time to end. That movie really helped me process that whole ordeal.

I hope you will keep reaching out and letting us love you thru this transition. You are very dear & cared for, you know that right? Please try to be gentle with yourself. I will PM my phone number just in case you ever need to connect ~ stat! :soothe:

I am coming out of a really difficult, long term relationship and I feel super wounded. Part of the wounding is actually knowing that I was a partner in such a toxic disaster. It really brought out the worst in me and I think vice~versa. I am ashamed of myself on so many levels. This has caused me to really re~evaluate mySelf, my beliefs, my choices, what I have done with my life and where I want to go from here.

This is very painful and difficult to examine, but now that I have some sober time ~ I want to ~ need to. I want to let the old, useless everything die off and become more authentic. And I don't really have safe people in my everyday life who get this kinda stuff. Its time to heal. Time to forgive. Time to transform. I mean, this is the core level stuff that drinking to excess keeps us from getting to. I just kept hiding out and staying stuck.

Love to hear your thoughts, stories of your similar (or not!) instances, idea/ls, etc?And thanks for letting me ramble on ~ I know, this isn't a comfortable topic, sorry.

Also, sorry I didn't address everyone's day, I will read back and catch myself up & respond accordingly.

XOXOXO, P.

[Guitarista]

The house that G built.

Persephone1;1515582 wrote:





Ha! I thought being a musician you'd have chicks flinging' themselves at ya! Tho they're not always the relationship type?Have u ever been married? Any kids?
I am sure you'll u will meet your 'lifer' all in due time. How long have you been single?

The job is a contract (6mos to 2 years) working for a company who has a part recall and I would be helping resolve part replacements, customer service, etc..Most of my experience has been in residential property management, but I can do any type of administrative work and accounting. I am looking forward to just using my brain again and being around people more. BUT I have to have a weekday off for my therapies, fortunately its only 30 hrs a week. I hope it works out.

RE: my health crap, I will be finding a new doc tomorrow: fingers crossed!

Who's going for a job interview here, me or you?! lol. Never married, no kids as yet, single for a fair while, a couple of chicks happily available for the casual stuff, but just about ready to settle down and have a family. Still, no rush, but in the next couple of years i'm tipping.

Have you had this job interview yet? If so, how do you think you went? Either way, keep us posted Persephone! Having a work routine can sometimes be real healthy for us. All the best.

Pretty good day at work. The evening of day 24 here. :welcome:

Now, it's 6 hrs, 29 minutes since she's posted on this thread. How are you doing there Siren?

[Siren136]

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Guitarista;1515685 wrote: Now, it's 6 hrs, 29 minutes since she's posted on this thread. How are you doing there Siren?

I'm up, I'm up.

I let my rottie up in bed with me last night. I was sure I'd have to kick her out halfway through but she behaved herself. I'm sure the other two were jealous.

I built a mini fort with couch cushions and a blanket last night. I turned off the phone and pretended I was on Antarctica for a while. It felt good.

I had a couple of revelations yesterday. Not major ones, just the kind where I realized that I can make my own decisions about stuff and didn't have to ask anyone or worry about the consequences. I decided I'm going to quit one gym and join another. Well, I'm going to an intro session on Sunday and if I like their routine I'll join.

I've decided that I need to figure out who I am and what I want, which I know is like, duh, of course you do but is hard to do when you're in middle of things and have been told for so long that you're wrong for wanting whatever it is you want.

Hows the rest of the family doing today?

[Guitarista]

The house that G built.

Siren136;1515745 wrote: I'm up, I'm up.

I let my rottie up in bed with me last night. I was sure I'd have to kick her out halfway through but she behaved herself. I'm sure the other two were jealous.

I built a mini fort with couch cushions and a blanket last night. I turned off the phone and pretended I was on Antarctica for a while. It felt good.

I had a couple of revelations yesterday. Not major ones, just the kind where I realized that I can make my own decisions about stuff and didn't have to ask anyone or worry about the consequences. I decided I'm going to quit one gym and join another. Well, I'm going to an intro session on Sunday and if I like their routine I'll join.

I've decided that I need to figure out who I am and what I want, which I know is like, duh, of course you do but is hard to do when you're in middle of things and have been told for so long that you're wrong for wanting whatever it is you want.

Hows the rest of the family doing today?

Yes! Yes! Yes!

Brilliant post Siren, if I may say. I don't know your personal situation real well, but from what you've said, the above post makes very good sense, and sounds as healthy as, on all levels. Have a great evening my friend.

All good here. Off to work. Work situation with management stable, and even good. Well, i'm okay with it all to a degree. I can happily do my work now and accept their poor performance, and bungling beaurocratic trivia routines. haha.

Have a beaut day or night y'all.

Day 25. Bring it on!

L8tr, Yo! :h

[Siren136]

The house that G built.

[Byrdlady]

The house that G built.

Hey G! Sorry for the slight yesterday!!
Siren, so good to hear from you....changes in latitude ....changes in attitude!
Great picture...there really is something cleansing about the ocean.
You just never know where life will lead you....when I left my first hubs, I moved into an apartment and I cried solid for days (and I was the one that left him!). I was taking the trash out one night, and I met my neighbor and we got to talking, his wife of 17 years had recently left him, too. We were both rather lost at that time, that was April 10, 1986. We have been together ever since. If I had stayed in that not so great marriage, I'd have never met this man. Hang in there, it is worth seeing what's around the next corner!!

Snuggle in ev'body!!! Hugs, Byrdie

[Cinders]

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Hello friends from across the world.

Not much to say, really, just had a couple of days where I felt disconnected and uneasy. The AB keeps me grounded and I am so grateful I made the decision to take it.

Today, I had horrible stomach stuff. Not sure if it is sickness or just weird stuff from past surgery.

Anywho, got a call today from mom's home. They need me to sign some paperwork to have a behavioral nurse visit mom and do an eval. Mom is showing anger and paranoia with a great degree of mental degradation.

This did not help me attitude today but at least I could answer the phone sober and talk to the person on the other end. Grateful for that, too.

Not sure how many days here, I think around mid-month I get a 90 day chip at AA. They call it the pregnancy chip at my home group. :-)

Siren, major changes in life are always difficult on people. Glad you hunkered down and let some of the storm pass. There will others to come but you got through this one. :l:l

Thanks for being here and letting me vent a bit, friends.

Cindi

[techie]

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Siren136;1516026 wrote:

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[Guitarista]

The house that G built.

Hi Y'all,

Ah Cindi,

I hope your mum is finding some comfort. Looking forward to your 90 day chip from here!

Going to be getting my vitamin sea tomorrow when I go for a run and a dip.

Winding up day 25. Off to hit the hay soon.

Think positive and just do your best youse.

[K9Lover]

The house that G built.

Guitarista;1515685 wrote: Who's going for a job interview here, me or you?! lol. Never married, no kids as yet, single for a fair while, a couple of chicks happily available for the casual stuff, but just about ready to settle down and have a family. Still, no rush, but in the next couple of years i'm tipping.

I'm so glad Perse asked all the questions I've been dying to ask! :H I've been single a LOOONG time too G-Man, although I'm not really interested in looking this point. I always said I'd consider getting remarried when I turned 40...and here I am 40 and don't really feel any need for it. LOL

Enjoy the Vitamin Sea...I need to get out to the beach one of these days..it's only 10 miles away!