The house that G built.

[Guitarista]

The house that G built.

K9Lover;1524856 wrote: You ain't seen nothin yet Mr. G!!! I have about 10 weeks left to go...this could get ugly. Lol

Another day of crappy t.v. For me :upset:

Wishing you a cool weekend Niner. What are you going to get up to?

It's Friday morning, and there are blue sky's! Laying bricks here.

Take care y'all.

Day 47. Bring it on!

[coriander]

The house that G built.

Hi housies .
Later start for me today .
Lovely to meet you perse , congrats on 5 months . Sorry to know of your chronic pain ....it must get draining. When you feel like shit, your adrenals can get really hammered .
Mr g, good stuff on your days also, i love the symmetry in your date (i know that sounds rude, doesn't it!!!)
Hi k9, hope you don't end up with tv brain!......which i think is like a frontal lobotomy in technicolour!!!

Back to day 1 here. Fuck it. Maybe i should have a frontal lobotomy! Shouldn't make light of it though. This ain't no game is it.

I'll be back later.

[Guitarista]

The house that G built.

Hi Cori,

Nope, this is no game, as much as we can joke around here from time to time.

It is no game because for just about each and every person here, one drink can lead to serious consequences, self inflicted or otherwise. We don't know what we'll be thinking when we're getting tanked. It is the depressive aspect of having booze in the system that worries me. We can get very negative in a very short space of time, and not thinking clearly or rationally, we can make poor and dangerous, life threatening choices. Alcohol magnifies the punishment and self abuse we put ourselves through when drinking a million times. Some of us don't come back. Better not to drink.

[coriander]

The house that G built.

You're right, of course.
I, of all people, should look back at what happened 12 months ago & assess.
The ability to take that irreversible step to death is not something planned, when alcohol obliterates the knowledge of what happens to the people you leave behind. I call it "fuck it", moments. I hope i never have one again. No alcohol in my house as of this morning .
Ironically, my auto suggest nearly had that as "mourning ".

[coriander]

The house that G built.

Not a good evening playmates.
Flatter & lower than a snakes arsehole.
Can anyone go into chat??
Will refresh in 10 mins see if anyone's around.

[Dogwood Blossom]

The house that G built.

For me either Coriander. Until today, the last time I checked in was December last year. Life has been a roller coaster ride these past 6 months. The al has really taken a toll on me. Yesterday was a blur. I've got to figure this out, otherwise it's going to kill me and I ain't ready to die and certainly don't want to die drunk!!!

The last time here, I was way to easy on myself. I saw it over and over again....people back again to Day 1. It's good that we can come back and start fresh again but there wasn't enough reeling me in. I would be counting days and actually planning in my head when I was going to give myself permission for another drunk!

I cannot do this anymore! Being physically sick, emotionally drained, the shakes, the guilt! I am so miserable and unhappy! I want to be free and happy again!

[Guitarista]

The house that G built.

coriander;1525102 wrote: Not a good evening playmates.
Flatter & lower than a snakes arsehole.
Can anyone go into chat??
Will refresh in 10 mins see if anyone's around.
How are you going today Cozza?

Dogwood Blossom;1525214 wrote: For me either Coriander. Until today, the last time I checked in was December last year. Life has been a roller coaster ride these past 6 months. The al has really taken a toll on me. Yesterday was a blur. I've got to figure this out, otherwise it's going to kill me and I ain't ready to die and certainly don't want to die drunk!!!

The last time here, I was way to easy on myself. I saw it over and over again....people back again to Day 1. It's good that we can come back and start fresh again but there wasn't enough reeling me in. I would be counting days and actually planning in my head when I was going to give myself permission for another drunk!

I cannot do this anymore! Being physically sick, emotionally drained, the shakes, the guilt! I am so miserable and unhappy! I want to be free and happy again!

Hey DB! Welcome back.

You can be free and happy again. You've taken the first step which is to voice it and ask for it. Now comes the work.

The work means getting uncomfortable. Are you willing to get uncomfortable for the next few days/week?

Great to see you here. P.S. The newbies nest might be a helpful place for you to visit?

Rock on DB, and take charge!

[Dogwood Blossom]

The house that G built.

I am ready G, to do the work. I have been to the Newbies Nest several times today. Thanks for the encouragement. I'm glad to be here.

[Guitarista]

The house that G built.

Dogwood Blossom;1525357 wrote: I am ready G, to do the work. I have been to the Newbies Nest several times today. Thanks for the encouragement. I'm glad to be here.

You're a star DB.

Hope your weekend is a smooth one.

[coriander]

The house that G built.

Morning g.
Deteremined day2.

Dogwood, nice to meet you. I agree so much ....last 6 months of my life has been an opportunity squandered. I too give myself permission to drink. I use present tense because i am still gearing up for the work that g has mentioned.
Every morning, not a problem, it's that late arvo ,the UN wind from work, the sunny sit on the patio ....where is the glass!???? That missing element that steadily becomes the must have.

There's a song called "There Sstands the Glass", which is sad & poignant & i will Google it today.

Come with me on the journey, Dogwood ? I will need all the help i can get.

[Guitarista]

The house that G built.

coriander;1525360 wrote: Morning g.
Deteremined day2.

Dogwood, nice to meet you. I agree so much ....last 6 months of my life has been an opportunity squandered. I too give myself permission to drink. I use present tense because i am still gearing up for the work that g has mentioned.
Every morning, not a problem, it's that late arvo ,the UN wind from work, the sunny sit on the patio ....where is the glass!???? That missing element that steadily becomes the must have.

There's a song called "There Sstands the Glass", which is sad & poignant & i will Google it today.

Come with me on the journey, Dogwood ? I will need all the help i can get.

Go for it Cozza. It's a mind game I reckon, which we can turn around and win. The toolbox is always a useful read around those times.

[coriander]

The house that G built.

The song is : "There Stands the Glass", version by Ted Hawkins best imho.

[coriander]

The house that G built.

Day 2 done. Felt fairly isolated today, tottering around washing stuff,packing up.
My 3 month stint here nearly done. Seems surreal . Got a2 big road trips to get the 3 horses home, it will be strange to go back. Much of me doesn't want, but i sorta have to. There are some people at home that i need to see, but generally getting out and about...well, I'm a bit paranoid .
Where and how is everyone else? K9, perse,dogwood,free, .....?

Anyone around....

[coriander]

The house that G built.

Day 2 done. Felt fairly isolated today, tottering around washing stuff,packing up.
My 3 month stint here nearly done. Seems surreal . Got a2 big road trips to get the 3 horses home, it will be strange to go back. Much of me doesn't want, but i sorta have to. There are some people at home that i need to see, but generally getting out and about...well, I'm a bit paranoid .
Where and how is everyone else? K9, perse,dogwood,free, .....?

Anyone around....

[Siren136]

The house that G built.

Hi Cori - I'm here. Just back from Ocean City and ready to get back to work and daily check-ins.

I had a bike wreck yesterday and now my bike is all effed up. So is my leg - huge bruise.