The house that G built.

[Guitarista]

Hiya BK. Thanks.

How are you doing?

[bkyogagurl]

I'm ok.. Not exactly where I hope to end up but working on things..

I have been setting smaller goals for myself because I kept relapsing.. And to be honest I have been doing pretty good at hitting my goals.
I am on the fence about baclofen. I am so sick of pharmacueticals because I have been on so many and am now free from them. It sounds like baclofen is a long commit so I just wonder what happens when you stop taking it... I know a couple people here who have stopped and relapsed. I don't know what the right solution is...

To be honest G- I feel I need to tackle what's under my drinking because I don't think I will be free from it if I don't. I have been reading a book about rewiring your brain. It's really interesting and a bit of an eye opener.. I just started it so I will share bits of it as I go.


All we can do is keep trying right?

Take care of you G man... Stay positive

[Guitarista]

Yes, we are still in the arena.

Exploring what's under my drinking has been a logical step. I'm still not sure why i like to get numb and avoid society, reality, life. And it doesn't really bother me as i don't think there's anything hugely negative locked away within. I have deduced that i am just a little over sensitive as a human, and have to take care not to be put off by negative situations and/or people. I am also a real lounge about'er and love my comfort zone. However, for me to live my dreams and goals, this requires me to extract finger, get out there and mix it with life. Not as uncomfortable or scary as i thought. In fact, i now use the word........EXCITING!

Look forward to you sharing some of the book you're reading if you get the time.

Take care. G

[NoSugar]

To be honest G- I feel I need to tackle what's under my drinking because I don't think I will be free from it if I don't. I have been reading a book about rewiring your brain. It's really interesting and a bit of an eye opener.. I just started it so I will share bits of it as I go.

Hi, BKYoga.

What book are you reading? I've read several on the topic and am always looking for more .

I wrote an e-mail to a friend earlier today that kind of relates to what you're experiencing right now. I'll briefly hijack Mr. G's thread and put it out here for you to consider. All the best to you, NS.

....I think the way you are feeling in large measure is because you are drinking, not the reverse. It is easy to think we drink because we're stuck in a job or living situation we don't like. Or, like me, because we're hyper over-achievers, feel un-needed, etc. I think we drink because our biochemistry is such that we can become addicted to alcohol. And, once addicted, we can't stop drinking. THAT has big physical, mental, and emotional consequences. I believe that much of the pathology follows the addiction.

That does not mean we don't have to deal with all our "stuff" BUT:


1. Some of it resolves itself once we quit drinking. Some of my problems turned out to be my perception of what was going on - once I could think clearly, I realized I was misinterpreting many things and, being rather paranoid, looking for (and finding!) problems that actually were not there.


2. Some personality problems turned out to be those of the drinking me, not the real me. For example, the perfectionism of my childhood had returned in recent years, making me care too much about superficial stuff that I had been able to let go for years. I think now that I was trying to make things look "perfect" b/c I knew how bad things inside me really were. I'm now back to liking things to be "nice" and under control but weeds in the yard or an untidy room are no longer things that make me crazy and obsessive.


3. Some things do need to be addressed - but not by a foggy, sometimes un-rational brain. It is better to allow yourself time to heal before you tackle big life issues. Those that don't disappear at least become more manageable and with a healthier brain, you can evaluate the situation and formulate plans.


In AA they recommend you wait a year b/f making any big life changes. From my experience, I would say that is pretty good advice.

[Guitarista]

The best of the best of thursday mornings to y'all,

That is a top read NS. Thanks for sharing it here. You make total sense in that email extract to me. Booze really does cloud our perception of reality so much, that such perceptions can become ingrained and everyday thinking. Getting and living sober, and through the healing process, we hopefully begin to see things, ourselves, as they actually are.

Must be day 79. Wow, moving up to 80 then 90 is just around the corner. The most AF time i've had since my 2.5 yrs AF time a couple of years ago has been 99 days. Can you believe it? 99? Why would someone cave in at that point? It was all to do with my headspace and not being settled and happy with my life direction at the time. I wasn't really ready in my thinking. It has taken me a few cracks at this to start to decide that ongoing 24/7 AF living is what i want. I'm not getting too cocky yet, but maintenance does get easier after a couple of months of the new routine of NOT drinking every day, and doing things far more constructive, worthwhile and fun. Doing things that align with my personal 'mission statement' for this life has been crucial and stabilising.

Have a bewdy! Ooroo.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QnBl29bUrDU

[available]

The big 80 Mr G tomorrow woo hoo. I have found as long as i dont think i have this conquered and try it alone i am fine. It just gets better and better and better each and every day. Did you do 2 1/2 years af? i never knew that, and i had a chuckle at 99 days. now really who would celebrate a day before the celebration? An alky that is who.

Some nice weather would not go astray here atm. I finally went for a walk after missing out for two days and felt like it had been 2 years since i walked. SL the jogging will start next week, all going well though the temps are supposed to be in the 30 celcius so not sure i want to end up in Emergency. No hurry as i will get there.

Oh i have the bra BKY now just the confidence is needed but i know i can do anything i set my mind to now.

[Guitarista]

Morning Ava,

Yep, 2.5 yrs, and a few 60, 90 dayer's, and then a 99 days effort. Looks and sounds crazy, but really, it has just been my progression. And momentum has been forward, even though at times it's been 2 steps back. And............that's ok with me. We eventually become aware of the trickery and power of addiction, but sometimes it can take a little while for the truth to sink in, and a path to become clear.

And when a path is not clear or i cannot see a way forward, my only way out is through. Just keep going, until one day a light will appear. It can be a gruelling journey for many of us, but sobriety and the magic of our possibilities, and the buried treasure that sober living digs up for us, is very, very worth it.

[scottish lass]

G - so looking forward to your century celebration as there is no doubt you will make it!
Did my training run tonight - 10 mins run, 3 min walk and another 10min run - 2miles - and I did it!! Feels good Ava - hope you go for it!

[Guitarista]

G - so looking forward to your century celebration as there is no doubt you will make it!
Did my training run tonight - 10 mins run, 3 min walk and another 10min run - 2miles - and I did it!! Feels good Ava - hope you go for it!

Me too SL, thanks!

Fab going on your run! I am doing my head in trying to design a gig poster here (new software, which software?, why doesn't it just do what i ask it?!! etc. lol), but managed to squeeze in a 10/15 min. run along a windswept and deserted beach. Nice. Back to some graphic design!

Have a good one.

[techie]

You GO G-Man

[Guitarista]

You GO G-Man

Yo Techie! Thanks man. Hope all's well with you and yours.

Day 80. Still feeling quite settled and on track for the 3 digits. 100 will be an important breakthrough for me, as it will be the longest i've been AF since my champion 2.5 yr AF streak a couple of years ago. I reckon it will be a big turning point, but a strong affirmation and booster either way. The road looks clear up ahead, but i'm okay with stormy weather and fallen tree's too.

The sun's out and a great weekend weather wise ahead. The sun's shining in my little heart too.

Have a bewdy out there. G

[paulywogg]

Yer doing ace Mr.G,keep it up

[available]

Congrats on your 80 days Mr G. In for some great weather so that is a relief.

[DreamThinkDo]

Well done, Mr G!

Fallen trees? Stormy weather? You know there's always shelter here.

[Guitarista]

Thanks Pauly, Ava, and Dreamy! :heartbeat: