One Step at a Time - April 2013

[K9Lover]

One Step at a Time - April 2013

Happy Monday!!! I know we are all THRILLED to be at work again!! :H

Well Mama, you had to learn the hard way. I had to learn it TWICE. Still, I didn't quit drinking. Funny how jail time, extreme fines, DUI classes, alcohol school, losing my license, my cellie Diablo and having a breathalizer in my car...all of that didn't make me quit. It was the tear-stained letter from my little girl that did it!

And now look at me...trying to get a job at the Police Department! :H

[mama bear]

One Step at a Time - April 2013

whatever works sweetheart!

[Glass Half Empty]

One Step at a Time - April 2013

I'm glad you have your license back Mama - that must have been a very hard lesson to learn. :h

Sunbeam I'm sure your concert was beautiful, I adore choir music! I was born in Wales but sadly I can't sing for peanuts.

Hugs to Nora, Juja, Fly, K9, FT, Pauly, Allswell......... :l

[mama bear]

One Step at a Time - April 2013

hey Glass...I don't have it back yet....$325 to get a new one and I have to get more expensive car insurance, I think....
but I should have it within the next month...
I wrecked my car....no one hurt...but that has to be fixed, too. It has been sitting in the garage since I couldn't use it.
My husband and kids have been driving me to and from work and everywhere else for over a year...

I spent 24 hours in jail with some lovely pillars of the community
I have felt deep shame and humiliation. My 21 year old gets pissy sometimes and likes to throw it in my face
it's not worth it friends.....just not at all.....
Probably close to 5K when all is said and done.... all for "one more beer".....

[FlyAway]

One Step at a Time - April 2013

mama bear;1498865 wrote: hey Glass...I don't have it back yet....$325 to get a new one and I have to get more expensive car insurance, I think....
but I should have it within the next month...
I wrecked my car....no one hurt...but that has to be fixed, too. It has been sitting in the garage since I couldn't use it.
My husband and kids have been driving me to and from work and everywhere else for over a year...

I spent 24 hours in jail with some lovely pillars of the community
I have felt deep shame and humiliation. My 21 year old gets pissy sometimes and likes to throw it in my face
it's not worth it friends.....just not at all.....
Probably close to 5K when all is said and done.... all for "one more beer".....

Oh Mama, I can't even imagine what you've been through! That could have easily been me. I can't imagine not being able to drive. Definitely not worth it. :l

[Glass Half Empty]

One Step at a Time - April 2013

Gosh that's awful Mama - you really have well and truly paid the price. All I can say is the legal system has determined you've done the time, so now it's time to forgive yourself as well! :h

[mama bear]

One Step at a Time - April 2013

thanks! I think I have, but I still have moments. My hubs has been wonderful.....he was VERY bad when he was younger, so he gets it. I was always the good girl....till AL took over. Truth be told, I am nervous about driving again and having freedom. I always stopped for beer on the way home and snuck it in the house. No maybe a year without driving has been good for me.....can't get beer, so now I don't want it.
Will I ever drink again? I honestly don't know the answer to that. But I DO know it will not be the 12 pack a night again, and I will NOT be driving....
Thanks for the kind words
kisses
Mama

[Glass Half Empty]

One Step at a Time - April 2013

Hey lovelies

Someone said something the other day that made me realise I probably haven’t told you much about myself, (except that I’m 51, live in Australia with my cat, and I’m still rehabbing from a broken ankle 9 months ago due to being the clumsiest person alive). Seeing as you’re all my second family now I thought I should fill you in with a few more details.

So here goes:

I work for the Govt and I’m doing a PhD in my spare time. So I don't actually have any spare time.

I have 2 lovely sons. One is 27 and I’m almost out of my mind with worry about him at the moment because he’s in Pakistan running an aid project to do with the upcoming election. When he’s not in Pakistan or Malta (another project) he lives in Sydney (about an hour and a half flight away) with his fianc?e. My other son is nearly 24 and was living in London last year but has now come home (thankfully) and is at uni again and lives not too far away.

The other thing about us is that the boys’ father was abusive so I left him when the boys were 4 and 7 and brought them up by myself. And also I had a terrible time coping with the empty nest thing and I'm only just starting to come out the other end. I think.

So that's me.

[mama bear]

One Step at a Time - April 2013

Glass!!
I am 52, married forever, and have two boys that are 17 and 21.
I am so proud of your son and I cannot imagine the worry you are going through. I will add him to my prayer list.
My boys are still at home and I already miss them, since they are always gone.
Single mothers are a rock...I do not know how you and K9 do it....and anyone else I have forgotten to mention.
Today is Martian production day at work.....I will send K9 pictures to post if she wants. I have no idea how to do it from my phone.
Out the door, I go
Nora....please check in sweetie

[Glass Half Empty]

One Step at a Time - April 2013

Thanks for the prayers mama. I appreciate any and all at the moment. The election is on 11 May and if security goes according to plan he flies out at 3am on the 12th. Until I know he's on that flight I just constantly feel sick.

What on earth is Martian production day?

[paulywogg]

One Step at a Time - April 2013

hi guys,well my mondayitis was even worse yesterday cuz i had the worst allergies! dizzy,stuffed up,runny nose seriously it felt like a hangover! in vegas theres alot of dust blowing around so nearly everybody suffers some kind of allergies summers the worst,i never knew i had allergies til i sobered up how weird is that?anyways you guys have a great day,im crossing my fingers and toes i feel better today yikes!

[mama bear]

One Step at a Time - April 2013

A few days back I posted about a company picture we were taking for our national convention.
My assistant and i will be Martians...green body paint and all, and my three guys will be Men In Black.....you will just have to see the pictures....
it's beem a chore, to say the least, but should be fun
Pauly....that sounds awful....can you take any meds for that??

[paulywogg]

One Step at a Time - April 2013

hi mama,usually i take claritin but it really doesnt work great,i cant wait to see those pics!

[Juja]

One Step at a Time - April 2013

Pauly, good luck with the allergies. Don't like the ones in Vegas, come to VA. My deck, chairs, driveway, car, etc. are green from pollen. I've had a sinus headache for 4 days. I hardly go outside anymore, which is sad.

Mama, the costumes sound like a lot of work. Too much trouble for me, regardless of the laughs that come with it.

Well, I tried to order AB today, but River Pharm is doing something with credit cards, and I had to leave a message for them to call me back. I have no idea when I'll talk to them, as my work schedule is so varied. Crapola.

My life's shit, everyone. I'm so tired of everything, I want to curl up into a ball and cry. My parents are requiring more and more attention, DH is spending more and more time on his passions, and I feel like my life pointless. I know it isn't. I'm drinking off and on, but not everyday, and not excessively.

I think maybe I'm angry at myself for not being able to do/or not doing what I truly want to do. I don't have the guts to ignore any of my roles.

Oh, forget it. I feel like all I do on this site is whine, and I feel bad about that, too. Sorry. I guess I'm depressed, and need to make some changes, and AL is the least of them.

Thanks for listening---again.

[paulywogg]

One Step at a Time - April 2013

whine all you want juja,thats what were here for anyways you need to get it out,im a whiner too but i keep it in then it builds and i get the attitude that drinking will make it all better and tbh sometimes it does,but for the most part i just feel shittier,hugs to you girlie well off to work see you guys later