Another successful day yesterday. I feel stronger by the day. Hubby is drinking less too by osmosis so I am doing us both a favour. Playing the keyboard and knitting like a maniac. I have the office more organized than ever and the house cleaner than ever so I can hardly wait for whatever life throws my way.:h:h:h:h:h
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Another successful day yesterday. I feel stronger by the day. Hubby is drinking less too by osmosis so I am doing us both a favour. Playing the keyboard and knitting like a maniac. I have the office more organized than ever and the house cleaner than ever so I can hardly wait for whatever life throws my way.:h:h:h:h:hTipplerette
I do this for my children, my grandchildren, my health, my peace of mind, and mostly for the opportunity to learn to live with my true, unfiltered, clear-headed, vulnerable self.
"If you do not change direction, you may end up where you are heading."
? Lao-Tzu
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YAY Tipps! You sound great! You can come clean my house next ok??
I am constantly switching obsessions too. LOL First it was crochet, then it was going to the thrift store (I literally went EVERY DAY...Yikes), now it's the gym. I need to work on finding a "balance"...but hey, at least it's not 14 beers a night anymore!
You know how I clean my bathroom? I turn out the light. LOL
Keep up your great work Tippy!!!:heart:I love my daughter more than alcohol:heart:
Believe in yourself. You are stronger than you think.
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I'm so proud of you Tipp I am busting out all over like June!
No what you mean about the split second decisions: close call in Walmart of all places but had only ten minutes to pick up Matt from basket ball and there was a hugely long line in the their Alcohol Alcove so pushed my cart on past...Nothin' to see here folks!
:lOn My Own Way Out Since May 20, 2012
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Kradle - My Walmart doesn't have alcohol YET. They are expanding and will have it soon. The sad thing I used to do was pick up my prescription for Antabuse, but grab a 12 pack (at the same store) and figure I'd have "one more" night before starting the AB. And THAT is why I've been on AB for 3 years but sober (continually) for only a little more than ONE!:heart:I love my daughter more than alcohol:heart:
Believe in yourself. You are stronger than you think.
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Tipplerette;1495126 wrote: Can't say there haven't been close calls though.. this warped mind of mine sends split second decisions and then words to my mouth that I utter before I really think... Like "if you order a bottle, I'll have a glass." Then I have to backtrack... So I am not out of the woods yet by any stretch of the imagination.
It seems to me that every minute of every day is a string of decision making, the power of each decision simply rests in the importance we BELIEVE them to have.
This morning I woke and DECIDED to sleep in ( it is Sunday )... I had thoughts last night of an early start and housework.....oh well.
When I got up I DECIDED to add sugar, rather than the sweetener to my coffee ( I am reducing calorie intake)
I have now DECIDED to have a lazy day ( though I must finish a tax return that I DECIDED to leave all week)
At nearly eight months sober I may or may not have a thought of drinking today.......they are getting few and far between.......it will hold very little power and I can ALMOST guarantee that I will DECIDE not to drink.
That lack of certainty seems, at first glance worrisome, but it is that drinking is now firmly a random thought for me. I am hopeful that it will always remain so, but it can never be certain.....because I am a free person that can CHOOSE. I don't fear that I CAN'T drink, I don't fear that I WILL. I am no longer afraid of alcohol, only a healthy fear of returning to hell.
Every day that I decide to exclude alcohol from my life I become stronger and the desire becomes weaker. The thought does not scare me any more.
I would suggest that fear of 'that thought' turns quitting into obsession and the thoughts become as compulsive as the drinking was.
I have thought, written and read about alcohol and alcoholism many times a day for eight months........it is losing all power over me.
I am no more likely to drink alcohol now than I am to stick a knife in an electrical socket. I am many times more likely to drive, at least a short distance, without a seatbelt buckled.
It has only taken eight months to reach this place of peace after twenty three years of compulsion.
I hope it works the same way for smoking !
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I hope and I feel certain that alcohol will lose it's pull on me within months. I have no problem abstaining lately but have been there, done that and, inevitably it's weak moment of 'decision' that usually sends me back to day one. I never start day one the day after drinking.. it takes weeks before I am ready to tackle the issue again. At 56 I don't have all that much spare time to go around this merry-go-round continuously, there is too much living to do. So being vigilant ALWAYS, even when it's easy. Thanks Kuya, your post is a keeper.Tipplerette
I do this for my children, my grandchildren, my health, my peace of mind, and mostly for the opportunity to learn to live with my true, unfiltered, clear-headed, vulnerable self.
"If you do not change direction, you may end up where you are heading."
? Lao-Tzu
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Tipplerette;1497985 wrote: I hope and I feel certain that alcohol will lose it's pull on me within months. I have no problem abstaining lately but have been there, done that and, inevitably it's weak moment of 'decision' that usually sends me back to day one. I never start day one the day after drinking.. it takes weeks before I am ready to tackle the issue again. At 56 I don't have all that much spare time to go around this merry-go-round continuously, there is too much living to do. So being vigilant ALWAYS, even when it's easy. Thanks Kuya, your post is a keeper.
At three months happily sober I took my first swim of the season and BAM! I was hit by a massive desire to drink. It actually made me cry. Then I realised that the association between having a swim, feeling good and then 'rewarding' myself with alcohol had never been challenged. Once I realised the connection I was fine. The next day I swam and felt nothing.
We are nearly the same age.......once you are safely sober life will, once again, be this huge potential of joy and achievement. Just hang tough for a little while Tipps, not long now
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Like your signature, I want to be reborn too. Alcohol is always in my life. At least four nights out of seven I am with hubby who has a few glasses of wine or a beer or with friends and family who all drink; some to excess. Tonight I was with my 80 year old uncle and he and hubby had a few glasses of wine. I felt really content (I keep using that word but that's what i am feeling lately) sitting there chatting with no buzz. I feel still inside somehow. Hard to describe.
Like your swim, Kuya, there will be triggers; this summer when everyone is down at the beach, Beach Boys blaring, frisbees flying, burgers on the grill... that's when I will crave a drink. Hopefully I'll have enough time under my belt to laugh it off...Tipplerette
I do this for my children, my grandchildren, my health, my peace of mind, and mostly for the opportunity to learn to live with my true, unfiltered, clear-headed, vulnerable self.
"If you do not change direction, you may end up where you are heading."
? Lao-Tzu
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Tipplerette;1497995 wrote: Like your signature, I want to be reborn too. Alcohol is always in my life. At least four nights out of seven I am with hubby who has a few glasses of wine or a beer or with friends and family who all drink; some to excess. Tonight I was with my 80 year old uncle and he and hubby had a few glasses of wine. I felt really content (I keep using that word but that's what i am feeling lately) sitting there chatting with no buzz. I feel still inside somehow. Hard to describe.
Like your swim, Kuya, there will be triggers; this summer when everyone is down at the beach, Beach Boys blaring, frisbees flying, burgers on the grill... that's when I will crave a drink. Hopefully I'll have enough time under my belt to laugh it off...uch:
Isn't that just Odd? But you obviously don't have any desire ad I am s so proud of you. Here I am a world away and I thought about asking your hubs to swing by the store! :H
Well not excacly your hubs :H
My mind is a strange place to dwell these days.
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Hey Kradle
Your post reminds me-a while back when I was having a "slip" (like in November) and after my bf had expressed how happy he was that I would not drink...I asked him to bring home beer. He said NO.
I was a little surprised but glad really. I guess my shenanigans were worse thatn I thought, in terms of his perception. So now still on a roll for 2013
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