One Step at a Time - May 2013

[mama bear]

One Step at a Time - May 2013

Oh Glass...I know the pain you are feeling mentally
I have been on AD's for years and I know they kept me from attempting suicide in my early 30's
PLEASE talk to us
Juja, Nora and I know that monster well
I am so sorry sweetie
the news from OK has me sad. the only positive thing I can say is this was a natural occurence and not some madman walking into a school shooting teachers and children
Honchos are visiting for the next few days, so I may be a bit absentee
Glass....if you need my number I will PM you....I am glad you are getting help
hugs to all
Nora - is Casey gone on his trip?? Any word?

[JackDanielsGirl]

One Step at a Time - May 2013

Morning all,

k-9 good luck, you got this girl!
mama - yes ma'am AL is staying away, thank you Jesus, today is day 19.
glass - hang in there. I have been on and off AD for years it takes about a week after starting to feel a difference, but the DO help tremendously. Sending good thoughts your way.

I am beginning to see some of the old traits coming back in my husband, short tempered, not sure what's going on, counseling on thurs.

To one and all Have a great Tuesday.

[Juja]

One Step at a Time - May 2013

Glass, AD's do work. I, too, am alive because of them. It make take some time to find the right one, but don't despair over that. You'll find what you need. A good therapist, along with the AD's, is the best combination. I can't speak highly enough of therapy.

Also, what did the surgeon say?

It will get better, Glass, I promise. Pm me anytime.

JDG, Is the marriage counseling helping? I hope it helps you two through your rough patch. My hands are sweating thinking about marriage counseling. We need it so badly....

Kradle, Ah the life of a mother. You'll have to have a signing-the-cast party! Sound like a good idea?:H

See you tonight, everyone.

[K9Lover]

One Step at a Time - May 2013

Happy Tuesday peeps!

Thanks for all the good vibes on my interview Thursday...I KNOW I can do the job, the thing I need to focus on is getting them to want some "new blood" in their Department. My friend in HR told me that the fact that they are setting up a "Panel" and bringing in an outside agency shows that they are interested in getting to know ME...the other 2 applicants already work there! So let's hope I do blow their socks off. LOL

Glass - Sorry you are having a hard time. I am on Prozac...I have been on it for almost a year and I feel wonderful. I hate to say it's because of a pill, but I know it DEFINITELY helps. Getting AL out of my life was a huge step, but sometimes we still need that something extra...so if you can, I highly recommend finding the right medication that works for you! :l

Oh Kradle! Your kids do keep you busy don't they? I'm still waiting for you to put up the dogs picture in your Avatar...I know that will mean you've had it with the kids. LOL :H Anyway, I hope your son is ok and heals quickly. You deserve some sort of award for all that you do...you have my complete respect and admiration girl!

My good friends moved to Oklahoma 3 weeks ago...not sure which part exactly but I need to find out!

[JackDanielsGirl]

One Step at a Time - May 2013

Juja - yes the marriage counseling is working. The key is to find a good therapist and listen to them, it is scary at first because you dredge up past issues, but as we have found out those issues were not resolved just buried. Now we can deal with them and put them to rest.

This has also help with my sobriety.
JDG

[mama bear]

One Step at a Time - May 2013

Kradle...I was rude and half asleep this morning when I didn't mention you
I hope all is well
just a quick check in since I have visitors at work
I have been thinking about Glass all day

[Frequent Traveler]

One Step at a Time - May 2013

To all my peeps out there sorry about all the issues, please stay strong and together we can do this. I know I sound like a brown record but with you and knowing your support is there it makes all the difference to me, thank you.
So on that note, am off to bed to read my book as TV is boring me.
FT

[Glass Half Empty]

One Step at a Time - May 2013

You are all so lovely - thank you so much for all your support and offers of PMs and other contact. :h I'll try to keep talking here but there's not much point checking every day just to whine about how sorry I am for myself.

I have to go to the dentist again this afternoon and then the GP in the morning and a scan on my ankle the next day. In the meantime work is going crazy with deadlines for things that shouldn't even be my job and I'm so fed up with it I feel like telling them all where to go. Probably not the wisest thing to do in this frame of mind. I've already broken down in tears in my boss's office once this week and freaked the poor man out.

[mama bear]

One Step at a Time - May 2013

Oh Glass...I know the feeling. The tears start to build and then the dam breaks. Poor boss.....men hate tears. But I find crying to be theraputic. I cry for about five minutes and then feel SO much better. Please keep coming in and talk to us ok?
I had a company dinner last night and drank two glasses of wine. I am ok with that. I was very aware of what I was doing and i had no more. I came home and went to bed. Now it will be a long long time till, or if , I drink again.
Please feel free to let the yelling commence or if you think I am full of it.
ok...gotta get ready for work and another day with the trainer.
We were slammed busy yesterday and I was hopping around like a bunny trying to do it all, so my assistant could focus. I felt like a wet rag by the end of the day.
I'll try to check in later
love and hugs to all

[Frequent Traveler]

One Step at a Time - May 2013

Good morning,
I go to see a therapist off and on and it is so rewarding to be able to talk to someone, I wish me and my X had done that but who knows if that would have helped at the time.
Feeling great this am after a battle yesterday with uncle AL as he was knocking on my door pretty seriously but I was able to put my headphones on and block him out, and today I feel so great for being able to do that.
Got a contract job offer this am but had to turn it down for now as timing was wrong but a great discussion and will lead to more if the other one here in town does not materialize, so yes there is work out there and that makes me feel better.
Well its hump day and I think I will get dressed and go get a haircut.
Hope everyone has a better day and wish all of you the best, I read all your battles and in spirit I am with you and support you.
FT

[K9Lover]

One Step at a Time - May 2013

No yelling from me Mama (suprising isn't it?? LOL) I am just amazed that you can stop at TWO glasses...I could NEVER EVER do that...I'm sure I would have gotten more on the way home, because once there's a leak in the dam, there's no stopping the deluge! Anyway, I am PROUD of you for keeping it under control. I gave up that dream a long time ago (along with any hopes of winning the lottery).

I hope all my friends here are doing okay today. The week is half over and we have a long weekend

I am so excited for my interview tomorrow! Most people dread them, and I can't wait...does that make me weird? LOL

Love y'all LOTS! :h

[mama bear]

One Step at a Time - May 2013

I am excited for your interview, too
and thanks for not yelling, but I am ready to take my spanking
have a good day FT
private therapy tonight....yay but sigh

[K9Lover]

One Step at a Time - May 2013

Mama - How did you feel during and after those 2 glasses? I am just curious. My memory of the "during" feeling has faded, but I definitely remember the "morning after" feeling! I'm not trying to glamourize it, I just wonder if it felt like it used to, or has it changed?

[mama bear]

One Step at a Time - May 2013

I got light headed REALLY fast and kind of regretted it....
it wasn't really worth it

[mama bear]

One Step at a Time - May 2013

just in from therapy...some touchy isssues arose...namely, has my husband quit drinking to support me....heavy stuff
I told her all about my family here and she said it sounded like a great tool, but also pointed out that I got a DUI after being a member here for awhile.
She was not critcal, but gave me a lot to think about. She completely supports AA and said in 20 years of addiction counseling that AA members have the highest success.
Again, more to think about
and K9.....the wine made my heart race and I was tired today (not that that's anything new)
the "buzz" is a romantic dream for an alcoholic......
eating frozen pizza and in a reflective mood.....
I hope everyone is snuggled in tonight