Army Thread Sunday May 19th

[Recluse]

Army Thread Sunday May 19th

Hello again

Welcome back tabs...good to see you.

[satz123]

Army Thread Sunday May 19th

KTAB;1507611 wrote: Hello ladies, yeah I have a plan, taper down then just stop, simples.
JC regards to Mr JC, tell him I said hello.
Benji I must be septic eh/ heard your voice calling through the ether.
Molly dear I couldnt agree more about where happiness comes from.

Septic eh Tabbers ?- we can treat yer for that with a poltice:H

[satz123]

Army Thread Sunday May 19th

mollyka;1507615 wrote: oooooh - another tapperer!!!! Reccie's doing an amazing taper (no, the tapers not THAT amazing - he's doing it amazingly well:H) at the mo. - I'll let him tell ya all about it --- are you confident you can do it that way tho -- I've said to Reccie I could never have done what he's doing --- after the first drink 'all bets are off' for me ---- have you gone into exact measurements of how often/how many units each day etc?
Yes, happiness really isn't caused by 'events' -- I had soooo many 'events' when I was drinking - and yeah - I have to be honest, I faked 'overpowering happiness' when kids got exam results, 21st birthdays, holidays - etc etc --- felt nothing tbh -- cos there was no happiness inside me in the first place - still struggle sometimes to get the 'happy buzz' - but I think thats from all the years of numbing myself - I've improved a hundred fold - but the booze buzz was very very powerful and it's 'quick fix' attraction isn't 100% gone yet (shit, that sounds like I wanna drink --- noooooooooo) so I have to work on my innards to ...... shite, can anyone make this less verbose - does ANYONE know what I'm talking about??:H:H:H

NO !!!!!:H Deep breaths Molls - breath into a paper bag -and try again :H
Ah joking - I do -and the quick fix I can relate to.

[Recluse]

Army Thread Sunday May 19th

mollyka;1507615 wrote: Yes, happiness really isn't caused by 'events' -- I had soooo many 'events' when I was drinking - and yeah - I have to be honest, I faked 'overpowering happiness' when kids got exam results, 21st birthdays, holidays - etc etc --- felt nothing tbh -- cos there was no happiness inside me in the first place - still struggle sometimes to get the 'happy buzz' - but I think thats from all the years of numbing myself - I've improved a hundred fold - but the booze buzz was very very powerful and it's 'quick fix' attraction isn't 100% gone yet (shit, that sounds like I wanna drink --- noooooooooo) so I have to work on my innards to ...... shite, can anyone make this less verbose - does ANYONE know what I'm talking about??:H:H:H

Yep, I understand that totally molly, especially the bit about you feeling nothing because there was no happiness inside you in the first place. That makes a whole lot of sense.

[satz123]

Army Thread Sunday May 19th

mollyka;1507617 wrote: :HFFS he's bad enough!!!!

Ah I dunno - I think The Brig is ready for him to stroll down main street strutting his stuff.
Like TOTALLY wearing the Sandal / Sock look !! Add a man bag and OMG!!

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

Army Thread Sunday May 19th

mollyka;1507615 wrote: oooooh - another tapperer!!!! Reccie's doing an amazing taper (no, the tapers not THAT amazing - he's doing it amazingly well:H) at the mo. - I'll let him tell ya all about it --- are you confident you can do it that way tho -- I've said to Reccie I could never have done what he's doing --- after the first drink 'all bets are off' for me ---- have you gone into exact measurements of how often/how many units each day etc?
Yes, happiness really isn't caused by 'events' -- I had soooo many 'events' when I was drinking - and yeah - I have to be honest, I faked 'overpowering happiness' when kids got exam results, 21st birthdays, holidays - etc etc --- felt nothing tbh -- cos there was no happiness inside me in the first place - still struggle sometimes to get the 'happy buzz' - but I think thats from all the years of numbing myself - I've improved a hundred fold - but the booze buzz was very very powerful and it's 'quick fix' attraction isn't 100% gone yet (shit, that sounds like I wanna drink --- noooooooooo) so I have to work on my innards to ...... shite, can anyone make this less verbose - does ANYONE know what I'm talking about??:H:H:H

Scarily yes I do know what you are talking about. Regarding the taper, no I wont go into that detail, I dont feel I was drinking enough on a daily basis to warrant it. I was however drinking everyday, in fact I struggle to recall my last dry day :upset: so stopping abruptly might be a dodgy.

[JackieClaire]

Army Thread Sunday May 19th

I agree.

[satz123]

Army Thread Sunday May 19th

Recluse;1507620 wrote: Yep, I understand that totally molly, especially the bit about you feeling nothing because there was no happiness inside you in the first place. That makes a whole lot of sense.

Yeah - and do you think that is why we drink ?? ..... we do not feel 'happiness' like we are 'supposed' to ....... I often think that. I can feel happy / content but never actually show it !
I can be happy that someone landed a job - but not OMG OMG - marvellous etc. Glad for them but do not let it infringe on me.

Selfish cow that I am LOL

I am happy for JC now - but not about to combust - just happy she's happy - does that make sense ???

[satz123]

Army Thread Sunday May 19th

KTAB;1507624 wrote: Scarily yes I do know what you are talking about. Regarding the taper, no I wont go into that detail, I dont feel I was drinking enough on a daily basis to warrant it. I was however drinking everyday, in fact I struggle to recall my last dry day :upset: so stopping abruptly might be a dodgy.

Get AB Tabbers. Totally worked for me. I was same as you - daily drink - not VAST amounts but daily all the same.
Once I decided - I took the AB and did my first 7 days AF in years :goodjob:

[JackieClaire]

Army Thread Sunday May 19th

It does Satz,

I'm really happy that KT's back and Jilly's coming home.

Many moons ago when I'd got about 3/4 months sober and had a very weird feeling one night in bed. Get yer minds out of the gutter I was reading.
It was a feeling of peace and dare I say it, happiness. I just knew I'd made the right decision.

[mario]

Army Thread Sunday May 19th

Good morning,lovely day here so far.

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

Army Thread Sunday May 19th

Hi Mario.
Thanks for your input folks but I really must away, off up to Cavan to collect some stuff so I am.

[satz123]

Army Thread Sunday May 19th

mollyka;1507625 wrote: Thank you both:H (well Reccie anyhows, least he doesn't take the piss outta me:H)

Yeah, I think maybe part of it is - we drink for a very long time - be it in a problematic way or not. I s'pose I drank for 20 years pretty much normally - 10 years it was escalating - and 5 years of very problematic/alcoholic drinking - but 35 years of drinking nonetheless. So 'happy' was dealt with with alcohol - 'oh it's my birthday/wedding/anniversary etc - lets have a few jars' - so the 'genuine' happy feelings were replaced by 'happy booze feelings' - eventually my real 'happy' became defunct - so it does take a while to tap into 'real' happy ---

Oh Molls -you are so wise - do you just 'know' this stuff or did you learn it in the quare place?
I iz going to move in with you.:h
I can diagnose your ailments from me bukes - one of which is all herby old wives remedies and make so much sense.

So bring on the physical complaints Army & I have the natural remedy for it !!

[mario]

Army Thread Sunday May 19th

Hi k tab nice to see you here :goodjob:

[satz123]

Army Thread Sunday May 19th

mollyka;1507636 wrote: OH YEAH!!!!! Now THAT I really understand ---- the 'peace' (and I don't just mean the 'thank god I'm not in trouble with Joe' sort of peace) does return before the happiness - the 'chatter' stops much earlier --- that whirling washing machine effect in the head just goes --- and that PEACE --- oh gawd that IS wonderful ---- and it is closely aligned with happiness I think --- so guessin I'm on my way:H

Yup -it's PEACE I'm feeling now. Just pottering through.
My life is mundane - sure - but I like it like that.

Anything new or out of the ordinary these days upsets my PEACE and I have to re-set myself.
I've become very selfcentered - and self-sufficient ....... but I notice those around me rarely did bend over bckwards to faciliate me. I seem to be the one who went along with it all - so now I appear selfish.
Don't give a shit tbh.