what finally made your quit stick?

[Guitarista]

Yo Pauly and y'all.

I put myself on ignore all the time. It's a special feature only available to members with 17,000 posts. Wowza, that's a lot of yakking!

One constant thing I notice with you is you never give up on the big picture. You always pick yourself up and try again. That is not to be underestimated. It says there is a zest for life in there.

Just remember that one boozing session the way we drink, can take us into dangerous territory without warning. A trip, slip hitting our head, an argument, pass out choking on our vomit. One seemingly 'controlled' session with the intention of getting back on track in a couple of days can land us in hospital easily, or worse.

It helps me to be at the stage where I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired, and plaster that vision up on my walls or wherever all around me.

Cool beans on day 4 Pauly! :happy2:

[NoraC]

Pauly - I think it's great that you are posting here. I am going to read all these again.

You know how many times I've done the back to day 1. I've been here for 6 years!!!!!!!!!!!! I am only on day 93.

You are going to do this.

[Sunbeam]

The list mentioned in my signature line gave me what I needed to stay quit.

[Samstone]

Yo Pauly and y'all.

I put myself on ignore all the time. It's a special feature only available to members with 17,000 posts. Wowza, that's a lot of yakking!

One constant thing I notice with you is you never give up on the big picture. You always pick yourself up and try again. That is not to be underestimated. It says there is a zest for life in there.

Just remember that one boozing session the way we drink, can take us into dangerous territory without warning. A trip, slip hitting our head, an argument, pass out choking on our vomit. One seemingly 'controlled' session with the intention of getting back on track in a couple of days can land us in hospital easily, or worse.

It helps me to be at the stage where I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired, and plaster that vision up on my walls or wherever all around me.

Cool beans on day 4 Pauly! :happy2:

G,
that is exactly what almost happened to me, drunk, getting out of the the bathtub, slipped on the floor, hit my neck on the edge of the tub, luckily it was not my head, but I was hurt bad enough to make me examine the next day WTF I was doing to myself, almost did to myself.

Pauly, I echo what's been said, you keep coming back, keep throwing that mud on the wall, one day it will stick, if you want it to.

[paulywogg]

Well of course I want it to stick,looking back on all of this, I realize how lazy I've been about allowing booze back into my life again and again, a bad day,full moon,pms,it was Tuesday etc,I drank this last series of relapses a lot!the most I've drank since May and I tell you the fatigue and foggy head made me realize just what the hell I'vebeen ddumping into my body,in the past withdrawal would only last a few days,this time Istill feel weird aand its been 10 days,had a shitty day today and every psycho on a state check got paid and came into my shop just to piss us off!!and I'm tired,stupid clock change and I'm pms'ing but I'm breathing through it,I can do this crap!

[Guitarista]

Yep, you can do this buddy.

I see that our excessive drinking is a progressive thing. It get's worse not better for us. Hope you're feeling better real soon. Wishing you a peaceful week and throw in some self lovin'.

[paulywogg]

That sounds dirty Mr.G Hahahaha

[NoraC]

Hey Pauly......great job on standing firm!

[mama bear]

You can do this Pauly.....try to find some joy in your life......what makes you happy?

[paulywogg]

Why does everyone think I'm so bummed? Lots of things make me happy,if happiness was the only key to staying sober I'm sure I'd have it in the bag,I'm only human and have the same bad days everyone has,maybe I should keep them to myself

[paulywogg]

One thing that's discussed often is peeps thinking"oh,I'm not that bad" I know how bad I am,I'm quite the opposite in thinking that there's no possible way I can relate to a lot of the people here cuz I'm positive I drank triple the amount as them,how can someone who only drank 2 glasses of wine be in the same category as someone who drank 14+ beers?and that was daily always comfortably numb,I've read its not the amount, its how it effects you but I'm still just thinking out loud about it

[Spiritfree]

One thing that's discussed often is peeps thinking"oh,I'm not that bad" I know how bad I am,I'm quite the opposite in thinking that there's no possible way I can relate to a lot of the people here cuz I'm positive I drank triple the amount as them,how can someone who only drank 2 glasses of wine be in the same category as someone who drank 14+ beers?and that was daily always comfortably numb,I've read its not the amount, its how it effects you but I'm still just thinking out loud about it

Hi Pauly -you make a very good point about the quantity of drinking and being able to relate or not relate to those people. The degrees of alcoholism (AUD) are wide spread, but I truly don't think that someone who only drinks two glasses of wine per day can understand the true mental disorder of AUD. I stopped trying to discuss the mental disorder with these folks years ago as they simply can not understand the brain disorder/malwiring that underlies alcoholism. It's not there fault that they do not understand, but there are a few open minded people that can understand it is a brain disorder.

Pauly, please try not to get upset with me for asking this question relative to your question asking why everyone thinks you are so "bummed" all of the time. Just ask yourself when was the last time that you made a positive, encouraging post, about something that is good and happy for you (other than not drinking for a few days).?

[abcowboy]

pauly, I never picture you as being bummed! When I think of you, I picture this smiling, happy prankster! Probably way off base, but I don't think you walk around with a doom and gloom attitude, quite the opposite in fact! I know it's been tough on you, maybe a bit tougher than most, but you've shown how resilient you are and your never quit attitude. I know one day your drinking will be behind you, maybe this is the quit :hug: And hear you on the beer, 15 pack a day Budweiser man here....

[NoraC]

I was going to say the same thing, Cowboy. I never think of Pauly as being bummed. And, I she does make positive, encouraging posts.

[paulywogg]

Good things about sobriety today: did 18 haircuts, enjoyed my coffee/coconut oil concoction, tired but not tired tired,Loved the rain,no stopping at gas stations (except for gas) no smuggling, no headache,no burning eyeballs,sinuses feel clear,played bills,put money in the bank,didn't buy cigs or booze,remembered everything.